What mental condition do I have? (I’m so cooked)

[Sovvton]

First things first, I know coming to .org for psychological evaluations is retarded, but that being said I’ve probably done more retarded shit and also I doubt I would actually be able to go through with seeing a psychologist for this shit irl so asking the oh so wise users on here is my last resort.


To put it bluntly I don’t give a fuck about other people. I feel like when things happen to other people (both good and terrible) I literally could not give less of a fuck and have to act like I care. I only feel the real emotion when something happens to me, and I only truly care about things when they directly benefit/hinder me in some way.


A good example would be that all the family who have died in my life, and people I was close friends with who’ve passed, when they died I acted like that shit affected me to blend in but I did not care at all man, my main feeling was just “well it’s a shame I won’t see them again” but there were no tears, no restless nights and I never thought of them at all, only if I saw something that reminded me of them then I would just go on with my day.


Sometimes I wonder how I’ll react when my close family (parents + siblings) die because if I had to guess (since I won’t know how I’ll actually react until it happens), I think it’ll definitely get me down but I’ll be fine after a week max I’ll be fine. Like what is wrong with me seriously. Imagine having to pretend a close family member dying affected you. When I first started to realise Im not normal, I thought I had narcissism because of how self-centred I am since I only care about stuff when it comes yo me, but the thing is I want to be normal, surely a narcissist wouldn’t want that?


In general I feel like I have to play up how I feel, I definitely, 100% feel emotions but I think I feel them less intensely than other people do, either that or everyone plays up how they feel 24/7 which is just as likely to be true.


One last thing is that I’ve never been happy in life, this could just be because I have a dopamine abusing low t tiktok addicted cuck brain that needs something happening every 5 seconds to stay stimulated, but it could also be a symptom so I’ll talk about it. Im basically in a perpetual state of chilling, you could give me the best/worst news of my life I’d be ecstatic/depressed for like a day, then just go back to my chilling autopilot state. I don’t understand how people can say they’re actively happy with how their life is going, I always feel like I’m just okay with it at best. This would make sense if my life was boring but I’ve had some theoretically fun and great times but I just feel meh about it all as it’s happening.


Im struggling to think of any other problems I suffer with as I write this. My guess is sociopathic tendencies from the research I’ve done but I don’t know all too much about other mental health conditions, so if you have high iq and an idea of whats wrong with me then enlighten me and the forum with your knowledge please bhai

 

[Sovvton]

Dnr schizo ramblings

 

[halloweed]

First things first, I know coming to .org for psychological evaluations is retarded, but that being said I’ve probably done more retarded shit and also I doubt I would actually be able to go through with seeing a psychologist for this shit irl so asking the oh so wise users on here is my last resort.


To put it bluntly I don’t give a fuck about other people. I feel like when things happen to other people (both good and terrible) I literally could not give less of a fuck and have to act like I care. I only feel the real emotion when something happens to me, and I only truly care about things when they directly benefit/hinder me in some way.


A good example would be that all the family who have died in my life, and people I was close friends with who’ve passed, when they died I acted like that shit affected me to blend in but I did not care at all man, my main feeling was just “well it’s a shame I won’t see them again” but there were no tears, no restless nights and I never thought of them at all, only if I saw something that reminded me of them then I would just go on with my day.


Sometimes I wonder how I’ll react when my close family (parents + siblings) die because if I had to guess (since I won’t know how I’ll actually react until it happens), I think it’ll definitely get me down but I’ll be fine after a week max I’ll be fine. Like what is wrong with me seriously. Imagine having to pretend a close family member dying affected you. When I first started to realise Im not normal, I thought I had narcissism because of how self-centred I am since I only care about stuff when it comes yo me, but the thing is I want to be normal, surely a narcissist wouldn’t want that?


In general I feel like I have to play up how I feel, I definitely, 100% feel emotions but I think I feel them less intensely than other people do, either that or everyone plays up how they feel 24/7 which is just as likely to be true.


One last thing is that I’ve never been happy in life, this could just be because I have a dopamine abusing low t tiktok addicted cuck brain that needs something happening every 5 seconds to stay stimulated, but it could also be a symptom so I’ll talk about it. Im basically in a perpetual state of chilling, you could give me the best/worst news of my life I’d be ecstatic/depressed for like a day, then just go back to my chilling autopilot state. I don’t understand how people can say they’re actively happy with how their life is going, I always feel like I’m just okay with it at best. This would make sense if my life was boring but I’ve had some theoretically fun and great times but I just feel meh about it all as it’s happening.


Im struggling to think of any other problems I suffer with as I write this. My guess is sociopathic tendencies from the research I’ve done but I don’t know all too much about other mental health conditions, so if you have high iq and an idea of whats wrong with me then enlighten me and the forum with your knowledge please bhai

Shut up brev

 

[HardMaxOrRope]

why are you worried about this?

This is the mentality pill most men need to swallow. Nobody will come and save you and it’s everyone for themselves (16-18 onwards)

 

[Sovvton]

Bump

 

[Sovvton]

Shut up brev

Im gonna touch you bucko I actually need high iq responses for this shit

 

[halloweed]

Im gonna touch you bucko I actually need high iq responses for this shit

You’re just a psychopath there’s nothing more or less

 

[Sovvton]

why are you worried about this?

This is the mentality pill most men need to swallow. Nobody will come and save you and it’s everyone for themselves (16-18 onwards)

This isn’t typical tho right?

Its not like its detrimental to my life I still live very normally I just want to know what makes me this way

 

[Sovvton]

You’re just a psychopath there’s nothing more or less

Disagree psychopaths are violent and stuff etc. Im just a chill guy

 

[HardMaxOrRope]

This isn’t typical tho right?

Its not like its detrimental to my life I still live very normally I just want to know what makes me this way

I’d say it’s fairly typical.

I completely relate to it though and it’s the same situation for me. At the end of the day, for as long as our species have existed it’s always been been this way. But modern society make it out like we should care and be sympathetic for others.

 

[halloweed]

Disagree psychopaths are violent and stuff etc. Im just a chill guy

No they’re not, psychopaths don’t care about anything and blend their emotions to fit in with people. They only use people for their own gain and seek validation and power.

 

[Sovvton]

I’d say it’s fairly typical.

I completely relate to it though and it’s the same situation for me. At the end of the day, for as long as our species have existed it’s always been been this way. But modern society make it out like we should care and be sympathetic for others.

Do you think a lot of people play up their emotions to fit in and seem normal? That’s how I feel most of the time, like there’s no way x thing made you so happy/sad/angry you guys have to be acting man

 

[HardMaxOrRope]

Do you think a lot of people play up their emotions to fit in and seem normal? That’s how I feel most of the time, like there’s no way x thing made you so happy/sad/angry you guys have to be acting man

yes of course it has become wired in our brains to do certain things to seem nt and fit in.

Alcohol is a perfect example. If you don’t drink you will be looked at like a weirdo and out of place.

 

[WeiWei]

why are you worried about this?

This is the mentality pill most men need to swallow. Nobody will come and save you and it’s everyone for themselves (16-18 onwards)

Hm what about women tho? People seem to genuinely care about women, children and animals, unless I'm wrong

 

[Sovvton]

No they’re not, psychopaths don’t care about anything and blend their emotions to fit in with people. They only use people for their own gain and seek validation and power.

Even then isn’t that more to do with sociopaths rather than psycopaths? Still you could be right tho, its like that college professor who didn’t realise he was a sociopath for his whole life until he did some experiment with his class

 

[halloweed]

Even then isn’t that more to do with sociopaths rather than psycopaths? Still you could be right tho, its like that college professor who didn’t realise he was a sociopath for his whole life until he did some experiment with his class

You said you’re a calm person and that doesn’t match with being a sociopath.

 

[Sovvton]

yes of course it has become wired in our brains to do certain things to seem nt and fit in.

Alcohol is a perfect example. If you don’t drink you will be looked at like a weirdo and out of place.

True, funny how people will fake how they feel and ostracise another for not doing the same, brutal neurobiology pill

 

[HardMaxOrRope]

Hm what about women tho? People seem to genuinely care about women, children and animals, unless I'm wrong

It’s a hard question to Awnser.

We are a very strange and interesting species.

If you look at wild animals Lions Bears Tigers Etc, it’s everyone for themselves. Mother bears will raise their cubs but will soon abandon them after she has raised them enough.

 

[Sovvton]

Hm what about women tho? People seem to genuinely care about women, children and animals, unless I'm wrong

Too low iq to know the reasoning actually

 

[Sovvton]

You said you’re a calm person and that doesn’t match with being a sociopath.

I thought it was the other way around

Psychopath: Low iq, aggressive/violent

Sociopath: Higher iq, cunning, higher functioning

 

[Sovvton]

Bump

 

[looksmaxxed]

factor 2 sociopathy/narcissism

 

[Sovvton]

factor 2 sociopathy/narcissism

Looked it up and I definitely feel like Im factor 1 instead of factor 2, thanks for high iq tho I’ll dig deeper into different factors of sociopathy/narcissism

 

[JustCallMeKash]

First things first, I know coming to .org for psychological evaluations is retarded, but that being said I’ve probably done more retarded shit and also I doubt I would actually be able to go through with seeing a psychologist for this shit irl so asking the oh so wise users on here is my last resort.


To put it bluntly I don’t give a fuck about other people. I feel like when things happen to other people (both good and terrible) I literally could not give less of a fuck and have to act like I care. I only feel the real emotion when something happens to me, and I only truly care about things when they directly benefit/hinder me in some way.


A good example would be that all the family who have died in my life, and people I was close friends with who’ve passed, when they died I acted like that shit affected me to blend in but I did not care at all man, my main feeling was just “well it’s a shame I won’t see them again” but there were no tears, no restless nights and I never thought of them at all, only if I saw something that reminded me of them then I would just go on with my day.


Sometimes I wonder how I’ll react when my close family (parents + siblings) die because if I had to guess (since I won’t know how I’ll actually react until it happens), I think it’ll definitely get me down but I’ll be fine after a week max I’ll be fine. Like what is wrong with me seriously. Imagine having to pretend a close family member dying affected you. When I first started to realise Im not normal, I thought I had narcissism because of how self-centred I am since I only care about stuff when it comes yo me, but the thing is I want to be normal, surely a narcissist wouldn’t want that?


In general I feel like I have to play up how I feel, I definitely, 100% feel emotions but I think I feel them less intensely than other people do, either that or everyone plays up how they feel 24/7 which is just as likely to be true.


One last thing is that I’ve never been happy in life, this could just be because I have a dopamine abusing low t tiktok addicted cuck brain that needs something happening every 5 seconds to stay stimulated, but it could also be a symptom so I’ll talk about it. Im basically in a perpetual state of chilling, you could give me the best/worst news of my life I’d be ecstatic/depressed for like a day, then just go back to my chilling autopilot state. I don’t understand how people can say they’re actively happy with how their life is going, I always feel like I’m just okay with it at best. This would make sense if my life was boring but I’ve had some theoretically fun and great times but I just feel meh about it all as it’s happening.


Im struggling to think of any other problems I suffer with as I write this. My guess is sociopathic tendencies from the research I’ve done but I don’t know all too much about other mental health conditions, so if you have high iq and an idea of whats wrong with me then enlighten me and the forum with your knowledge please bhai

aspd

 

[Sovvton]

aspd

Yeah so it seems

Hard to accept, I really hoped I was normal since I appear very nt but turns out what I knew deep down was true the more research I do

 

[diditeverbegin]

First things first, I know coming to .org for psychological evaluations is retarded, but that being said I’ve probably done more retarded shit and also I doubt I would actually be able to go through with seeing a psychologist for this shit irl so asking the oh so wise users on here is my last resort.


To put it bluntly I don’t give a fuck about other people. I feel like when things happen to other people (both good and terrible) I literally could not give less of a fuck and have to act like I care. I only feel the real emotion when something happens to me, and I only truly care about things when they directly benefit/hinder me in some way.


A good example would be that all the family who have died in my life, and people I was close friends with who’ve passed, when they died I acted like that shit affected me to blend in but I did not care at all man, my main feeling was just “well it’s a shame I won’t see them again” but there were no tears, no restless nights and I never thought of them at all, only if I saw something that reminded me of them then I would just go on with my day.


Sometimes I wonder how I’ll react when my close family (parents + siblings) die because if I had to guess (since I won’t know how I’ll actually react until it happens), I think it’ll definitely get me down but I’ll be fine after a week max I’ll be fine. Like what is wrong with me seriously. Imagine having to pretend a close family member dying affected you. When I first started to realise Im not normal, I thought I had narcissism because of how self-centred I am since I only care about stuff when it comes yo me, but the thing is I want to be normal, surely a narcissist wouldn’t want that?


In general I feel like I have to play up how I feel, I definitely, 100% feel emotions but I think I feel them less intensely than other people do, either that or everyone plays up how they feel 24/7 which is just as likely to be true.


One last thing is that I’ve never been happy in life, this could just be because I have a dopamine abusing low t tiktok addicted cuck brain that needs something happening every 5 seconds to stay stimulated, but it could also be a symptom so I’ll talk about it. Im basically in a perpetual state of chilling, you could give me the best/worst news of my life I’d be ecstatic/depressed for like a day, then just go back to my chilling autopilot state. I don’t understand how people can say they’re actively happy with how their life is going, I always feel like I’m just okay with it at best. This would make sense if my life was boring but I’ve had some theoretically fun and great times but I just feel meh about it all as it’s happening.


Im struggling to think of any other problems I suffer with as I write this. My guess is sociopathic tendencies from the research I’ve done but I don’t know all too much about other mental health conditions, so if you have high iq and an idea of whats wrong with me then enlighten me and the forum with your knowledge please bhai

What if you die and your parents are smoking on that sovvton pack

 

[JustCallMeKash]

Yeah so it seems

Hard to accept, I really hoped I was normal since I appear very nt but turns out what I knew deep down was true the more research I do

I have aspd aswell its not some life ending personality disorder you'll be fine

 

[yayatourer]

In general I feel like I have to play up how I feel, I definitely, 100% feel emotions but I think I feel them less intensely than other people do, either that or everyone plays up how they feel 24/7 which is just as likely to be true.


One last thing is that I’ve never been happy in life, this could just be because I have a dopamine abusing low t tiktok addicted cuck brain that needs something happening every 5 seconds to stay stimulated, but it could also be a symptom so I’ll talk about it. Im basically in a perpetual state of chilling, you could give me the best/worst news of my life I’d be ecstatic/depressed for like a day, then just go back to my chilling autopilot state. I don’t understand how people can say they’re actively happy with how their life is going, I always feel like I’m just okay with it at best. This would make sense if my life was boring but I’ve had some theoretically fun and great times but I just feel meh about it all as it’s happening.


Im struggling to think of any other problems I suffer with as I write this. My guess is sociopathic tendencies from the research I’ve done but I don’t know all too much about other mental health conditions, so if you have high iq and an idea of whats wrong with me then enlighten me and the forum with your knowledge please bhai

That was the two things I thought about when seeing your experiences. In my experience i really think it’s about dopamine dysregulation i’ve seen countless cases with video game and tiktok addicts. Just stop watching a screen entirely for 3 weeks it will put you in a state of depression and all the repressed emotions will resurface.

Porn (as I assume you consume) might play a very important role too.

Go on /nosurf subreddit for more anecdotes.
Everything can be fixed read allen carrs book about addiction if you struggle to quit.
Good luck brother you seem very healthy and smart enough to go out of the worst trap human beings have ever build.
Best wishes

 

[Andremln]

First things first, I know coming to .org for psychological evaluations is retarded, but that being said I’ve probably done more retarded shit and also I doubt I would actually be able to go through with seeing a psychologist for this shit irl so asking the oh so wise users on here is my last resort.


To put it bluntly I don’t give a fuck about other people. I feel like when things happen to other people (both good and terrible) I literally could not give less of a fuck and have to act like I care. I only feel the real emotion when something happens to me, and I only truly care about things when they directly benefit/hinder me in some way.


A good example would be that all the family who have died in my life, and people I was close friends with who’ve passed, when they died I acted like that shit affected me to blend in but I did not care at all man, my main feeling was just “well it’s a shame I won’t see them again” but there were no tears, no restless nights and I never thought of them at all, only if I saw something that reminded me of them then I would just go on with my day.


Sometimes I wonder how I’ll react when my close family (parents + siblings) die because if I had to guess (since I won’t know how I’ll actually react until it happens), I think it’ll definitely get me down but I’ll be fine after a week max I’ll be fine. Like what is wrong with me seriously. Imagine having to pretend a close family member dying affected you. When I first started to realise Im not normal, I thought I had narcissism because of how self-centred I am since I only care about stuff when it comes yo me, but the thing is I want to be normal, surely a narcissist wouldn’t want that?


In general I feel like I have to play up how I feel, I definitely, 100% feel emotions but I think I feel them less intensely than other people do, either that or everyone plays up how they feel 24/7 which is just as likely to be true.


One last thing is that I’ve never been happy in life, this could just be because I have a dopamine abusing low t tiktok addicted cuck brain that needs something happening every 5 seconds to stay stimulated, but it could also be a symptom so I’ll talk about it. Im basically in a perpetual state of chilling, you could give me the best/worst news of my life I’d be ecstatic/depressed for like a day, then just go back to my chilling autopilot state. I don’t understand how people can say they’re actively happy with how their life is going, I always feel like I’m just okay with it at best. This would make sense if my life was boring but I’ve had some theoretically fun and great times but I just feel meh about it all as it’s happening.


Im struggling to think of any other problems I suffer with as I write this. My guess is sociopathic tendencies from the research I’ve done but I don’t know all too much about other mental health conditions, so if you have high iq and an idea of whats wrong with me then enlighten me and the forum with your knowledge please bhai

Autism probably

 

[Darkeningstar]

In short:
You might be a psychopath or a sociopath, I don't know if you are a sociopath. A sociopath hates that there is emotionality.
You might be a subcategory of a psychopath, different from the stereotype of a psychopath.
To understand whether you are the first or the second case I would have to see you at work.



Don't look at definitions on the internet, they are often confusing. Society is full of psychopaths. The difference between a (main) psychopath and his sub-categories is that in the latter case one underestimates one's own emotions.

 

[Sovvton]

In short:
You might be a psychopath or a sociopath, I don't know if you are a sociopath. A sociopath hates that there is emotionality.
You might be a subcategory of a psychopath, different from the stereotype of a psychopath.
To understand whether you are the first or the second case I would have to see you at work.



Don't look at definitions on the internet, they are often confusing. Society is full of psychopaths. The difference between a (main) psychopath and his sub-categories is that in the latter case one underestimates one's own emotions.

Alright I see

Tbh I dont really want to get evaluated for fear of me actually turning out to not be nt like i always thought + it doesn’t affect my life too much, and to be honest it’s something that I just don’t want the people in my life to know about me

But at the same time I also have a nagging need to find out what specifically is wrong with me, or if there even is anything wrong with me in the first place (still holding out hope that I’m normal JFL)

Thanks for the insight tho

 

[Sovvton]

That was the two things I thought about when seeing your experiences. In my experience i really think it’s about dopamine dysregulation i’ve seen countless cases with video game and tiktok addicts. Just stop watching a screen entirely for 3 weeks it will put you in a state of depression and all the repressed emotions will resurface.

Porn (as I assume you consume) might play a very important role too.

Go on /nosurf subreddit for more anecdotes.
Everything can be fixed read allen carrs book about addiction if you struggle to quit.
Good luck brother you seem very healthy and smart enough to go out of the worst trap human beings have ever build.
Best wishes

I’ve tried dopamine detoxes but my brain is mush at this point, I’ll try build up to doing one soon

Thanks for the advice

 

[Meteor21]

 

[Sovvton]

Autism probably

Too nt in social settings for it to be autism g

 

[Schizotypalcel]

I’ve tried dopamine detoxes but my brain is mush at this point, I’ll try build up to doing one soon

Thanks for the advice

i have aspd, psychological literature would call it (psychopath, sociopath) if u got any questions pm

 

[Darkeningstar]

Alright I see

Tbh I dont really want to get evaluated for fear of me actually turning out to not be nt like i always thought + it doesn’t affect my life too much, and to be honest it’s something that I just don’t want the people in my life to know about me

But at the same time I also have a nagging need to find out what specifically is wrong with me, or if there even is anything wrong with me in the first place (still holding out hope that I’m normal JFL)

Thanks for the insight tho

This response of yours suggests to me that you are probably a narcissist, strange as that sounds.
As for not being sorry, many people pretend.

 

[Darkeningstar]

i have aspd, psychological literature would call it (psychopath, sociopath) if u got any questions pm

Literature often mixes and is confusing, I hate it when I see sociopathy and psychopathy cited as being very similar

 

[Schizotypalcel]

Literature often mixes and is confusing, I hate it when I see sociopathy and psychopathy cited as being very similar

i was just clarifying due to seeing psychopath an sociopath getting thrown around in thread, i dislike it as well.

 

[Sovvton]

if u got any questions pm

Thanks, will do

 

[Sovvton]

This response of yours suggests to me that you are probably a narcissist, strange as that sounds.
As for not being sorry, many people pretend.

Narcissist does actually make a lot of sense

Would also explain a lot of other things not mentioned in this thread fuck

 

[Sovvton]

Narcissist does actually make a lot of sense

Would also explain a lot of other things not mentioned in this thread fuck

But also I do still think factor 1 psycopathy is most likely it (from what ive seen)

Narcissism adjacent behaviours are present in the factor 1 psycopathy behaviours, alongside other behaviours that I also experience

 

[Bitchwhipper2]

Considering youre on .org, its probably narcissism

 

[oily703]

Why are you scared of a therapist though
Surely it's better than .org

 

[Darkeningstar]

But also I do still think factor 1 psycopathy is most likely it (from what ive seen)

Narcissism adjacent behaviours are present in the factor 1 psycopathy behaviours, alongside other behaviours that I also experience

Yeah, but it's more complex to summarise here. You seem to have a problem with your mask, which is 1: typical of neurotypicals, 2: typical of secondary psychopaths (to which narcissism belongs).
Let me ask you a question: when you manipulate a person, or when you pretend, do you think you succeed?

 

[Andremln]

Too nt in social settings for it to be autism g

Whatever helps you sleep at night "g"

 

[Sovvton]

Why are you scared of a therapist though
Surely it's better than .org

Not scared of the actual therapy per se

Rather the fact that in getting an evaluation/going therapy, inevitably my family, gf, friends will find out and I cant have them finding this out about me

It would completely ruin their perception of me because its not something like anxiety where you get pity/understanding, Im basically just someone who has been faking their feelings 80% of their life and that I dont truly give a fuck about any of them (an oversimplification of how i feel, but thats how they would view it)

 

[Sovvton]

when you manipulate a person, or when you pretend, do you think you succeed?

What exactly do you mean by succeed?

Like as in i succeed in doing it, or it feels like a win to me

 

[Darkeningstar]

What exactly do you mean by succeed?

Like as in i succeed in doing it, or it feels like a win to me

In doing it

 

[Sovvton]

In doing it

Oh yeah easily, i might even be too good when it comes to pretending

I do also succeed in manipulation often
I dont manipulate thaaat much tho

 

[Darkeningstar]

Oh yeah easily, i might even be too good when it comes to pretending

I do also succeed in manipulation often

Very likely then.