what if me being alive brings more shame to family than sui

[Psychophilly]

I don't think my parents are anywhere close to being proud. if i sui, sure they will experience some trauma for a year. but it's not like all their hope has died, they already lost hope in me.

i should stop caring about family in terms of sui. this is my life and my life only, no one has nothing to do with it. i just dont want to live anymore, i don;t like it here. dont care if there is nothing after death. i dont wanna be, i'm nobody anyway.

suffering could mean sth if there was a god, but there is just nothing out there. im suffering for nothing. this isn't fare, with hardship comes ease. no ease will come out of this hardship i'm going through. being lonely abused dog has no reward

 

[Deleted member 21182]

Boyo idc what happens to u innit because ur sick u wanna jerk off to ppls moms

 

[Deleted member 62070]

Boyo idc what happens to u innit because ur sick u wanna jerk off to ppls moms

based, high t trait