What I hate about myself

[Gengar]

I’m always smiling or laughing when interacting with someone. Even if it’s behind a screen. I feel like that One Piece character who ate that experimental fruit and the only emotion they can show is laughter. Even if they want to cry, they’re just erupting in laughter. Fuck, man - why can’t I be normal? I also haven’t slept last night, and I have to stay up for 30 hours today. Currently 13 hours in. Let’s go!

 

[Gengar]

I’m hopeless. I was even smiling while writing this. Fuck my life.

 

[veggiedietcell]

I’m always smiling or laughing when interacting with someone. Even if it’s behind a screen. I feel like that One Piece character who ate that experimental fruit and the only emotion they can show is laughter. Even if they want to cry, they’re just erupting in laughter. Fuck, man - why can’t I be normal? I also haven’t slept last night, and I have to stay up for 30 hours today. Currently 13 hours in. Let’s go!

relatable boyo

 

[MagicalWaves]

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I’m always smiling or laughing when interacting with someone. Even if it’s behind a screen. I feel like that One Piece character who ate that experimental fruit and the only emotion they can show is laughter. Even if they want to cry, they’re just erupting in laughter. Fuck, man - why can’t I be normal? I also haven’t slept last night, and I have to stay up for 30 hours today. Currently 13 hours in. Let’s go!

real as hell bro it feels like most natural thibg to do even uf im a sad sack of shit

 

[BeanCelll]

I cage when I write 95% of the text I write on this forum even better when I read some deranged shit some screws are loose in my brain tbh

 

[archie_tucker]

I’m always smiling or laughing when interacting with someone. Even if it’s behind a screen. I feel like that One Piece character who ate that experimental fruit and the only emotion they can show is laughter. Even if they want to cry, they’re just erupting in laughter. Fuck, man - why can’t I be normal? I also haven’t slept last night, and I have to stay up for 30 hours today. Currently 13 hours in. Let’s go!

height and race

 

[lowtiersubhuman]

I’m always smiling or laughing when interacting with someone. Even if it’s behind a screen. I feel like that One Piece character who ate that experimental fruit and the only emotion they can show is laughter. Even if they want to cry, they’re just erupting in laughter. Fuck, man - why can’t I be normal? I also haven’t slept last night, and I have to stay up for 30 hours today. Currently 13 hours in. Let’s go!

Mirin happiness

 

[Arbuscular]

I look ugly when I smile

 

[Jason Voorhees]

Why stay 30 hours? Are you working in factory

 

[stck6]

I’m hopeless. I was even smiling while writing this. Fuck my life.

Calm down bhai

 

[acm]

I have to stay up for 30 hours today. Currently 13 hours in. Let’s go!

why are you always on these no sleep marathons? u good bhai

I also have a bit of the same issue. I swear once my friend said "you're like the happiest guy I know" and been told I'm always a smilling joyful fuck SPREAD POSITIVITY AND KINDNESS!!!

 

[drchad]

I’m hopeless. I was even smiling while writing this. Fuck my life.

Can you physically not stop smiling wtf?

 

[Gengar]

relatable boyo

Is it a South Asian thing?

 

[Gengar]

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real as hell bro it feels like most natural thibg to do even uf im a sad sack of shit

Damn. It feels comforting I’m not the only one like this.

 

[Gengar]

I cage when I write 95% of the text I write on this forum even better when I read some deranged shit some screws are loose in my brain tbh

Hahaha you and me both.

 

[Gengar]

height and race

5’10” or 5’11”, South Asian.

Average here is 6’0” in The Netherlands.

 

[Gengar]

Mirin happiness

I’m not happy at all. But yes people have told me, at least two, that I’m “the happiest person” they know. Just fucking lol. It’s totally the opposite, but I give myself kudos for hiding the real me. That takes… great acting.

 

[Gengar]

I look ugly when I smile

Me too. But what can I do? I can’t stop it.

 

[Gengar]

Why stay 30 hours? Are you working in factory

Yes saaar I need to feed my family 13 starving kids, I only earn 2 rupees a day.

Jokes aside, no I’m a NEET, it’s just have to meet up my friend later today and I need to fix my sleeping schedule.

 

[ethnic subhuman]

Is it a South Asian thing?

Is being from South Asia comparable to being from South America?

 

[Gengar]

Calm down bhai

I am calm.

 

[eon]

I’m not happy at all. But yes people have told me, at least two, that I’m “the happiest person” they know. Just fucking lol. It’s totally the opposite, but I give myself kudos for hiding the real me. That takes… great acting.

kudos gengar

 

[archie_tucker]

5’10” or 5’11”, South Asian.

Average here is 6’0” in The Netherlands.

16 i'm 5,5 mixed race in the uk at my age the norm is like 5'9/10

 

[Gengar]

why are you always on these no sleep marathons? u good bhai

I also have a bit of the same issue. I swear once my friend said "you're like the happiest guy I know" and been told I'm always a smilling joyful fuck SPREAD POSITIVITY AND KINDNESS!!!

Damn, I just told someone else that I’ve been told the exact same thing twice. How wrong they were!

Haha because I’m always trying to fix my sleeping schedule, I’m glad you’ve noticed. It just so happens that whenever I fix my sleeping schedule by staying awake for 30+ hours that I end up ruining my sleeping schedule a day or so later.

 

[Gengar]

Can you physically not stop smiling wtf?

Hahaha. See, I told you there’s something wrong with me. I’m smiling right now.

No, I can physically stop smiling, but I cannot suppress it. I can only physically stop after I’ve already smiled.

 

[Jason Voorhees]

Yes saaar I need to feed my family 13 starving kids, I only earn 2 rupees a day.

Jokes aside, no I’m a NEET, it’s just have to meet up my friend later today and I need to fix my sleeping schedule.

I don't get it. Don't sleep to fix sleep schedule? How does that work? My sleep schedule was fucked due to my job too but Mirtazipine and melatonin fixed everythin

My job raped my sleep schedule

Brutally ober. I can't sleep. I was up till 3-4 am last night. I am not doing anything next week I already told them I need a break and my boss was fine with it and told me I deserved it and if I wanted I could take another week too

looksmax.org

 

[Gengar]

Is being from South Asia comparable to being from South America?

Not really, being from South America means you’re the right kind of brown.

Being from South Asia means you’re the wrong kind of brown.

 

[Gengar]

kudos gengar

Thank you Ron.

I wrote eon but it autocorrected.

 

[Gengar]

16 i'm 5,5 mixed race in the uk at my age the norm is like 5'9/10

White and black?

 

[davidlaidisme67]

I’m always smiling or laughing when interacting with someone. Even if it’s behind a screen. I feel like that One Piece character who ate that experimental fruit and the only emotion they can show is laughter. Even if they want to cry, they’re just erupting in laughter. Fuck, man - why can’t I be normal? I also haven’t slept last night, and I have to stay up for 30 hours today. Currently 13 hours in. Let’s go!

But I love that about you bro

 

[Gengar]

16 i'm 5,5 mixed race in the uk at my age the norm is like 5'9/10

Don’t give up hope yet, one of my friends in high school was considered a manlet until around 18.

 

[ethnic subhuman]

Not really, being from South America means you’re the right kind of brown.

Being from South Asia means you’re the wrong kind of brown.

I am from South America and I am brown.

 

[archie_tucker]

White and black?

sadly yes

 

[archie_tucker]

Don’t give up hope yet, one of my friends in high school was considered a manlet until around 18.

how tall is he now

 

[Rothschild]

hey man ur a rlly nice guy if u ever wanna talk my dms r open

i feel u tbh i feel like i dont always act myself especially around others, after a certain point it becomes like ur default persona (not rlly sure how to phrase it)

maybe it is a south asian thing

 

[got.daim]

I’m always smiling or laughing when interacting with someone. Even if it’s behind a screen. I feel like that One Piece character who ate that experimental fruit and the only emotion they can show is laughter. Even if they want to cry, they’re just erupting in laughter. Fuck, man - why can’t I be normal? I also haven’t slept last night, and I have to stay up for 30 hours today. Currently 13 hours in. Let’s go!

because your a great guy gengar

 

[trashbinxoxo]

Me too. But what can I do? I can’t stop it.

At least you look approachable so that's bonus NT points

 

[Gengar]

I don't get it. Don't sleep to fix sleep schedule? How does that work? My sleep schedule was fucked due to my job too but Mirtazipine and melatonin fixed everythin

My job raped my sleep schedule

Brutally ober. I can't sleep. I was up till 3-4 am last night. I am not doing anything next week I already told them I need a break and my boss was fine with it and told me I deserved it and if I wanted I could take another week too

looksmax.org

How were you able to get your hands on mirtazipine? It sounds like you probably need a prescription for that. I’ve heard of melatonin, and people have recommended it to me, but I prefer going au naturel. That means not relying on any substances whatsoever. And yes, not sleeping to fix my sleeping schedule. See, when I pull an all-nighter, I usually end up awake for 30 to 36 hours. At that point, I’m tired enough to fall asleep fairly quickly, it would take me no more than five to ten minutes. Normally, it takes over ten minutes to fall asleep, around twenty minutes if I had to guess. Some people, like my brother, can fall asleep just by closing their eyes and they’ll doze off after a minute. I think that’s kind of like a superpower. Anyway, after staying awake for so long and going to bed early, say, at nighttime, around 2 AM or 1 AM, I usually wake up a few hours later, in the morning. Once I wake up in the morning, I will have an easier time to fall asleep once it’s past midnight. Today, or well, yesterday, I woke up at 5 PM. When I wake up at 5 PM, I can’t fall asleep around midnight. No, it usually has to be around 5 AM or something before I can. That’s why I need to do all this. I will check out your thread.

 

[acm]

Damn, I just told someone else that I’ve been told the exact same thing twice. How wrong they were!

Haha because I’m always trying to fix my sleeping schedule, I’m glad you’ve noticed. It just so happens that whenever I fix my sleeping schedule by staying awake for 30+ hours that I end up ruining my sleeping schedule a day or so later.

reminds me of my old workplace of when this guy there didnt like me and tried to call me out. he said some shit like "acm why the fuck are you always smiling and so happy for". cant blame me, im just a jolly boy

also given how popular u are here, does it get tiring being nice to everyone sometimes? i mean dealing with pms, replying to everyone, opening threads where you're mentioned and upkeeping your kindess, you must be one busy rotter

 

[Gengar]

But I love that about you bro

Guess what happened to me. I smiled again.

 

[Gengar]

I am from South America and I am brown.

You’re the good kind of brown!

 

[davidlaidisme67]

Guess what happened to me. I smiled again.

Glad I made you smile I always want you happy

 

[Gengar]

sadly yes

Why sadly, mulattos have good SMV usually if they look decent.

 

[Gengar]

how tall is he now

He’s now 5’11”. He was 5’5” or 5’6” before.

 

[browncurrycel]

I relate hard to the part where you smile whenever you interact with someone.

I have to constantly tell myself that there's nothing to smile about. So awkward.

 

[Popstar867]

One Piece character go!

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Spoiler

 

[ethnic subhuman]

You’re the good kind of brown!

I don't see the difference
Brown is brown, right?

 

[Gengar]

hey man ur a rlly nice guy if u ever wanna talk my dms r open

i feel u tbh i feel like i dont always act myself especially around others, after a certain point it becomes like ur default persona (not rlly sure how to phrase it)

maybe it is a south asian thing

Thanks for the nice words. And uh, yes - exactly. I am basically never acting like myself (read: like a sad piece of shit).

Woah! I didn’t know you were South Asian.

 

[Gengar]

because your a great guy gengar

Thanks for the nice words.

 

[Gengar]

At least you look approachable so that's bonus NT points

I don’t think I do, but I’ve had people ask me for directions at least.