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My old crush never rly liked me and i never stood a chance with her. She hated herself because she was fat and non NT and in order to release her frustration she used me as a punching bag. She emotionally abused me, bullied me, humiliated me in public and proactically chemically castrated me. She said she was looking for nerds to game with and then mocked me for being one.
And she knew very well i was incel, she could tell both from my looks and interests that i was one, i was the perfect candidate. When i met her, she was VERY happy to see me because i was exactly what she expected: a miserable ethnic subhuman that she could do ANYTHING to with 0 reperucssions.
When we were playing Dark Souls, she would constantly bully me when i had he controller. I found some hidden souls and she was like "You happy now?". I pulled a parry and she said "Why parry when you can just tank with the shield???". When i told her i kill Solaire she said "How can you possibly kill Solaire??? Solaire is the best guy, shame on you!".
But the worst was when i beat a boss and she told me "Come on, you know what to do now, make a gesture". And when i did it she said "Good boi". She was constantly bossing me and anything i said or did BACKFIRED.
And that was the best i had with her. Because next time i met her, she was ruthless. She tried to coerce me into suicide by telling me that life has no meaning. Then she said "What else does a nerd like you do besides gaming and playing bass?".
But the worst was when she said "I was partying all the time when i was in college while you were stuck in your room studying hahaha.". She knew what to say and where to strike, i was suffocating with her. She hated me because she saw herself in me but also pitied me at the same time for the same reason which is why she wouldnt ghost me. It was never gonna work with her anyway. But tbh it was the best i could get. Maybe i should have just given her money like she wanted me to.
@Darkeningstar
@TechnoBoss
@Primalsplit
And she knew very well i was incel, she could tell both from my looks and interests that i was one, i was the perfect candidate. When i met her, she was VERY happy to see me because i was exactly what she expected: a miserable ethnic subhuman that she could do ANYTHING to with 0 reperucssions.
When we were playing Dark Souls, she would constantly bully me when i had he controller. I found some hidden souls and she was like "You happy now?". I pulled a parry and she said "Why parry when you can just tank with the shield???". When i told her i kill Solaire she said "How can you possibly kill Solaire??? Solaire is the best guy, shame on you!".
But the worst was when i beat a boss and she told me "Come on, you know what to do now, make a gesture". And when i did it she said "Good boi". She was constantly bossing me and anything i said or did BACKFIRED.
And that was the best i had with her. Because next time i met her, she was ruthless. She tried to coerce me into suicide by telling me that life has no meaning. Then she said "What else does a nerd like you do besides gaming and playing bass?".
But the worst was when she said "I was partying all the time when i was in college while you were stuck in your room studying hahaha.". She knew what to say and where to strike, i was suffocating with her. She hated me because she saw herself in me but also pitied me at the same time for the same reason which is why she wouldnt ghost me. It was never gonna work with her anyway. But tbh it was the best i could get. Maybe i should have just given her money like she wanted me to.
@Darkeningstar
@TechnoBoss
@Primalsplit
