AryanTrvecel
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For the past few days, I have been feeling quite different than usual. Perhaps my mental state is simply not good, but I have been experiencing feelings of sudden confusion and almost dizziness when I am awake. Now, this is not to say that I am diabetic or something, but it is almost as if sometimes when I am awake, I feel like I am not in control of my own body. And so this is what gives me this feeling of mental dizziness, and sometimes I speak without controlling what I say. It comes out before I even think of what I wish to say. It is all happening rather suddenly and without much preparation. I do not know what to do at all when this occurs to me. I also feel inexplicable rage very suddenly, such as when someone talks to me. It is not that they made me mad or said something offensive; I just feel enraged, and I struggle to control it. It is mentally exhausting for me.
Moreover, my close family has also noticed something "off" about me. They say that I do not act normally. Maybe it is because I spend days without talking? I am unsure, but I think they have also noticed that I am getting mad quite easily by what occurs around me, and they do not know what to do to help me. My therapist is not much help as of right now. Honestly, though I am sometimes not fully honest with my therapist simply because I am scared of legal consequences, I am just paranoid like that, I guess? I feel paranoia constantly too; usually it occurs when I am not looking at my phone.
In my day-to-day life, I feel like how I usually do, but when I am not online and, for instance, walking, I feel the feelings that I have previously mentioned sometimes, but other times I feel sudden chills down my neck/spine almost. Either that, or my head hurts so much that it makes me feel dizzy, and I have to lie down or do something to distract myself from this. Also, I forgot to mention, but when I feel rage, I feel violent too, and I want to hurt others/myself.
Any advice? Is there anything wrong with me?
Moreover, my close family has also noticed something "off" about me. They say that I do not act normally. Maybe it is because I spend days without talking? I am unsure, but I think they have also noticed that I am getting mad quite easily by what occurs around me, and they do not know what to do to help me. My therapist is not much help as of right now. Honestly, though I am sometimes not fully honest with my therapist simply because I am scared of legal consequences, I am just paranoid like that, I guess? I feel paranoia constantly too; usually it occurs when I am not looking at my phone.
In my day-to-day life, I feel like how I usually do, but when I am not online and, for instance, walking, I feel the feelings that I have previously mentioned sometimes, but other times I feel sudden chills down my neck/spine almost. Either that, or my head hurts so much that it makes me feel dizzy, and I have to lie down or do something to distract myself from this. Also, I forgot to mention, but when I feel rage, I feel violent too, and I want to hurt others/myself.
Any advice? Is there anything wrong with me?
