Orbital1
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The world we live in today feels genuinely strange almost unreal, like a long fever dream. And even though I complain about the modern world, I’m not sure any other time in history would have been better. This is the reality I’ve grown up in, and it shapes everything I know.
I never consented or decided to live in this world and the situation with everything today. I was never meant neither did i want to compete in the modern dating market today and how life and everything is in the modern world.
Life feels confusing. I’ve already gone through so much more stuff including bad stuff and really bad stuff than I expected at my age, and it’s left me feeling numb, like I’ve been desensitized to everything. It feels like I’m carrying way too much responsibility and work for someone who’s still trying to figure things out.
There are moments where I feel like a slave to school, work, looksmaxxing, self‑improvement, dating, society and life as an general all of it. It’s like there’s this endless list of things I need to fix or improve just to have a chance at a good life i acutally want to live and dating oppertunities and it is so hard to get there to and i am not sure if i will ever get there i might just be an delusional dickhead who thinks he can change but in reality i will always be the same. And deep down I know this pressure never fully disappears in life it will stick with me until the day i die. I will never truley be enough. At best, I’ll get small breaks or go on trips where I can breathe and enjoy life before the cycle starts again.
I don’t enjoy life the way I did when I was younger. Back then everything felt simple no responsibilities, no consequences, no constant pressure to “become something.” Now it’s like every fucking step and thing in life requires imense effort, discipline, sacrifice and loads of research, money and work.
And sometimes I catch myself wondering what the point of all this even is, especially knowing that everything eventually ends regardless. That there might not even be an point in doing all this stuff in the end that it just doesent matter that i am just on the wrong path
I never consented or decided to live in this world and the situation with everything today. I was never meant neither did i want to compete in the modern dating market today and how life and everything is in the modern world.
Life feels confusing. I’ve already gone through so much more stuff including bad stuff and really bad stuff than I expected at my age, and it’s left me feeling numb, like I’ve been desensitized to everything. It feels like I’m carrying way too much responsibility and work for someone who’s still trying to figure things out.
There are moments where I feel like a slave to school, work, looksmaxxing, self‑improvement, dating, society and life as an general all of it. It’s like there’s this endless list of things I need to fix or improve just to have a chance at a good life i acutally want to live and dating oppertunities and it is so hard to get there to and i am not sure if i will ever get there i might just be an delusional dickhead who thinks he can change but in reality i will always be the same. And deep down I know this pressure never fully disappears in life it will stick with me until the day i die. I will never truley be enough. At best, I’ll get small breaks or go on trips where I can breathe and enjoy life before the cycle starts again.
I don’t enjoy life the way I did when I was younger. Back then everything felt simple no responsibilities, no consequences, no constant pressure to “become something.” Now it’s like every fucking step and thing in life requires imense effort, discipline, sacrifice and loads of research, money and work.
And sometimes I catch myself wondering what the point of all this even is, especially knowing that everything eventually ends regardless. That there might not even be an point in doing all this stuff in the end that it just doesent matter that i am just on the wrong path
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