What should i do in life?

[BlondKanyeWest]

Ever since i became an adult, it has been increasingly harder to think about my future, all goals i have sometimes thought about are unrealistic and i js discard them, like, "oh, ill move to x country!, oh, ill be able to affort my own home!, ill get a job!" after discarding them i js remember that i am in college, trying to get a degree that'll be completely useless anyways, i am not getting a job from this, my only decent skill is english (i live in a spanish speaking country) but even then nothing assures ill be hired in whatever place, not like i try anyways, i spend all my days in college wasting time and then on my computer staring at random shit, a monotone and obnoxious life, college removes my chances to relax for real, so even when i dont have classes i have to think about homework, only to procrastinate it and get increasingly more anxious as the deadlines get closer, and all my homeworks are practical so chatgpt wont do jack shit here. I genuenly dont know what to do, the current cycle i am on doesnt make me happy, id rather drop out of college and get a job because at least id be getting money, but even then, as i said before, there is no guarantee that ill get a job in the first place, and even if we remove that circumstance, i am too lazy to send job applications, hell i am too lazy to even play videogames sometimes. Does anyone else feel the same way?

 

[BlondKanyeWest]

in the end, i feel like 90% of my problems would magically go away if i was a girl, they have life on easy mode, just by existing they already have a man that'll give them economic stability assured, they have it so easy they can do bullshit like be in lesbian polyamorous relationships completely devoid of consequences cuz 5 years later they'll have a betabuxx ready to take them, and even if they stay as lesbians they have a well paying job assured, a corporate job where they do absolutely nothing other than hang out with their friends. It makes me feel physically ill to write all of this, because its the reality i and all young men face.