What A Boring Life (Diary Entry)

[darkness97]

is life even worth living if it just revolves around your romantic life. I am utterly obsessed with romance and love yet destroy every opportunity that comes before me.

My life is nothing but the pursuit of intimacy with my own self being my greatest adversary. there has to be a good reason for why i am doing it. for a brain that is a complex as it is, and all the behavioral changes that we make unconsciously there has to be a good fucking reason for why I do this. it may not even be good, but rationally following a model that is beyond my own understanding.

Maybe I just think that i am a horrid piece of shit that is too ugly to believe that women would truly like me. or maybe I am just way too much of a pussy to take any chances due to the possibility of failure.

I have thought of all of these things again, and again. Yet, here i am. typing the same thing for years.

I don't know what's worse. being stuck in your own man made hell, or not wanting to leave. how hilarious is that? Life truly is a comedy.

 

[darkness97]

Did you know that children skip not because they are in a good mood. but because it is the most efficient mode of travel for their height and weight?

is there an unconscious body within me that is making these decisions with the idea that it is better or more efficient?

 

[FastBananaCEO]

I know what you mean, literally a few months ago I realized that I never really did anything outside of pursuing validation. This has been a problem for my entire life, even before I bothered with talking to girls.

I mean I guess it's alright, considering I have had relationships in the past and I have friends thankfully, but even then I don't think it's really that fun to go to parties, hit up girls with fake conversations, and do stuff meaningless stuff with my friends.

I do some hobbies that I don't really enjoy, such as piano and sports just for the sake of fucking doing something.

But I feel as if being an empty shell is more than a little concerning. I unironically need to be bluepilled and get some enjoyable hobbies outside of watching youtube and playing games with the boys online. Even then the latter is still a social activity to some extent.

it is over jfl

 

[getra]

I was the same. Pretty sure it’s cus I’m ugly.

 

[getra]

And that’s before I got fat

 

[darkness97]

I was the same. Pretty sure it’s cus I’m ugly.

how tall are you?

 

[getra]

how tall are you?

5’9

 

[darkness97]

5’9

you are a liar. you are not Bobbu_flay.

this is actually good news. it seems that he just left.

 

[Vermilioncore]

I literally don’t give a single fuck

 

[darkness97]

I literally don’t give a single fuck

as soon as i saw the name on my notification bar my eyes rolled to near blindness. yeah thanks tips.

 

[ajq9q9wajka]

Have you tried injecting test

 

[darkness97]

Have you tried injecting test

typical.

and no lol. maybe i should i dunno inhibition is a bitch.

 

[ajq9q9wajka]

typical.

and no lol. maybe i should i dunno inhibition is a bitch.

Wym Inhibition

u had a chance to get a cute girl but high inhib killed u?

 

[darkness97]

Wym Inhibition

u had a chance to get a cute girl but high inhib killed u?

being a pussy yeah lol.

i'm saying that with the T i would have had a higher sex drive and as a result not thought so hard about it to the point where i cucked myself. I am 24 though.

 

[ajq9q9wajka]

being a pussy yeah lol.

i'm saying that with the T i would have had a higher sex drive and as a result not thought so hard about it to the point where i cucked myself. I am 24 though.

Ok so ur chilling ur gl enough to get girls just high inhib

U can fix that ez if u were to sexually starve urself by nofapmaxxing ur inhib would definitely lower

 

[darkness97]

Ok so ur chilling ur gl enough to get girls just high inhib

U can fix that ez if u were to sexually starve urself by nofapmaxxing ur inhib would definitely lower

this might be the answer lol. i never keep it simple. i'll try this and if do anything extraordinary then i will write a thread and tag you in it.

 

[MostGLSlayer]

I used to be high inhib when it comes to girls but then I realized that they are retarded once they open their mouths. You just have to stop being like a normie and talk sexually to them not directly but indirectly using body language and tone of voice etc.

 

[darkness97]

I used to be high inhib when it comes to girls but then I realized that they are retarded once they open their mouths. You just have to stop being like a normie and talk sexually to them not directly but indirectly using body language and tone of voice etc.

extremely interesting. could u be more specific? like deeper voice? what is sexual body language?

 

[MostGLSlayer]

extremely interesting. could u be more specific? like deeper voice? what is sexual body language?

Yeah deeper voice, good eye contact, no laughing too much, let her do all the laughing and giggling. if you noticed and listened in on slayers talk to girls irl then you know. It's so different from the way normies talk to girls. Theres a defintiely a different energy when they talk to them. They are always talking indifferently to the girl and never reveal too much about themselves.

Unironically alot of the redpill stuff works when she is attracted to you already. Girls communicate through your energy and body language more than what you say. It's more how you communicate it. You said you had high inhib when approaching? so heres an example of that...

For example, I once caught a girl in my lecture stealing glances at me from afar. I noticed it and held my eye contact. She quickly looked away but looked back almost immediately. This time I just shot her a slight smile and some eyebrow raises. She quickly turned around and never looked back and I thought it was over. After lecture I walked out of class and what do you know, she was standing outside in the halls waiting for me. I gave her another eyebrow raise and she smiled. I said hi and she replied back. I said hey I saw you in class today! She was like omg same! I just said Cool, hey give me your number and we can start texting! And she did. Lmk if you need any help thru dm's bro