What can I do to solve my issues

[Vermilioncore]

I’ll always be socially avoidant, anti social, misanthropic and have an inferiority complex mixed with severe anxiety fear and despair and hyperawareness that I can’t fix because I can’t turn my brain off. I can’t just not think. The only way it stops is when I sleep but I don’t get to feel the relief becuase I’m unconscious. So to stop thinking I just talk and say random words to myself when I’m alone so my thoughts don’t get too loud.

I can’t look anyone in the eye and I fear the presence of other brains near me being able to judge and see me through their own lens and worldview


What medication will help me

 

[uglybrownskinman]

Is it a yellows tendency, no medication.

 

[Vermilioncore]

Is it a yellows tendency, no medication.

get lost Yellow Man

 

[lookingforward]

Hmmm, Xanax.

 

[Vermilioncore]

Hmmm, Xanax.

I have been told that might help but i don’t think that’s a permanent fix

 

[prettyboy.elyas]

I have been told that might help but i don’t think that’s a permanent fix

Don't fuck with benzos. They're addictive and really hard to wane off.

 

[kisslessvirgin]

I have been told that might help but i don’t think that’s a permanent fix

there is no permanent fix, only things to make it more bearable

 

[MANLETprettyBOY]

get more tatts

 

[tomahawk]

 

[MANLETprettyBOY]

Don't fuck with benzos. They're addictive and really hard to wane off.

Pussy

 

[prettyboy.elyas]

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[MANLETprettyBOY]

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Try again faggot

 

[Vermilioncore]

Spent the morning pacing the room talking to myself and my pet pigeon plush friend

 

[asdvek]

Kill yourself shitskin

 

[Vermilioncore]

Kill yourself shitskin

Hop off my thread fat shitskin failure, I don’t need input from bald Indians

 

[asdvek]

Hop off my thread fat shitskin failure, I don’t need input from bald Indians

Cool? I'm white with a head full of hair, you're a balding spic

 

[Vermilioncore]

Cool? I'm white with a head full of hair, you're a balding spic

You’re an ugly fat shitskin rotter. Now bye lil Indian, go work your fruit cart and kys

 

[asdvek]

You’re an ugly fat shitskin rotter. Now bye lil Indian, go work your fruit cart and kys

5'6 fat alcoholic spic talking btw

 

[jpowbanzai]

there is no permanent fix, only things to make it more bearable

I don't understand. A few years ago I had very low anxiety and no trouble talking to most people, now I can barely leave the house or have conversations without going into fight or flight. If it's a developed thing shouldn't it be reversible?

 

[Prøphet]

I don't understand. A few years ago I had very low anxiety and no trouble talking to most people, now I can barely leave the house or have conversations without going into fight or flight. If it's a developed thing shouldn't it be reversible?

Do it scared

 

[kisslessvirgin]

I don't understand. A few years ago I had very low anxiety and no trouble talking to most people, now I can barely leave the house or have conversations without going into fight or flight. If it's a developed thing shouldn't it be reversible?

try replicating the conditions from when you did not have issues.

 

[jpowbanzai]

try replicating the conditions from when you did not have issues.

this is good advice. i wonder if my lack of issues was residual from having previously ntmaxxed for some time and gaining confidence, and if my isolation has had compounding effects, which has raised my barrier to social interaction. it's hard really to pinpoint what exact conditions in my prior environment were responsible for my being low inhib. one thing is in school there was constant forced social interaction, and when i was in the dorms i lived with a roommate who got on with well (although hes been negging me lately now that he has cooler friends (although i haven't reached out)), and I always was able to get a quick warm-up conversation in before I was able to leave the house. It could have also been my diet, as when I was in school and in the dorms I ate a fairly normal diet, whereas as of late I've been trying to cut weight pretty hard and only really getting in about 1000 calories a day. if my diet were the core issue I wouldn't change it, cutting weight is probably more important to me than being nt. overall, analyzing my prior environment, while a nebulous excercise, may be worthwhile. I will see what i can figure out. Do you have any advice?.