Orc
diagnosed autist
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This is a legitimately serious question, ok? I don't care about making friends or being popular, I seriously DONT. I feel like people don't believe me when I say shit like that. But I've been vocal about this my whole life. I e always been everything to fit in and I want to be done. However, I'm an artist and I need to be at least a bit "popular" but I can't get anyone to notice me. I'm so tired of bending over backwards for everyone to be accepted in any freaking way! Me and my roommate are about to be homeless, we're starving, eating one small meal a day, if that, and I've been screaming out for help for almost a year! I'm not asking for anyone to like me, I'm asking for some support, not even money! I just want someone I can ACTUALLY trust to like me enough to help me a little bit. I can't even get someone to give me a job! Not even for house cleaning! I've applied to agencies but they never have anything or just won't hire me! WTF do I have to do? I'm also autistic, and I know we give off uncanny vibes, but I'm 41 and have been giving those vibes for that long...? I've been through enough abuse, it's fucking never ending! Family, peers, teachers, other authorities, employers, all look at me like I'm not even a species on this planet! I don't know what to do...all I want is a bit of acceptance, compassion and people who have talents they can't express help me with mine and in turn I'll try to help with yours. I want community. Why is that so hard?