what do i do with my life

[Frizbreeze]

Genuinely sometimes i'm just sitting in my room, looking back at the days where I was actually happy, and I think "is this all really worth it? Is it worth the thousands of minutes i've spent under constant envy that I'll never be the perfect man and no one will truly love me for me" My motivation is so low now a days, and I'm so exhausted with everything in my life. It doesn't help that I might be schizophrenic too, and I genuinely just don't know what to do with my life anymore. The hallucinations are getting worse day by day, and honestly I'm starting to feed into what they say; I mean what else is there for me to do?
Starting to feel like everything is cope, and this depressing life was determined from the get go.

 

[HundredManSlayer]

been feeling that a lot too recently

i have no answer for you

 

[Frizbreeze]

been feeling that a lot too recently

i have no answer for you

doesn't help at all when i go onto tiktok or social media and see the sheer amount of people that claim that they've "ascended" when literally they had good base and just grew up. Can't take this life anymore, would rather die and not live at all, than live a life where i'm ashamed for being me everyday.

 

[Glorious King]

I'd say sucking a dick would solve all your issues

 

[HundredManSlayer]

doesn't help at all when i go onto tiktok or social media and see the sheer amount of people that claim that they've "ascended" when literally they had good base and just grew up. Can't take this life anymore, would rather die and not live at all, than live a life where i'm ashamed for being me everyday.

pretty much everything important in life is predetermined, that’s why it’s so important. it’s valuable because it cannot be gained though hard work or discipline.

i get that it’s hard, shi ive been wanting to rope lately but just hang around and wait for something cool to happen i guess

 

[Frizbreeze]

I'd say sucking a dick would solve all your issues

 

[Frizbreeze]

pretty much everything important in life is predetermined, that’s why it’s so important. it’s valuable because it cannot be gained though hard work or discipline.

i get that it’s hard, shi ive been wanting to rope lately but just hang around and wait for something cool to happen i guess

yeah don't see a point in working hard no more, shits futile anyways

 

[HundredManSlayer]

yeah don't see a point in working hard no more, shits futile anyways

only things worth working hard for are gym and money, that’s it

anything else is a waste of time. everything is futile even for chads. we all end up rotting in the ground, that’s the silver lining

 

[Frizbreeze]

only things worth working hard for are gym and money, that’s it

anything else is a waste of time. everything is futile even for chads. we all end up rotting in the ground, that’s the silver lining

yeah honestly that's all my life has come to. Money, gym and maybe talking to a bitch here and there. But honestly ion even like talking to bitches anymore, they're all just horny and wanna fuck, nothing real, and I just want something real, but that's never gna happen cs I'm neither tall nor CL

 

[HundredManSlayer]

yeah honestly that's all my life has come to. Money, gym and maybe talking to a bitch here and there. But honestly ion even like talking to bitches anymore, they're all just horny and wanna fuck, nothing real, and I just want something real, but that's never gna happen cs I'm neither tall nor CL

it doesn’t happen for tall guys or CL either, love does not exist at least not in the conventional sense.

 

[Frizbreeze]

and you might be right, but atleast they get the feeling of it more than I ever will

 

[its_so_overr]

Im living the exact same life These hallucinations are horrible I can’t even trust my own vision anymore

 

[Frizbreeze]

Im living the exact same life These hallucinations are horrible I can’t even trust my own vision anymore

genuinely it's getting bad, worst part is my psychiatrist isn't even calling me back to get another appointment, he was supposed to give me a call a month ago and I STILL haven't been. Healthcare system where I am is so shit, it genuinely might not b worth it anymore.

 

[yungleanfan]

Genuinely sometimes i'm just sitting in my room, looking back at the days where I was actually happy, and I think "is this all really worth it? Is it worth the thousands of minutes i've spent under constant envy that I'll never be the perfect man and no one will truly love me for me" My motivation is so low now a days, and I'm so exhausted with everything in my life. It doesn't help that I might be schizophrenic too, and I genuinely just don't know what to do with my life anymore. The hallucinations are getting worse day by day, and honestly I'm starting to feed into what they say; I mean what else is there for me to do?
Starting to feel like everything is cope, and this depressing life was determined from the get go.
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i started outdoor hobbies. hiking, greenwood carving, woodworking, that kind of stuff helps if u spend all ur time indoors

 

[Frizbreeze]

i started outdoor hobbies. hiking, greenwood carving, woodworking, that kind of stuff helps if u spend all ur time indoors

I have no energy to go outside, it's a struggle for me to even go to school; I only go outside to hangout with friends, go to the gym, and go to work/school. Other than that I have 0 reason to go outside.

 

[yungleanfan]

I have no energy to go outside, it's a struggle for me to even go to school; I only go outside to hangout with friends, go to the gym, and go to work/school. Other than that I have 0 reason to go outside.

hike with ur friends then
getting into a wooded area helped me with the schizo symptoms almost immediately too

 

[Frizbreeze]

hike with ur friends then
getting into a wooded area helped me with the schizo symptoms almost immediately too

bro honestly I feel like that would make me go more insane, I have extreme paranoia when I'm outside especially in secluded places. I hear people talking to me kinda like they're spying on me and they'll kill me if I'm not careful; it's sort of a like a game to them, I need to be aware of my surroundings or else they'll blow my shi clean off.

 

[yungleanfan]

bro honestly I feel like that would make me go more insane, I have extreme paranoia when I'm outside especially in secluded places. I hear people talking to me kinda like they're spying on me and they'll kill me if I'm not careful; it's sort of a like a game to them, I need to be aware of my surroundings or else they'll blow my shi clean off.

just go for a walk in an urban area then. but being outside helps if u spend all day inside u get worse ive had it happen to me a million times and its never been worth

 

[Frizbreeze]

just go for a walk in an urban area then. but being outside helps if u spend all day inside u get worse ive had it happen to me a million times and its never been worth

damn, is it for the vitamin D or it's just better to spend time outdoors? And also a huge issue is that I live in Canada, and it's GENUINELY freezing rn it's -34 degrees celcius atm so staying outside is out of the question. I used to go walks on the summer and honestly it never helped, I usually just went to the park and did swinging, or I'd just walk around listening to music, never helped honestly.

 

[yungleanfan]

damn, is it for the vitamin D or it's just better to spend time outdoors? And also a huge issue is that I live in Canada, and it's GENUINELY freezing rn it's -34 degrees celcius atm so staying outside is out of the question. I used to go walks on the summer and honestly it never helped, I usually just went to the park and did swinging, or I'd just walk around listening to music, never helped honestly.

when its a little warmer get a good coat on and walk somewhere where theres other people around like take a walk to a library or something they have events sometimes or get a creative hobby

 

[Frizbreeze]

when its a little warmer get a good coat on and walk somewhere where theres other people around like take a walk to a library or something they have events sometimes or get a creative hobby

alright bro igu, I'll do that when it's spring time; thank you.

 

[true_subhuman_here]

@Frizbreeze and @HundredManSlayer Im feeling exactly like the both of you, if you want help with anything Im here

 

[SoundnVision]

Theres not much out there tbh unless you're born good-looking and NT.

Just have hobbies and copes

 

[Frizbreeze]

@Frizbreeze and @HundredManSlayer Im feeling exactly like the both of you, if you want help with anything Im here

Hey man; we can't help really help with anything too much, but your morale support is enough. Thank you for trying mate and I appreciate you. I want you to know that I'm here for you too and I support you through all your endeavors as well, live life as poshly as you can; and be well in all the things you do. Thank you, and have a good day mate.

 

[sick kunt31]