What mental condition do I have? (I’m so cooked)

[Sovvton]

Very likely then.

Likely that I exhibit just narcissism on its own or that I exhibit secondary psychopath traits?

Also here you mentioned that

You seem to have a problem with your mask, which is 1: typical of neurotypicals

Does that mean I still classify as neurotypical? Not that it even matters Im just curious

 

[omnilegent]

First things first, I know coming to .org for psychological evaluations is retarded, but that being said I’ve probably done more retarded shit and also I doubt I would actually be able to go through with seeing a psychologist for this shit irl so asking the oh so wise users on here is my last resort.


To put it bluntly I don’t give a fuck about other people. I feel like when things happen to other people (both good and terrible) I literally could not give less of a fuck and have to act like I care. I only feel the real emotion when something happens to me, and I only truly care about things when they directly benefit/hinder me in some way.


A good example would be that all the family who have died in my life, and people I was close friends with who’ve passed, when they died I acted like that shit affected me to blend in but I did not care at all man, my main feeling was just “well it’s a shame I won’t see them again” but there were no tears, no restless nights and I never thought of them at all, only if I saw something that reminded me of them then I would just go on with my day.


Sometimes I wonder how I’ll react when my close family (parents + siblings) die because if I had to guess (since I won’t know how I’ll actually react until it happens), I think it’ll definitely get me down but I’ll be fine after a week max I’ll be fine. Like what is wrong with me seriously. Imagine having to pretend a close family member dying affected you. When I first started to realise Im not normal, I thought I had narcissism because of how self-centred I am since I only care about stuff when it comes yo me, but the thing is I want to be normal, surely a narcissist wouldn’t want that?


In general I feel like I have to play up how I feel, I definitely, 100% feel emotions but I think I feel them less intensely than other people do, either that or everyone plays up how they feel 24/7 which is just as likely to be true.


One last thing is that I’ve never been happy in life, this could just be because I have a dopamine abusing low t tiktok addicted cuck brain that needs something happening every 5 seconds to stay stimulated, but it could also be a symptom so I’ll talk about it. Im basically in a perpetual state of chilling, you could give me the best/worst news of my life I’d be ecstatic/depressed for like a day, then just go back to my chilling autopilot state. I don’t understand how people can say they’re actively happy with how their life is going, I always feel like I’m just okay with it at best. This would make sense if my life was boring but I’ve had some theoretically fun and great times but I just feel meh about it all as it’s happening.


Im struggling to think of any other problems I suffer with as I write this. My guess is sociopathic tendencies from the research I’ve done but I don’t know all too much about other mental health conditions, so if you have high iq and an idea of whats wrong with me then enlighten me and the forum with your knowledge please bhai

emotional detachment or blunted affect

 

[Darkeningstar]

Likely that I exhibit just narcissism on its own or that I exhibit secondary psychopath traits

Secondary psychopath traits

Does that mean I still classify as neurotypical? Not that it even matters Im just curious

Likely, but not necessarily

 

[Sovvton]

Secondary psychopath traits

Understood

Likely, but not necessarily

Huh, didn’t know you could show psychopath traits and still be considered nt at the same time, the more you know

I’ll keep your assessments in mind, you helped a lot, I won’t be a retard and convince myself that I definitely 100% exhibit secondary psychopath traits, I’ll leave the diagnosing up to a doctor if I ever see one

 

[Darkeningstar]

Huh, didn’t know you could show psychopath traits and still be considered nt at the same time, the more you know

I’ll keep your assessments in mind, you helped a lot, I won’t be a retard and convince myself that I definitely 100% exhibit secondary psychopath traits, I’ll leave the diagnosing up to a doctor if I ever see one

Psychopaths are quite common, to classify them as neurodivergent would be comical. Although some might disagree with this

Yeah, of course

 

[Sovvton]

Psychopaths are quite common

Wait really?

Out of 100 people roughly how many are likely to be psychopaths?

 

[324554802984230598]

First things first, I know coming to .org for psychological evaluations is retarded, but that being said I’ve probably done more retarded shit and also I doubt I would actually be able to go through with seeing a psychologist for this shit irl so asking the oh so wise users on here is my last resort.


To put it bluntly I don’t give a fuck about other people. I feel like when things happen to other people (both good and terrible) I literally could not give less of a fuck and have to act like I care. I only feel the real emotion when something happens to me, and I only truly care about things when they directly benefit/hinder me in some way.


A good example would be that all the family who have died in my life, and people I was close friends with who’ve passed, when they died I acted like that shit affected me to blend in but I did not care at all man, my main feeling was just “well it’s a shame I won’t see them again” but there were no tears, no restless nights and I never thought of them at all, only if I saw something that reminded me of them then I would just go on with my day.


Sometimes I wonder how I’ll react when my close family (parents + siblings) die because if I had to guess (since I won’t know how I’ll actually react until it happens), I think it’ll definitely get me down but I’ll be fine after a week max I’ll be fine. Like what is wrong with me seriously. Imagine having to pretend a close family member dying affected you. When I first started to realise Im not normal, I thought I had narcissism because of how self-centred I am since I only care about stuff when it comes yo me, but the thing is I want to be normal, surely a narcissist wouldn’t want that?


In general I feel like I have to play up how I feel, I definitely, 100% feel emotions but I think I feel them less intensely than other people do, either that or everyone plays up how they feel 24/7 which is just as likely to be true.


One last thing is that I’ve never been happy in life, this could just be because I have a dopamine abusing low t tiktok addicted cuck brain that needs something happening every 5 seconds to stay stimulated, but it could also be a symptom so I’ll talk about it. Im basically in a perpetual state of chilling, you could give me the best/worst news of my life I’d be ecstatic/depressed for like a day, then just go back to my chilling autopilot state. I don’t understand how people can say they’re actively happy with how their life is going, I always feel like I’m just okay with it at best. This would make sense if my life was boring but I’ve had some theoretically fun and great times but I just feel meh about it all as it’s happening.


Im struggling to think of any other problems I suffer with as I write this. My guess is sociopathic tendencies from the research I’ve done but I don’t know all too much about other mental health conditions, so if you have high iq and an idea of whats wrong with me then enlighten me and the forum with your knowledge please bhai

I actually relate to you, How old are you?

 

[Darkeningstar]

Wait really?

Out of 100 people roughly how many are likely to be psychopaths?

Making a percentile estimate doesn't make much sense, but they are common. Society rewards psychopathy, so much so that acting like a psychopath sometimes pays off. For example, I have learnt over time to do so. Wearing a mask, pretending to be sorry are all very common and nauseating.

 

[Sovvton]

I actually relate to you, How old are you?

18, what about you?

 

[324554802984230598]

18, what about you?

Im 16, im in the same situation as you, my emotions are so short i go back to my chill state almost instantly

 

[BeanletMogger]

Read every word

 

[Sovvton]

Making a percentile estimate doesn't make much sense, but they are common.

Fair enough

Wearing a mask, pretending to be sorry are all very common and nauseating.

That’s funny, because for me wearing the mask is relatively effortless for the most part, probably because I didn’t think of it as a mask until now

 

[Sovvton]

Im 16, im in the same situation as you, my emotions are so short i go back to my chill state almost instantly

Yeah it’s weird, not the worst problem to have so I don’t feel hard done by, but I also really wish I could just experience emotions like a normal person

 

[Sovvton]

Read every word

Thank you bhai

 

[324554802984230598]

Yeah it’s weird, not the worst problem to have so I don’t feel hard done by, but I also really wish I could just experience emotions like a normal person

] never will i feel really detatched and i only feel good when i get praised

 

[Sovvton]

i only feel good when i get praised

Is that why you want to ascend

 

[324554802984230598]

Is that why you want to ascend

Yes to feed my ego

 

[Darkeningstar]

That’s funny, because for me wearing the mask is relatively effortless for the most part, probably because I didn’t think of it as a mask until now

The trivial example is to pretend to be sorry, i.e. to show sympathy, when something bad happens (wars, for example) in other parts of the world. Many people don't care but pretend to.
This is commonly referred to as empathy, but it's not.

One talent that empathic people have is being able to see through people's masks more easily.

If there is one (psychopath) in a group of people, often the leader, who has obvious manipulative traits, I notice it immediately. This leads me to be wary of some people, better to pretend I am a psychopath

 

[Sovvton]

Yes to feed my ego

Same

 

[Sovvton]

The trivial example is to pretend to be sorry, i.e. to show sympathy, when something bad happens (wars, for example) in other parts of the world. Many people don't care but pretend to.
This is commonly referred to as empathy, but it's not.

Ohhhh yh people do that all the time, I don’t do that shit its cringe, truth be told if it’s out of sight it’s out of mind

One talent that empathic people have is being able to see through people's masks more easily.

If there is one in a group of people, often the leader, who has obvious manipulative traits, I notice it immediately. This leads me to be wary of some people, better to pretend I am a psychopath

See I think I’m very good noticing the ways in which people act, but I don’t necessarily catch on to manipulative traits, what do you view as manipulative behaviours?

 

[Darkeningstar]

See I think I’m very good noticing the ways in which people act, but I don’t necessarily catch on to manipulative traits, what do you view as manipulative behaviours

I don't look at manipulative traits, although some are obvious, but at how people react.

This is also a good way to estimate possible positive outcomes between two people who seem attracted to each other.

 

[Sovvton]

I don't look at manipulative traits, although some are obvious, but at how people react.

This is also a good way to estimate possible positive outcomes between two people who seem attracted to each other.

I have a lot to learn I see

 

[Darkeningstar]

I have a lot to learn I see

Goku Black mogs

 

[Sovvton]

Goku Black mogs

Thats why I had to make him my avi

Whos the girl in yours?

 

[Darkeningstar]

Thats why I had to make him my avi

Whos the girl in yours?

Monica Bellucci

 

[yayatourer]

I’ve tried dopamine detoxes but my brain is mush at this point, I’ll try build up to doing one soon

Thanks for the advice

How long and what have you done exactly ?

 

[Sovvton]

How long and what have you done exactly ?

I've tried quitting social media before but I just spent my time watching tv instead and realised it's pretty much the same thing so I gave up in like a week

 

[yayatourer]

I've tried quitting social media before but I just spent my time watching tv instead and realised it's pretty much the same thing so I gave up in like a week

Thats the thing you have to do it properly and indulge in absolutely no screen for 3 weeks trust me this is the problem

 

[RICHCELDOM]

Yapmania disorder

 

[Sovvton]

Yapmania disorder

I don't need a diagnosis for that one bud

 

[RICHCELDOM]

I don't need a diagnosis for that one bud

No cure btw

 

[Sovvton]

No cure btw

Cursed to air out my schizo ramblings for eternity? Yeah the rope couldn't come any sooner JFL