What an unproductive year

[OOGABOOGA]

I remember one year ago, on the 4th of July I went for a late night walk by myself. Just walking around, bored and lonely, listening to the insane Chicago fireworks. Just now I realized I’m doing the same thing. Sitting in my backyard, all alone, listening to the fireworks. A year has gone by.

I got some pussy, sure. I cleared my acne, grew out my hair, lost 15-20 pounds. Overall gained a solid half psl point. But I’m still broke, still disabled despite two surgeries, still no social life, no social media.

Time just flies by so fast. It’s such a blur. I hope when I hear the fireworks next year I’ll be able to look back and know much more was accomplished.

 

[Deleted member 7044]

u got ur dick sucked which is more than i've accomplished in my lifetime

 

[OOGABOOGA]

u got ur dick sucked which is more than i've accomplished in my lifetime

Sorry man, still wasted potential hurts. I had very high standards for myself growing up but now I’m a bum

 

[Adriana Lima]

god ur such a normie

 

[Looks234]

Crazy how it’s July already. New Years felt like a week ago.

 

[Deleted member 5180]

2021 is already halfway gone, and nothing has changed in my life this year

 

[AlwaysHaveQuestions]

Crazy how it’s July already. New Years felt like a week ago.

11 days until my anniversary

 

[OOGABOOGA]

god ur such a normie

Wym

2021 is already halfway gone, and nothing has changed in my life this year

Crazy how it’s July already. New Years felt like a week ago.

Exactly guys one day we’ll be 30 and wondering where the time has gone. Fuck I hope I can sort my shit out soon

 

[Looks234]

Wym


Exactly guys one day we’ll be 30 and wondering where the time has gone. Fuck I hope I can sort my shit out soon

Fuck bro, the agepill is brutal. I need to moneymaxx.

 

[OOGABOOGA]

What is your disability? Is it serious.

I have a crippling, somewhat anomalous form of sleep apnea. I haven’t been able to wake up feeling rested at a consistent time since middle school. No second half of a sleep cycle so a typical night is 10+ hours of sleep, wake up flaccid and have shit libido and eq all day due to lack of nocturnal erections, super mentally groggy for hours, and have brain fog all day. Physically very fatigued as well. And since I don’t wake up properly I don’t feel awake til late in the day so I end up with maaaaajor insomnia as well. So the days just blur together as I live in this subdued, exhausted state, and no doctor can figure out how to fix me

 

[OOGABOOGA]

What do you think causes the apnea and insomnia? i can fall asleep in like 10 minutes if i meditate and use diaphragm breathing and it used to take me like an hour plus before. sleep apnea is caused by breathing issue tho right? or can it be neurological too?

The doctors I’m seeing right now(both Stanford trained, best in the world) both believe that now that my fat tonsils are out I need to undergo myofunctional therapy(mouth/tongue exercises) as well as neural sleep therapy which I’ll start next week.

They believe that since my body has gotten used to airway obstruction since such a young age, my brain has learned not to allow me to enter deep sleep. Kind of like ptsd I guess. Apparently there are therapy methods to fix this. Fingers crossed bc if that doesn’t do it then idfk. I want bimax for aesthetic reasons but I’ve seen the ct scans. I’m recessed but not to the point that bimax would fix me(probably)

 

[LipstickAlley]

At least you improved, better than nothing