What the fuck am i doing with my life?

[Epsteiniggachud]

im 20 years old with no direction in life, not a semblance of identity. I spend my days sitting at home doing nothing rotting away, ideally i’d be out spending my unemployed life doing meaningful stuff but i have not one source of income. up until recently I had a job at a thrift store, it was fine at first , its typically hard for me to interact with and get to know new people. but i was able to intergrate seamlessly. up until my hagcell boss suddenly took a hostile vindictive attitude towards me. im not sure why. i smile and say hello to everyone and try to do small talk which im absolutely dog shit at. even eye contact i struggle with. but i did it anyways. even still , when i looked into the stupid bitches t50 (im t50 too JFLL) far apart prey eyes. there was nothing but hatred and malice. she would bitch me out and try to belittle me in front of people. she was such a disgusting looking human too which made my anger much worse. a sub 3 chewing me out . pure humiliation. eventually i snapped and told her how i felt. she made me clock out that day, i walked out and never came back. it was a good day that day. now i’m broke and living with my mother. rotting away. now that im not in highschool i find it hard to socialize with normie adults, i don’t have a plan , i have no direction. no money. i have looks and that’s all because i am an HTN manlet(5’9) so i can slay pretty easily if i go for an mtb or even lower. htb and above i can crack sometimes but i have to jester and do the typical humiliation ritual shit. so i’d rather just Be a Cel instead of slay ugly girls. and when i age i won’t even have the looks anymore and ill go bald. what the fuck can i even do at this point. should i just ldar and accept my fate?

 

[mltnisme124]

im 20 years old with no direction in life, not a semblance of identity. I spend my days sitting at home doing nothing rotting away, ideally i’d be out spending my unemployed life doing meaningful stuff but i have not one source of income. up until recently I had a job at a thrift store, it was fine at first , its typically hard for me to interact with and get to know new people. but i was able to intergrate seamlessly. up until my hagcell boss suddenly took a hostile vindictive attitude towards me. im not sure why. i smile and say hello to everyone and try to do small talk which im absolutely dog shit at. even eye contact i struggle with. but i did it anyways. even still , when i looked into the stupid bitches t50 (im t50 too JFLL) far apart prey eyes. there was nothing but hatred and malice. she would bitch me out and try to belittle me in front of people. she was such a disgusting looking human too which made my anger much worse. a sub 3 chewing me out . pure humiliation. eventually i snapped and told her how i felt. she made me clock out that day, i walked out and never came back. it was a good day that day. now i’m broke and living with my mother. rotting away. now that im not in highschool i find it hard to socialize with normie adults, i don’t have a plan , i have no direction. no money. i have looks and that’s all because i am an HTN manlet(5’9) so i can slay pretty easily if i go for an mtb or even lower. htb and above i can crack sometimes but i have to jester and do the typical humiliation ritual shit. so i’d rather just Be a Cel instead of slay ugly girls. and when i age i won’t even have the looks anymore and ill go bald. what the fuck can i even do at this point. should i just ldar and accept my fate?

i mean bro just look at your name lol