Acromegaly_Chad
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Today I've had one of the most intense mental breakdowns so far. I've seen some old pics, found some old stuff, from school etc... memories came up of course. I realized what has happened to me over the course of the last 16 months... how the blackpill destroyed me, but at the same time revealed the truth. How my ugliness ruined my youth, my character, essentially me as a human being.
Idk man.. but it's painful reflecting on my life... in Kindergarten we had to undertake development and IQ tests, I scored the highest in the whole village, which had a few hundred kids taking the test. Finished elementary school as the best of the year, with ease. Same for junior high (it's 4 years in my country) - best out of 400 fucking twats. Then went to one of the most competitive high schools of the country (and it's not some shithole country but among the richest in the world) - graduated 2nd out of 200 (and they are already ~top 10% of population) and I did exam preps never earlier than the evening before the exam... could have applied to oxford, LSE and other shit but decided against as I'd have had to take student loans to pay the ridiculous fees.
Then discovered the blackpill, went to university, didn't show up to the exams but didn't cancel them, so they got marked... got kicked out as THE WORST student of the year. Having someone with a background like mine dropping out like this is something the director hasn't experienced in 20 fucking years !!
Well of course not. I got ROYALLY fucked up by my looks. My overbite was not minor as a kid, it was fucking 16mm !!! And 15mm overjet ! And my stupid ortho fucked me even worse, then another ortho tried to scam me, a maxfac said I need to learn to live with lip incompetence, recessed jaws, narrow jaws, scleral show, crowding and whatever. What a fucking quack, what an idiot, what an incompetent, corrupt motherfucker.
I then fell prey to a chin wing that didn't fix the underlying issue AT ALL. I feel exploited by the doc during my mentally unstable time when he knew exactly I couldn't handle another day with a recessed chin. Problem is it will look uncanny AF if I get the necessary bimax done, what a fucking scam !! I've seen his papers and work, he knows how to do better, why did he have to do this to me? It's so cruel.
How on earth can a human being fall so low like I did? From being among the best students in the whole fucking country, getting officially diagnosed as gifted, being elected to negotiate with politicians and some other fancy shit to becoming a full blown incel, a depressed abomination who dropped out like some low IQ monkey, who is so obsessed with surgery that Zarrinbal, Ramieri, Triaca and some other surgeons assumed I'm a fucking med student after just 5 minutes talking to them, to becoming a suicidal permarotter who can only worry about his lost oneitis and botched youth.
What a fucking joke. Fuck everything at this point tbh.
I'm not trying to be disrespectful but I sometimes feel like this isn't exactly the place where I should spend my time... I know my shit about surgery and it's time to get shit done, will call 2 maxfacs next monday..
oh yeah and inb4 someone talks shit: you can suck my hairy balls while your mom gets gang raped by an AIDS infested tribe.
Idk man.. but it's painful reflecting on my life... in Kindergarten we had to undertake development and IQ tests, I scored the highest in the whole village, which had a few hundred kids taking the test. Finished elementary school as the best of the year, with ease. Same for junior high (it's 4 years in my country) - best out of 400 fucking twats. Then went to one of the most competitive high schools of the country (and it's not some shithole country but among the richest in the world) - graduated 2nd out of 200 (and they are already ~top 10% of population) and I did exam preps never earlier than the evening before the exam... could have applied to oxford, LSE and other shit but decided against as I'd have had to take student loans to pay the ridiculous fees.
Then discovered the blackpill, went to university, didn't show up to the exams but didn't cancel them, so they got marked... got kicked out as THE WORST student of the year. Having someone with a background like mine dropping out like this is something the director hasn't experienced in 20 fucking years !!
Well of course not. I got ROYALLY fucked up by my looks. My overbite was not minor as a kid, it was fucking 16mm !!! And 15mm overjet ! And my stupid ortho fucked me even worse, then another ortho tried to scam me, a maxfac said I need to learn to live with lip incompetence, recessed jaws, narrow jaws, scleral show, crowding and whatever. What a fucking quack, what an idiot, what an incompetent, corrupt motherfucker.
I then fell prey to a chin wing that didn't fix the underlying issue AT ALL. I feel exploited by the doc during my mentally unstable time when he knew exactly I couldn't handle another day with a recessed chin. Problem is it will look uncanny AF if I get the necessary bimax done, what a fucking scam !! I've seen his papers and work, he knows how to do better, why did he have to do this to me? It's so cruel.
How on earth can a human being fall so low like I did? From being among the best students in the whole fucking country, getting officially diagnosed as gifted, being elected to negotiate with politicians and some other fancy shit to becoming a full blown incel, a depressed abomination who dropped out like some low IQ monkey, who is so obsessed with surgery that Zarrinbal, Ramieri, Triaca and some other surgeons assumed I'm a fucking med student after just 5 minutes talking to them, to becoming a suicidal permarotter who can only worry about his lost oneitis and botched youth.
What a fucking joke. Fuck everything at this point tbh.
I'm not trying to be disrespectful but I sometimes feel like this isn't exactly the place where I should spend my time... I know my shit about surgery and it's time to get shit done, will call 2 maxfacs next monday..
oh yeah and inb4 someone talks shit: you can suck my hairy balls while your mom gets gang raped by an AIDS infested tribe.
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