What I hate about myself

[Rothschild]

Thanks for the nice words. And uh, yes - exactly. I am basically never acting like myself (read: like a sad piece of shit).

Woah! I didn’t know you were South Asian.

i feel that bro lowkey feels like a shizo sometimes or some two faced bipolar nigga with diferent personalities its okay im also a sad mfer

and yeah i am south asian jfl

 

[Gengar]

reminds me of my old workplace of when this guy there didnt like me and tried to call me out. he said some shit like "acm why the fuck are you always smiling and so happy for". cant blame me, im just a jolly boy

also given how popular u are here, does it get tiring being nice to everyone sometimes? i mean dealing with pms, replying to everyone, opening threads where you're mentioned and upkeeping your kindess, you must be one busy rotter

Haha I remember I told some incredibly high T guy that I wanted to stop smiling/laughing so much and he thought I was really weird for that, in fact he would tell other people about how he knows a guy who wants to stop smiling/laughing. And it’s funny because that guy is barely smiling/laughing himself. He’s got the widest frame I’ve seen on anyone, and his calves are as big as my head. He’s fully natural. And he was thugmaxxed as well. Cool guy for sure. He had a quirky side to him as well.

 

[Gengar]

reminds me of my old workplace of when this guy there didnt like me and tried to call me out. he said some shit like "acm why the fuck are you always smiling and so happy for". cant blame me, im just a jolly boy

also given how popular u are here, does it get tiring being nice to everyone sometimes? i mean dealing with pms, replying to everyone, opening threads where you're mentioned and upkeeping your kindess, you must be one busy rotter

Oh, and no - it never tires me out. Although I wouldn’t say I’m always nice, you know? Like I have my days where I will be arguing back and forth and sometimes it can get nasty. But it’s like, my motto, you know? “Return the energy you’re given.” That’s my motto. The only thing that tires me somewhat is checking people’s ignore lists, because once I start, a bunch of others start flooding in and want to know too, giving me extra work.

 

[Gengar]

Glad I made you smile I always want you happy

I can never be happy anymore but I appreciate that. God bless you.

 

[Jason Voorhees]

How were you able to get your hands on mirtazipine? It sounds like you probably need a prescription for that. I’ve heard of melatonin, and people have recommended it to me, but I prefer going au naturel. That means not relying on any substances whatsoever. And yes, not sleeping to fix my sleeping schedule. See, when I pull an all-nighter, I usually end up awake for 30 to 36 hours. At that point, I’m tired enough to fall asleep fairly quickly, it would take me no more than five to ten minutes. Normally, it takes over ten minutes to fall asleep, around twenty minutes if I had to guess. Some people, like my brother, can fall asleep just by closing their eyes and they’ll doze off after a minute. I think that’s kind of like a superpower. Anyway, after staying awake for so long and going to bed early, say, at nighttime, around 2 AM or 1 AM, I usually wake up a few hours later, in the morning. Once I wake up in the morning, I will have an easier time to fall asleep once it’s past midnight. Today, or well, yesterday, I woke up at 5 PM. When I wake up at 5 PM, I can’t fall asleep around midnight. No, it usually has to be around 5 AM or something before I can. That’s why I need to do all this. I will check out your thread.

You don't have to depend on it. It can be used just to fix the sleep schedule and you can gradually come off it. Yes prescription needed in some places. If you know some dealer he can source it for you or you could try on some Chinese sites and IndiaMART

 

[Gengar]

I relate hard to the part where you smile whenever you interact with someone.

I have to constantly tell myself that there's nothing to smile about. So awkward.

It’s honestly surprising that there’s so many people who can relate, and it’s mostly South Asians. I wonder if it’s a South Asian thing. I guess the “SI” in AASI stands for “Smiling Interactions. @CFW432

 

[Gengar]

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I lol’d irl.

 

[Gengar]

I don't see the difference
Brown is brown, right?

Not really! You have European genes, whereas I have South Asian genes.

 

[archie_tucker]

He’s now 5’11”. He was 5’5” or 5’6” before.

there might be hope for me

 

[Gengar]

i feel that bro lowkey feels like a shizo sometimes or some two faced bipolar nigga with diferent personalities its okay im also a sad mfer

and yeah i am south asian jfl

Haha yep, I can understand where you’re coming from because im the same way.

Cool! What kinda south Asian?

 

[archie_tucker]

Why sadly, mulattos have good SMV usually if they look decent.

not me tho

 

[Rothschild]

Haha yep, I can understand where you’re coming from because im the same way.

Cool! What kinda south Asian?

indian, you?

 

[Gengar]

You don't have to depend on it. It can be used just to fix the sleep schedule and you can gradually come off it. Yes prescription needed in some places. If you know some dealer he can source it for you or you could try on some Chinese sites and IndiaMART

Pretty sure the guys from IndiaMART would put rat poison in my shit because I’m a porkistani.

 

[Gengar]

there might be hope for me

Of course! There’s always hope.

 

[Gengar]

not me tho

Maybe you’ll grow into your looks.

 

[Gengar]

indian, you?

Pakistani. And I figured you were going to be Indian, but what kind of ethnic group? I am Punjabi.

 

[Rothschild]

Pakistani. And I figured you were going to be Indian, but what kind of ethnic group? I am Punjabi.

thats cool asf

im a rajput

 

[Gengar]

thats cool asf

im a rajput

Wow! What kind of Rajput are you? I know there’s three kinds: Gangetic, Northwestern and Hill.

Gangetic have more SAHG/AASI and Steppe, Northwestern have more Iran_N and Hill have Tibetan admixture.

 

[Rothschild]

Wow! What kind of Rajput are you? I know there’s three kinds: Gangetic, Northwestern and Hill.

Gangetic have more SAHG/AASI and Steppe, Northwestern have more Iran_N and Hill have Tibetan admixture.

northwestern bro

 

[Gengar]

northwestern bro

Mirin Iran_N kang.

 

[Rothschild]

Mirin Iran_N kang.

mirin bro

 

[toji.]

I’m always smiling or laughing when interacting with someone. Even if it’s behind a screen. I feel like that One Piece character who ate that experimental fruit and the only emotion they can show is laughter. Even if they want to cry, they’re just erupting in laughter. Fuck, man - why can’t I be normal? I also haven’t slept last night, and I have to stay up for 30 hours today. Currently 13 hours in. Let’s go!

 

[Jason Voorhees]

Your from Netherlands right? Shouldn't have much problem getting drugs if you know some Moroccan or Algerian drug dealers

Pretty sure the guys from IndiaMART would put rat poison in my shit because I’m a porkistani.

 

[acm]

Oh, and no - it never tires me out. Although I wouldn’t say I’m always nice, you know? Like I have my days where I will be arguing back and forth and sometimes it can get nasty. But it’s like, my motto, you know? “Return the energy you’re given.” That’s my motto. The only thing that tires me somewhat is checking people’s ignore lists, because once I start, a bunch of others start flooding in and want to know too, giving me extra work.

woah, do you have any backstory or reason to why you're so nice, or were you just born an angel? Do you also consider me a nice user, users like you, shrek2ondvd and other kindcels on org motivate to be a nice user as well. its sort of funny because im nothing like this irl, people irl would say a narcy annoying nigger with too much ego but i hope im known as a nice person on org. im honestly nice on here because in year 9-10 there was this asshole who picked on me and made me hate muhself and going to school, hence why i even joined this forum and why i try to be nice to everyone here, so im not anything like that bhenchod

 

[Gengar]

Not Niga, the one guy with the helmet on. I believe he’s with Kid Pirate.

 

[Gengar]

Your from Netherlands right? Shouldn't have much problem getting drugs if you know some Moroccan or Algerian drug dealers

Yes, I’m from The Netherlands. The Moroccans (we don’t have Algerians here; I certainly haven’t met one) usually “regular” drugs. Hashish, etc. I remember some Moroccan dude wanted to give me heroin, saying “first batch is for free,” like yeah no shit, he wants me to get addicted instantly. Good thing I didn’t go for it.

 

[Gengar]

woah, do you have any backstory or reason to why you're so nice, or were you just born an angel? Do you also consider me a nice user, users like you, shrek2ondvd and other kindcels on org motivate to be a nice user as well. its sort of funny because im nothing like this irl, people irl would say a narcy annoying nigger with too much ego but i hope im known as a nice person on org. im honestly nice on here because in year 9-10 there was this asshole who picked on me and made me hate muhself and going to school, hence why i even joined this forum and why i try to be nice to everyone here, so im not anything like that bhenchod

I was the opposite growing up. I think life has changed me, both for better and for worse. But yeah, on another forum which was filled with actual degenerates and other scum of society, they would often say I’m the nicest user there. I don’t think I’m nice though. And yes, I’d say you’re a nice user. I’ve not seen you bully anyone unlike many others.

 

[Slayfer]

I’m always smiling or laughing when interacting with someone. Even if it’s behind a screen. I feel like that One Piece character who ate that experimental fruit and the only emotion they can show is laughter. Even if they want to cry, they’re just erupting in laughter. Fuck, man - why can’t I be normal? I also haven’t slept last night, and I have to stay up for 30 hours today. Currently 13 hours in. Let’s go!

I actually relate to this so much.

For some reason I burst out laughing or grin from ear to ear whenever interacting with other people, even when it's not funny.

I also do it by myself or from non-direct interactions.

 

[Gengar]

I actually relate to this so much.

For some reason I burst out laughing or grin from ear to ear whenever interacting with other people, even when it's not funny.

I also do it by myself or from non-direct interactions.

Precisely, I was actually talking about doing this stuff when it’s not even funny.

Do people think you’re weird for it? I think they probably think, “Why is this idiot smiling at me?”

 

[Jason Voorhees]

Yes, I’m from The Netherlands. The Moroccans (we don’t have Algerians here; I certainly haven’t met one) usually “regular” drugs. Hashish, etc. I remember some Moroccan dude wanted to give me heroin, saying “first batch is for free,” like yeah no shit, he wants me to get addicted instantly. Good thing I didn’t go for it.

Just get your hands on Mirtazipine somehow. It fixed my sleep schedule instantly

 

[Slayfer]

Precisely, I was actually talking about doing this stuff when it’s not even funny.

Do people think you’re weird for it? I think they probably think, “Why is this idiot smiling at me?”

They seem put-off by it.

But they don' mind or mention it.

 

[Gengar]

Just get your hands on Mirtazipine somehow. It fixed my sleep schedule instantly

I dunno, I have always been reluctant to use anything. It stems from something that happened in my childhood. I don’t even take paracetamol when I’ve got headaches.

 

[Gengar]

They seem put-off by it.

But they don' mind or mention it.

Yeah, I think that’s actually accurate. Are you in Europe?

 

[Slayfer]

Yeah, I think that’s actually accurate. Are you in Europe?

I'm from the US.

I've also been experiencing this my whole life so idk how region/environment would be connected to this.

For me I view it as a chad trait, they always seem giddy and cheerful. (Even though I'm not close to chad )

 

[acm]

I was the opposite growing up.

so you're telling me growing up, you were the high T paki alpha bull of the school bullying the white soyboy dutch??

 

[veggiedietcell]

Is it a South Asian thing?

nah its just me

 

[MagicalWaves]

Damn. It feels comforting I’m not the only one like this.

fr

 

[sub5outsider]

im laughing or smiling when i took to people bc i get nervous and feel less then them just average non nt behaviour