What are you feeling right now? Don't think, just type! [MEGATHREAD]

[Deleted member 279298]

This post is a completelely free-speech, free-flow thread, meant as a diary and discussion space without ANY judgment, filters or structure.

I want you - the user reading this - to write down exactly how YOU are feeling right now.

You don't have to sound smart, try to not be corny, or make any sense, JUST TYPE. Any input is appreciated and seen as a lot - venting, chatting, jokes, shizo ramblings - they're all welcome.

examples:
- how your day went
- what you're feeling, and why you're feeling it
- even one word that describes your mood is allowed.

Responses and discussions are invited and encouraged, and i myself will be reading and trying to respond to every single answer.

Everyone's allowed here, and it's a completely safe space without any expectations, just be human.

Idk man, i just MIGHT not be able to marry sadie sink

 

[BigBallsLarry]

Emotional dryness/repression

how did you find this thread? was it off of my activitity?

why dryness?

 

[BigBallsLarry]

Idk man, i just MIGHT not be able to marry sadie sink

Never give up man, she might be just around the corner waiting for you..

 

[Fridx]

Nothing for a long time

 

[BigBallsLarry]

Nothing for a long time

I guess we did already talk about this.. hope it gets better for you man, i'm always free to talk (although toda i'll be busy..)

 

[Histy]

how did you find this thread? was it off of my activitity?

Yep

why dryness?

Overthinking and a lot of stress that led to this.
Beside that I rarely see my girlfriend due to the final highschool exams.

 

[Deleted member 279298]

Never give up man, she might be just around the corner waiting for you..

 

[ilian]

When will i find the right woman for me?

 

[BigBallsLarry]

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i swear to god man, any day now

i'm holding my crystal ball right here infront of me

 

[BigBallsLarry]

Overthinking and a lot of stress that led to this.
Beside that I rarely see my girlfriend due to the final highschool exams.

Ah i see, good luck with your exams.

I know how that phase feels, it's gonna go away after you stop stressing. For now focus on doing your best.

 

[BigBallsLarry]

@Jason Voorhees @Starborn @vevcred @BigBallsHisty @TechnoBoss reviving this thread i accept the necropost warning pls reply im very bored

 

[Deleted member 2520]

@Jason Voorhees @Starborn @vevcred @BigBallsHisty @TechnoBoss reviving this thread i accept the necropost warning pls reply im very bored

Nigga it’s your own thread you can bump it all you want

 

[Jason Voorhees]

@Jason Voorhees @Starborn @vevcred @BigBallsHisty @TechnoBoss reviving this thread i accept the necropost warning pls reply im very bored

Rn I feel disillusioned, frustrated and slightly angry because of the situation that just happened with my senior but shit like this happens

 

[BigBallsLarry]

Nigga it’s your own thread you can bump it all you want

no u still get warned for bumping ur old threads i think

 

[Deleted member 2520]

no u still get warned for bumping ur old threads i think

I bumped like a bunch of my old threads and never got a warning

I think it only applies for people bumping like other peoples thread

 

[BigBallsLarry]

Rn I feel disillusioned, frustrated and slightly angry because of the situation that just happened with my senior but shit like this happens

honestly if i was in that call i'd start arguing with him and telling him that he has cancer so i give you big props for staying composured

 

[BigBallsLarry]

I bumped like a bunch of my old threads and never got a warning

I think it only applies for people bumping like other peoples thread

maybe ur just lucky and mods didn't see it..

 

[BigBallsLarry]

@Starborn you aren't permitted to stop replying untill i tell you to

how are you doing

 

[BigBallsLarry]

i'm feeling very mad because i got a 1 day ban for running it down in league of legends

 

[Deleted member 2520]

@Starborn you aren't permitted to stop replying untill i tell you to

how are you doing

Yes sir.


I’m doing good.

 

[mlglocalfatkid]

just listening to some hardstyle and chilling

 

[BigBallsLarry]

Yes sir.


I’m doing good.

is that it? just good? be more creative bro how am i supposed to be entertained by this

im glad ur doing good tho hope it stays that way

 

[tomacōck]

I'm surprisingly numb today... the suicidality hasn't worn off, and I dread for the day I may be free again.
I'm also fasting, which is great!! Glory be to God

 

[Deleted member 2520]

is that it? just good? be more creative bro how am i supposed to be entertained by this

im glad ur doing good tho hope it stays that way

I’m not doing good actually tbh

I made a thread like 2 hour ago about my grnadma

She’s very crazy and told me she doesn’t want to be my grandmother anymore my family is a mess

Been mega depressed and suicidal the last month

 

[Deleted member 2520]

I’m not doing good actually tbh

I made a thread like 2 hour ago about my grnadma

She’s very crazy and told me she doesn’t want to be my grandmother anymore my family is a mess

Been mega depressed and suicidal the last month

Like how do your own grandma tell you she don’t love you and doesn’t want to be your grandma anymore brah

 

[BigBallsLarry]

just listening to some hardstyle and chilling

what songs? i have this playlist in soundcloud lol i think it's pretty decent for playing high APM games

 

[BigBallsLarry]

I'm surprisingly numb today... the suicidality hasn't worn off, and I dread for the day I may be free again.
I'm also fasting, which is great!! Glory be to God

i noticed that during depression people either starve or eat untill they cant eat anymore, i'm the latter

hopefully everything you wish for comes to you swiftly

 

[tomacōck]

i noticed that during depression people either starve or eat untill they cant eat anymore, i'm the latter

We must be alike!

hopefully everything you wish for comes to you swiftly

Thank you

 

[BigBallsLarry]

Like how do your own grandma tell you she don’t love you and doesn’t want to be your grandma anymore brah

she's a woman, they're pretty emotional and say dumb things when angry, don't take it at face value, i'm sure she still loves you deep inside.

to be honest it's hard to find non-suicidal people on here, offtopic is like an escape for you

 

[mlglocalfatkid]

what songs? i have this playlist in soundcloud lol i think it's pretty decent for playing high APM games

nice man nice to see bubble gum bitch in there good song

normally I like older euphoric melodic type stuff like these (timestamped the good parts )





one of my personal favs:




euphoric/rawphoric kicks are my fav



though I do like some new songs:

 

[Histy]

This post is a completelely free-speech, free-flow thread, meant as a diary and discussion space without ANY judgment, filters or structure.

I want you - the user reading this - to write down exactly how YOU are feeling right now.

You don't have to sound smart, try to not be corny, or make any sense, JUST TYPE. Any input is appreciated and seen as a lot - venting, chatting, jokes, shizo ramblings - they're all welcome.

examples:
- how your day went
- what you're feeling, and why you're feeling it
- even one word that describes your mood is allowed.

Responses and discussions are invited and encouraged, and i myself will be reading and trying to respond to every single answer.

Everyone's allowed here, and it's a completely safe space without any expectations, just be human.

I just woke up 2 hours ago , and I got mild headache for some reason
But it's vanishing by time.
I feel kinda empty and I lack of dopamine ig as I got nothing to do ( PC is broken to play videos games , TikTok is boring , parents won't let me out ) which bothers me a lot that I can't even meet my gf for a long time further
As I already said , my father loves to control everything in my life and won't let me out for more than an hour .
All I think about is her hug and her voice going through my head while we looking at each others with happiness and love.
It kills me that she gets sad that we couldn't meet many times while I had nothing to do about it.
Scoliosis still affecting my health , pretty sure that it may still like this forever despite my upper back is somehow healing.

Summer vacation is literally so boring and it's not by my hand.
Broken pc , narcy father , home lockdown for.no reason.

I hope I get out asap as I'm getting crazier everyday and refuse to be the bad guy in this life.

All I wanted is to be a happy person, which it seems impossible for me and the place I live in

Thinking about government and capitalistic system is so tiring as all you do is being a school slave for 16 years , and then 4-7 years in college
Then after while you become a wageslave for the rest of your life .
Earning money which barely pay your bills and nobody even dare to speak.
If revolution happen , nothing change
And currently whenever anyone wanted to make a peaceful revolution on this Motherfucker system
They just arrest them and literally make them disappear without knowing what happens to these innocent people who were just suffering in this Stupid Motherfucker Jewish country.
Idfc if they kill or arrest me for continuously saying bad shit about the country everywhere.
I believe I'm a fucking free person who can do whatever the fuck he wants.
I don't fear killing any person who tries to endanger my life or even threaten me.
I'm pissed enough of this world while ALL I WANTED IS TO LIVE HAPPY AND MARRY THE GIRL I LOVE.
IS THAT TOO MUCH FOR A HUMAN KIND ??
FUXK NO , BUT YEAH
I LIVE IN A 4TH WORLD COUNTRY WHICH DETERMINE EVERYTHING ON HOW WELL YOU KNOW BASIC FORMULA OF BLAH BLAH AND SOME RANDOM BS THAT NO ONE WILL EVER USE IN HIS LIFE .
I COULD SEE PEOPLE GETS IN TROUBLE JUST FOR SHOWING LOVE FOR THEIR PARTNER OR EVEN THEIR GF/BF
MEANWHILE YOU COULD SEE A STUPID FAGGOT BEATING HIS WIFE AND COPS
THE FUCKIN COPES WILL WATCH AND THEY THAT'S NORMAL

ISN'T IT NORMAL TOO TO SHOW LOVE FOR YOUR PARTNER?
WHY WHENEVER I SEE SOMEONE HUGGING OR KISSING THEIR PARTNER OUTDOORS THE FUCKING POLICE SAYS " That's an Indecency case " ANS LITERALLY RUIN THEIR DAY JUST FOR LOVING EACH OTHER

I literally want to live on a hill between big mountains in a green valley
Having my own farm and my beautiful wife

Isolated away from this Fucked Up Society I live with and do wtv the fuck I want

Yk , at some point I will start fighting others without giving a shit anymore
My life couldn't be more worse that it could be .

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Consider that as a vent or serious talk
Just observe yourself and tell me what you think.

 

[Deleted member 2520]

she's a woman, they're pretty emotional and say dumb things when angry, don't take it at face value, i'm sure she still loves you deep inside.

to be honest it's hard to find non-suicidal people on here, offtopic is like an escape for you

Dude she is so tweaked out on meds

She takes 49 pills bro

Takes benzodiazepines for sleep

she’s just crazy lol

still hurt tho she blocked me to

 

[BigBallsLarry]

nice man nice to see bubble gum bitch in there good song

normally I like older euphoric melodic type stuff like these (timestamped the good parts )





one of my personal favs:




euphoric/rawphoric kicks are my fav



though I do like some new songs:

the galaxy one is amazing, good stuff man

 

[Askinov]

 

[BigBallsLarry]

I feel kinda empty and I lack of dopamine ig as I got nothing to do ( PC is broken to play videos games , TikTok is boring , parents won't let me out ) which bothers me a lot that I can't even meet my gf for a long time further
As I already said , my father loves to control everything in my life and won't let me out for more than an hour .

thats extremely shitty, you cant go out and can't entertain yourself inside? how are you even surviving bro i'd suggest we play together but if your PC is broken then it's doomed, you should try doing at home calisthenics unironically, i used to do it a lot and hours went by really fast as long as you have enough room to play around.

I literally want to live on a hill between big mountains in a green valley
Having my own farm and my beautiful wife

we all want this but it's unrealistic without being ultra rich, fortunately i like to hope that with time everything is possible, it seems rough right now because we're still both very young but you can't give up on it otherwise it will actually never be a possibility. for now focus on improving your mental and discipline, with time you'll become a great person

 

[Askinov]

Yeah i didnt think

 

[BigBallsLarry]

Dude she is so tweaked out on meds

She takes 49 pills bro

Takes benzodiazepines for sleep

she’s just crazy lol

still hurt tho she blocked me to

makes sense, my mom used to also be on a lot of pills and she'd have these crazy breakdowns where she'd say i'm a piece of shit. She's been off them for some years now and she's the kindest soul ever, crazy what 'medicine' does to your brain.

 

[BigBallsLarry]

Yeah i didnt think

tbh that's exactly what i wanted to hear thank you

 

[mlglocalfatkid]

the galaxy one is amazing, good stuff man

what other genres do you like to listen to?

 

[BigBallsLarry]

what other genres do you like to listen to?

i'm mainly a metal guy so any metal genres is my jam, it's also the reason i began liking loud beats in my eardrums like hardstyle or hardtekk

other than that i also like jazz, radio classics, polish classics

i'm like the epidome of listening to anything, except bullshit like phonk or mumble rap

 

[Histy]

thats extremely shitty, you cant go out and can't entertain yourself inside? how are you even surviving bro i'd suggest we play together but if your PC is broken then it's doomed, you should try doing at home calisthenics unironically, i used to do it a lot and hours went by really fast as long as you have enough room to play around.

Yk , I already do calisthenics
The only thing I put power on tbh
As I push all my anger into it that I even mastered a lot of moves and shit .

we all want this but it's unrealistic without being ultra rich, fortunately i like to hope that with time everything is possible, it seems rough right now because we're still both very young but you can't give up on it otherwise it will actually never be a possibility. for now focus on improving your mental and discipline, with time you'll become a great person

I hope so bro , It's so ironic that I understand making money more than my father
But I'm just trapped in here doing nothing.
At the earliest opportunity , I wil literally make enough money for person my age.
Investing , reselling good stuff
Selling services
Yk , I've been already studying these stuff for a year and half .
It worked out good , but now all I need is a bit of personal freedom to Shine

 

[BigBallsLarry]

As I push all my anger into it that I even mastered a lot of moves and shit .

im thinking of going into calisthenics again, i became a NEET and gained some weight and lost all my strenght lol, basically turned to shit. i went from doing 20 push ups to barely scratching 5

 

[mlglocalfatkid]

i'm mainly a metal guy so any metal genres is my jam, it's also the reason i began liking loud beats in my eardrums like hardstyle or hardtekk

other than that i also like jazz, radio classics, polish classics

i'm like the epidome of listening to anything, except bullshit like phonk or mumble rap

hell yeah i've always had a soft side for metal esp. numetal

hardstyle hardcore techno and classic trance and dubstep are my favs as well as d&b

 

[BigBallsLarry]

But I'm just trapped in here doing nothing.

issue of being young

 

[psychopathic]

I'm feeling the urge to necro bump

 

[BigBallsLarry]

I'm feeling the urge to necro bump

do it rules are meant to be broken

 

[accinr]

why do

This post is a completelely free-speech, free-flow thread, meant as a diary and discussion space without ANY judgment, filters or structure.

I want you - the user reading this - to write down exactly how YOU are feeling right now.

You don't have to sound smart, try to not be corny, or make any sense, JUST TYPE. Any input is appreciated and seen as a lot - venting, chatting, jokes, shizo ramblings - they're all welcome.

examples:
- how your day went
- what you're feeling, and why you're feeling it
- even one word that describes your mood is allowed.

Responses and discussions are invited and encouraged, and i myself will be reading and trying to respond to every single answer.

Everyone's allowed here, and it's a completely safe space without any expectations, just be human.

i hope she likes me back, the chances seem close to none if she does not i wish to know truly so i could move on

 

[Deleted member 2520]

makes sense, my mom used to also be on a lot of pills and she'd have these crazy breakdowns where she'd say i'm a piece of shit. She's been off them for some years now and she's the kindest soul ever, crazy what 'medicine' does to your brain.

This is why I need to quit xanax

Bet I’m like this and I don’t even realize

 

[BigBallsLarry]

hell yeah i've always had a soft side for metal esp. numetal

hardstyle hardcore techno and classic trance and dubstep are my favs as well as d&b

NUMETAL is nice but it gets old fast, especially when tiktok kids ruin it and make it corny, you can check out my spotify profile for some playlists if you have it

blahblahblah

User · blahblahblah

open.spotify.com

 

[BigBallsLarry]

This is why I need to quit xanax

Bet I’m like this and I don’t even realize

u take xanax?