
iblamemyself!
Jesus is the only way
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i’m 14. i already know what world i live in. i know what girls care about. i know what makes people pay attention. it’s not personality. it’s not kindness. it’s not “confidence.” it’s your face. and i want to improve mine before it’s too late.
but my parents? they don’t get it. I ask for roids they say no i ask for hgh they say no. i ask for supplements no. red light? no. better food? no. even creatine or collagen gets shut down. “you don’t need that.” “you’re fine.”
only thing they’ll buy is basic skincare. like that’s gonna fix midbone structure.
they don’t understand what it’s like being at the bottom of the hierarchy at this age. they didn’t grow up with social media, with being rated publicly, with seeing chads blow up on tiktok at 15 while you sit there invisible. they think i’m just “going through a phase.” but this isn’t a phase it’s reality.
i’ve tried natural looksmaxxing. i’m mewing. Good posture. chewing. sleeping early. cold showers. lymph drainage. the full routine. and i’m still mid. because natural takes years. and that’s time i don’t have. girls don’t wait for potential. they don’t care that you’ll be better “in 5 years.” they pick now. and if you’re not it now, you’re not picked.
i’m trying to improve. trying to be serious about it. but how can i do that when every tool i need gets blocked by people who think “you’re fine the way you are” while the world tells me the exact opposite?
I don't even have pocket money to sneak out and buy some roids on streets
like fr, what am i even supposed to do?
but my parents? they don’t get it. I ask for roids they say no i ask for hgh they say no. i ask for supplements no. red light? no. better food? no. even creatine or collagen gets shut down. “you don’t need that.” “you’re fine.”
only thing they’ll buy is basic skincare. like that’s gonna fix midbone structure.
they don’t understand what it’s like being at the bottom of the hierarchy at this age. they didn’t grow up with social media, with being rated publicly, with seeing chads blow up on tiktok at 15 while you sit there invisible. they think i’m just “going through a phase.” but this isn’t a phase it’s reality.
i’ve tried natural looksmaxxing. i’m mewing. Good posture. chewing. sleeping early. cold showers. lymph drainage. the full routine. and i’m still mid. because natural takes years. and that’s time i don’t have. girls don’t wait for potential. they don’t care that you’ll be better “in 5 years.” they pick now. and if you’re not it now, you’re not picked.
i’m trying to improve. trying to be serious about it. but how can i do that when every tool i need gets blocked by people who think “you’re fine the way you are” while the world tells me the exact opposite?
I don't even have pocket money to sneak out and buy some roids on streets
like fr, what am i even supposed to do?