Weird feeling.

[matrolin.101]

So I'm 15 years old and I'd say I'm LMTN and I got good status in my area but I still feel kind of empty.I was kinda depressed and anxious asf last year cause I had severe acne and I wasn't satisfied with anything,I longed female attention more than anything but I was ugly asf and had severe acne so I couldn't really get any female attention.Then I dedicated myself for a year to softmaxxing which got me a bit far and gave me my confidence back,I took accutane and minoxidil and to clear up my skin and got some facial hair.This seems to work as of the moment cause I'm getting female attention now(not drowning in it,but for sure some of it).Random girls add me on snap and saying I'm handsome,girls that used to hate me treat me better and have added me on many platforms,girls from school are holding eye contact with me now and some of them have crushes on me,I secured my first kiss(HLTB) some weeks ago but this doesn't feel right.I've gotten even sadder somehow and I noticed I started acting colder and more detached than I should,probably out of resentment.I've even got a date with a very attractive and cute girl next week but this still doesn't make me happy cause I know she'd leave me for Chad.I guess I have to cope with this feeling and swallow the bullet.
has anybody else had this feeling and how did you guys go with it?

 

[jester]

So I'm 15 years old and I'd say I'm LMTN and I got good status in my area but I still feel kind of empty.I was kinda depressed and anxious asf last year cause I had severe acne and I wasn't satisfied with anything,I longed female attention more than anything but I was ugly asf and had severe acne so I couldn't really get any female attention.Then I dedicated myself for a year to softmaxxing which got me a bit far and gave me my confidence back,I took accutane and minoxidil and to clear up my skin and got some facial hair.This seems to work as of the moment cause I'm getting female attention now(not drowning in it,but for sure some of it).Random girls add me on snap and saying I'm handsome,girls that used to hate me treat me better and have added me on many platforms,girls from school are holding eye contact with me now and some of them have crushes on me,I secured my first kiss(HLTB) some weeks ago but this doesn't feel right.I've gotten even sadder somehow and I noticed I started acting colder and more detached than I should,probably out of resentment.I've even got a date with a very attractive and cute girl next week but this still doesn't make me happy cause I know she'd leave me for Chad.I guess I have to cope with this feeling and swallow the bullet.
has anybody else had this feeling and how did you guys go with it?

you’re very well spoken for 15, i’d say focus on hobbies, girls aren’t everything, they seem like they are when you’re basically nonexistent to them but when you start getting some attention from them it’s like okay whatever
maybe play a sport or some video games you’ll be fine