What made you reconsider Suicide in the last second

[Mansur]

Personally all my memories went through my head, and I just couldnt comprehend that this chapter goes to an end, forever

Ive realised that noone guaranteed the disappearance of the unbearable pain, and that you will be just gone, forever

Its not like you wont feel anything, Its that you wont simply exist in any way and be vanished from the face of the universe without a single trace

Ive realised that life couldnt simply be this meaningless, the whole evolution of humanity, science etc. couldnt just have happened for just everything to fully end this fast

Regardless, Ive thought about the inability to feel any sort of emotion afterwards, even down to the little dopamine spikes which my mind tricked me into having some sort of happiness for a short period of time

Once I knew at that moment, how easy it is to simply end it all

I thought to myself, that I might as well just do whatever I feel like doing since technically everything could end in the matter of milliseconds

We will all die one day regardless, if its tomorrow, months or decades

And you should enjoy life to the fullest, before the opportunity wont be there anymore

 

[Mansur]

What were your last thoughts and ways