What are the reasons of emotional outburst and anger towards my family?

[Nation]

I'm not anymore on SSRI bevause they made me such an assertive yesman, my social role on SSRI's was to be the goofball of the group who's happy with it and I laughed everytime they treated me like the laughing stocks of the group.

Since I stopped SSRI's I found I'm inhibited to treat assholes like they should be treated; I shut up and at work I'm considered the nicest guy ever ehich is not bad to be high trust.

But...at home I explode all my frustrations on my mom, I turn irritable and aggressive very easily even with no reasons.
I hate to be nervous for stupid reason and Zoloft made me happy with the world around me.

Now I literally don't know what to do, I'm 27 and I feel like a child and even if I lift since I was a little kind I look at myself and I see an assertive beta male who can't react to assholes because I fear their reactions.
My biggest fear is to get in a fight because I don't know how to protect myself and I end up to keep calm and neber fight even if there are legit reasons to be mad.

I can't be aggressive with other males because since I was bullied at school because of my appereance and OCD's all I can do is laugh at their jokes about me.
Also I live near a bad neighborood full of low class impulsive men who wants to AMOG me just because its their territory.

I don't know what to do; I lift since I was 15 but I need to be more impulsive, explosive and aggressive with people or at least look more intimidating.
What can I do?

I don't want to be aggressive with my mother because she doesn't deserve it but it seems I can only react to her

I don't know if running pure DHT like proviron or some stimulants like ephedrine HCL could help me to be more awake and masculine

 

[PURE ARYAN GENETICS]

looksmaxing

 

[FootLongDong]

Wrong place nigga

 

[Good_Little_Goy]

dht will make you more angry
it won't change your psychological issues, you'll end up reacting worse to your mother.
try phenibut but don't use it constantly

edit: also get therapy

 

[JFLbuddyboyo]

I suggest that you take up boxing and spar with people that way your body will learn how to react in fighting and condition yourself for those situations also learn mma that'll help.

But remember what Mike Tyson said "everyone has a plan till they get punched in the mouth"

 

[bhad]

> I shut up and at work I'm considered the nicest guy ever ehich is not bad to be high trust.

Seems like you are repressing any emotions at work to put on the "nice guy" facade then when you are at home it's the only time you can release stress which happens to be on your mom. Don't do that bro. Drugs won't help you feel masculine, you need to reclaim your masculinity with fighting (Muay Thai/MMA).

 

[Cares]

take up a combat sport or if thats too violent for you, take up a contact sport where things get physical

 

[TeenagePharmacy]

Sounds like low T ngl.

 

[Bromose]

Sounds like the opposite of a alpha