What should i do?

[Suimaxxer]

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Lately too many people have been cutting me off and its starting to get ridiculous, i wake up only to see 2-3 people have unadded me on social media (people i used to chat with everyday) and this shit is happening almost every day its lowkey scary

One of these people is a girl i was very close with for 8 months, we were just friends but we would chat and call almost every day and after all that i decided to be the one to cut her off cuz this shit with people cutting me off starting getting out of hand, and once she gave me the chance to do it (she was ignoring me for 17 hours) i unadded her as i felt like i would be a beggar if i texted her again

Now ive unfollowed her on every app but i thought of texting her today and asking her whats going on or something, but at the same time i feel like if i do that i would be begging for attention, cuz why isnt she texting me to find out why i unfollowed her?


Some context: The past few days weve been calling and she told me she will come to my city most prolly but only if i want to go out with her cuz she will be staying at some relatives house while she will be here and she will be very bored. She was always the one to ask me if everythings ok and why am i acting like that (being so distant) and this has happened a million times but i always loved that attention and i feel like if i do the same thing she always did for me even just once i will be a beggar (even tho im the one who decided to cut her off). Idrk what to do, i know she will reply if i text her because she was basically the one begging to find out whats wrong with me and why im being so distant with her like we would call and she would try her best to cheer me up and make me communicate with her (cuz i was always replying with "ok", "mhm" lately, which is not whats shes used to from me) but yeah




Tldr i love attention

 

[Suimaxxer]

Fuck u give me some attention u niggers this is the only place where i get notifications and i fucking love it, i literally live from that idc if its reps or replies just give me some nots

 

[Vantablack]

Fuck u give me some attention u niggers this is the only place where i get notifications and i fucking love it, i literally live from that idc if its reps or replies just give me some nots

Another long ass thread just skip

 

[Suimaxxer]

I will bump this thread until i get fucking banned if yall dont give me some notifications to cheer me up

 

[fabri_1742]

Is she hot tho

 

[Suimaxxer]

@Vantablack see? It wasnt so difficult was it?

 

[Suimaxxer]

Is she hot tho

No but shes been on my side every single time she knows everything about me and i know everything about her and shes been extremely helpful to my life in general, maaaaaaaybe if i was drunk af i would hit

 

[fabri_1742]

Show a picture brah

 

[Suimaxxer]

Show a picture brah

Oh hell nah im not sharing her pics in this shit hole

Shes not very attractive but thats not the point i dont even see her like that

 

[fabri_1742]

Oh hell nah im not sharing her pics in this shit hole

Shes not very attractive but thats not the point i dont even see her like that

Idk make an excuse to why you blocked her

 

[copingmaxnt]

Fuck u give me some attention u niggers this is the only place where i get notifications and i fucking love it, i literally live from that idc if its reps or replies just give me some nots

aww

 

[Suimaxxer]

Oh my God why am i so addicted to notifications? Every time i click "new posts" and i see "1" above the bell icon i feel like everythings going to be fine and im actually worthy

 

[Suimaxxer]

aww

Thanks

 

[copingmaxnt]

Thanks

ure gonna be alright babe daddy's gotchuu

 

[Suimaxxer]

ure gonna be alright babe daddy's gotchuu

Getting notifications literally brings me peace of mind i feel like the war inside me is over its so peaceful i love it

 

[Suimaxxer]

@copingmaxnt i love u bro ur actions matter a lot more than u think

 

[Suimaxxer]

So what should i do then?
@Node consider this tag as an act of kindness

 

[Suimaxxer]

Helloooo? Should i text her or nah?

 

[Suimaxxer]

Ok u know what? Ill text her, but this is my thought process behind it:

So far everythings going to hell because i havent done something that will put me in a desperate position. If i do something like that, i will have reached rock bottom before my life can get me there, so after that the only way my life can go is up

Or u could think of it like this: the further back u draw a bow (the lowest u go in life), the more distance it will travel (the better ur life will be)

 

[Node]

So what should i do then?
@Node consider this tag as an act of kindness

Nah what

 

[reemzy]

Another long ass thread just skip



Lately too many people have been cutting me off and its starting to get ridiculous, i wake up only to see 2-3 people have unadded me on social media (people i used to chat with everyday) and this shit is happening almost every day its lowkey scary

One of these people is a girl i was very close with for 8 months, we were just friends but we would chat and call almost every day and after all that i decided to be the one to cut her off cuz this shit with people cutting me off starting getting out of hand, and once she gave me the chance to do it (she was ignoring me for 17 hours) i unadded her as i felt like i would be a beggar if i texted her again

Now ive unfollowed her on every app but i thought of texting her today and asking her whats going on or something, but at the same time i feel like if i do that i would be begging for attention, cuz why isnt she texting me to find out why i unfollowed her?


Some context: The past few days weve been calling and she told me she will come to my city most prolly but only if i want to go out with her cuz she will be staying at some relatives house while she will be here and she will be very bored. She was always the one to ask me if everythings ok and why am i acting like that (being so distant) and this has happened a million times but i always loved that attention and i feel like if i do the same thing she always did for me even just once i will be a beggar (even tho im the one who decided to cut her off). Idrk what to do, i know she will reply if i text her because she was basically the one begging to find out whats wrong with me and why im being so distant with her like we would call and she would try her best to cheer me up and make me communicate with her (cuz i was always replying with "ok", "mhm" lately, which is not whats shes used to from me) but yeah




Tldr i love attention

 

[Suimaxxer]

Nah what

What should i text her?

 

[Suimaxxer]

Idk make an excuse to why you blocked her

I didnt block her, just unfollowed her

 

[Suimaxxer]

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U gave me a notification tho, and i love that

 

[Suimaxxer]

I asked her if she will eventually come to my city which is a bit ironic and funny but idc

 

[Node]

What should i text her?

Idk bro

 

[Suimaxxer]

Idk bro

Already texted her and she replied back in like 10 seconds lol

 

[fabri_1742]

Already texted her and she replied back in like 10 seconds lol

What did she say?

 

[MouthBreathingElite]

Fuck u give me some attention u niggers this is the only place where i get notifications and i fucking love it, i literally live from that idc if its reps or replies just give me some nots

Fuck you fakecel!!!

 

[Suimaxxer]

What did she say?

A lot of stuff, we are chatting rn like non stop

 

[Suimaxxer]

Fuck you fakecel!!!

Fakecel face wise, but not mentally wise. I have a terrible addiction and a lot of other mental issues

 

[fabri_1742]

Fakecel face wise, but not mentally wise. I have a terrible addiction and a lot of other mental issues

Are you good looking? Can we see

 

[Suimaxxer]

Are you good looking? Can we see

No

 

[Suimaxxer]

Welp its over, at least she gave me the chance to leave her on liked and delivered so i guess its a win

 

[Suimaxxer]

This shit might actually be my parents fault. They have always been giving me sooo much unwanted attention that i got used to it and now im expecting the same attention from everyone else while treating them like shit or at least not giving the same energy back, just like i do with my parents. Thats why i probably feel like a beggar when im trying to communicate my thoughts to someone, or when i text first, or i give the slightest bit of attention to someone

 

[Suimaxxer]

Im now thinking of texting her again. She thinks im the one who wasnt texting her and i was saying she was the one who was actually doing that. We're both at fault as we both did that shit, but when we were calling i was the one being all distant not saying anything at all and she was the one trying to hold the conversation and asking whats wrong and stuff. Damn. It will be too ridiculous if i text her again tho, even tho she told me she wants to continue talking and shit, and lowkey i want to see her when (and if) she comes to my city cuz we have been chatting for months and shes been great to me all this time, while i was the douchebag of the whole story. But my ego wont let me do whats right

 

[Suimaxxer]

I literally have an extremely limited amount of people who care about me and know almost everything about me like she does, and even these people will disappear from my life once i graduate from uni. I havent kept a single friend from my childhood, all my life ive been getting new friends and losing them, but none of them was permanent. Deep down i want a friendship that will last, and all ive been getting is temporary people who i hang out with only not to look weird outside. Idk how long i can continue doing this for, its getting to a point where i want something a bit more stable, someone who neither will leave nor will i kick out of my life. Im not saying this specific girl is that someone but at this point in my life shes one of the very very few i have that knows me well, cares about me, helps me and is there for me.

Maybe i sound like a little bitch, but taking advantage of everyone and treating people like shit hasnt gotten me rly far, yes i can find new friends even tomorrow if i want to, but if i treat them the same way ive treated everyone else they will leave too, and these temporary "solutions" are just a coping method to the bigger problem

 

[Suimaxxer]

Spilling out my heart in these replies lmao, cant tell if its the circumstances bending me or if its the real me finally addressing the problem. Life has taught me that if i treat people the way i want them to treat me, they will stomp on me like a fucking cockroach, but if i treat them like shit, eventually they will leave but at least they wont do me wrong and they will have a reason to leave too. I really dont know what to do

 

[Suimaxxer]

Not a single rep on these replies, brutal

 

[MouthBreathingElite]

Ngl dnr but ill rep

 

[Suimaxxer]

Ngl dnr but ill rep

Thanks i guess

 

[fabri_1742]

DR actually

 

[Gearsy]

Another long ass thread just skip



Lately too many people have been cutting me off and its starting to get ridiculous, i wake up only to see 2-3 people have unadded me on social media (people i used to chat with everyday) and this shit is happening almost every day its lowkey scary

One of these people is a girl i was very close with for 8 months, we were just friends but we would chat and call almost every day and after all that i decided to be the one to cut her off cuz this shit with people cutting me off starting getting out of hand, and once she gave me the chance to do it (she was ignoring me for 17 hours) i unadded her as i felt like i would be a beggar if i texted her again

Now ive unfollowed her on every app but i thought of texting her today and asking her whats going on or something, but at the same time i feel like if i do that i would be begging for attention, cuz why isnt she texting me to find out why i unfollowed her?


Some context: The past few days weve been calling and she told me she will come to my city most prolly but only if i want to go out with her cuz she will be staying at some relatives house while she will be here and she will be very bored. She was always the one to ask me if everythings ok and why am i acting like that (being so distant) and this has happened a million times but i always loved that attention and i feel like if i do the same thing she always did for me even just once i will be a beggar (even tho im the one who decided to cut her off). Idrk what to do, i know she will reply if i text her because she was basically the one begging to find out whats wrong with me and why im being so distant with her like we would call and she would try her best to cheer me up and make me communicate with her (cuz i was always replying with "ok", "mhm" lately, which is not whats shes used to from me) but yeah




Tldr i love attention

Dnr

 

[Suimaxxer]

These replies reached the universe, and it listened to me. I just opened instagram and even tho i left her on read and liked like an hour ago AND deleted the chat afterwards, when i opened the app just now she texted me again asking me to call her whenever i can

This is a miracle

 

[Suimaxxer]

Dnr

It wasnt meant for u to read btw

 

[Gearsy]

These replies reached the universe, and it listened to me. I just opened instagram and even tho i left her on read and liked like an hour ago AND deleted the chat afterwards, when i opened the app just now she texted me again asking me to call her whenever i can

This is a miracle

Proof that spazzing out on org works

 

[Suimaxxer]

Proof that spazzing out on org works

I swear to God this has to be a Christmas miracle, theres no other way to justify this. I literally poured out my purest self in these replies, and after i was done and opened insta she texted me? Asking me to call her? After i left her on read? Can this be a coincidence? Of course not

 

[Gearsy]

I swear to God this has to be a Christmas miracle, theres no other way to justify this. I literally poured out my purest self in these replies, and after i was done and opened insta she texted me? Asking me to call her? After i left her on read? Can this be a coincidence? Of course not

Ngl I think that the universe does react when you spend all your energy thinking about ts. Maybe it’s just confirmation bias but idk

 

[banku don]

Oh my God why am i so addicted to notifications? Every time i click "new posts" and i see "1" above the bell icon i feel like everythings going to be fine and im actually worthy

its cause you're an aimless loser

Lately too many people have been cutting me off and its starting to get ridiculous, i wake up only to see 2-3 people have unadded me on social media (people i used to chat with everyday) and this shit is happening almost every day its lowkey scary

The reason people talk to someone is not cause they're friends but cause they provide some value in their life. Someone might be very relatable to you thats some value they'll provide. Someone might be very funny thats some value they'll provide, or someone might be very famous/cool to you thats some value they'll provide, etc.

 

[Suimaxxer]

The reason people talk to someone is not cause they're friends but cause they provide some value in their life. Someone might be very relatable to you thats some value they'll provide. Someone might be very funny thats some value they'll provide, or someone might be very famous/cool to you thats some value they'll provide, etc.

Is money valuable?