Whats wrong with me

[Gs.]

Why cant i have a normal comversation?
Why do conversations always turn out boring and have no subject or meaning?
Why cant i feel like the person is listening to me?
Why cant i truly connect with a human being?

Is it me? Am i boring? Am i uninteresting? Whats the actual problem? How can i solve it?

Almost always when i try to talk with someone alone, it gets to a point where i just dont know what to say or what to ask or what to talk about

Even when im actually talking about something im passionate about, which i dont do often because i have the hobbies of a weird motherfucker

Its like they arent even listening, like they dont give a fuck and just waiting for their turn to say something they want to say

Am i selfish for wanting to be heard?

Is it my hobbies?
It cant be my looks, im not subhuman
Or do i just have the personality of a rock?

I doubt ill even get actual replies

 

[160cmcurry]

 

[trench]

same for me because we are social rejects

 

[iblamemandible7]

Because youre autistic like WE all are on looksmax.org and the only way you will ever be valued at all is if your appearance provides the dopamine to others that you are neurochemically unable to give

 

[Gs.]

same for me because we are social rejects

How far can one go just for acknowledgment

 

[trench]

How far can one go just for acknowledgment

whats that supposed to mean

 

[davidlaidisme67]

Why cant i have a normal comversation?
Why do conversations always turn out boring and have no subject or meaning?
Why cant i feel like the person is listening to me?
Why cant i truly connect with a human being?

Is it me? Am i boring? Am i uninteresting? Whats the actual problem? How can i solve it?

Almost always when i try to talk with someone alone, it gets to a point where i just dont know what to say or what to ask or what to talk about

Even when im actually talking about something im passionate about, which i dont do often because i have the hobbies of a weird motherfucker

Its like they arent even listening, like they dont give a fuck and just waiting for their turn to say something they want to say

Am i selfish for wanting to be heard?

Is it my hobbies?
It cant be my looks, im not subhuman
Or do i just have the personality of a rock?

I doubt ill even get actual replies

story of my life. No joke its legit your brain structure

 

[the exile v2]

Why cant i have a normal comversation?
Why do conversations always turn out boring and have no subject or meaning?
Why cant i feel like the person is listening to me?
Why cant i truly connect with a human being?

Is it me? Am i boring? Am i uninteresting? Whats the actual problem? How can i solve it?

Almost always when i try to talk with someone alone, it gets to a point where i just dont know what to say or what to ask or what to talk about

Even when im actually talking about something im passionate about, which i dont do often because i have the hobbies of a weird motherfucker

Its like they arent even listening, like they dont give a fuck and just waiting for their turn to say something they want to say

Am i selfish for wanting to be heard?

Is it my hobbies?
It cant be my looks, im not subhuman
Or do i just have the personality of a rock?

I doubt ill even get actual replies

its your genes

 

[Gs.]

story of my life. No joke its legit your brain structure

So am i just wired like this? And theres nothing i can do about it?

its your genes

Elaborate

 

[the exile v2]

Because youre autistic like WE all are on looksmax.org and the only way you will ever be valued at all is if your appearance provides the dopamine to others that you are neurochemically unable to give

there is some truth to that almost everyone on here is a autist or schizo

 

[the exile v2]

So am i just wired like this? And theres nothing i can do about it?

Elaborate

well he because of his genes is not good at socializing I on the other hand have natural charisma so I'm good with other and socializing

 

[iblamemandible7]

Elaborate

At least one of your parents has at least some elements of autist/schizo brain

 

[Gs.]

there is some truth to that almost everyone on here is a autist or schizo

Its 2am and i cant sleep thinking about that shit, i may aswell have mental problems

 

[iblamemandible7]

Its 2am and i cant sleep thinking about that shit, i may aswell have mental problems

Trying to become NT when youre truly ND to your core is harder than any other method on .org

Realize its not your fault, you just won in the wrong lottery and try to feel less shame about yourself, shame is what will limit you the most when youre ND so distance yourself from that and try to fit in as naturally as you can to your environment, place no value on the person you are today because your job is to be a different person tomorrow and the next day and so on, always be what people expect of you and make people expect of you what you are

 

[marshadow]

Dnr but How ya doing today bro

 

[Gs.]

At least one of your parents has at least some elements of autist/schizo brain

Trying to become NT when youre truly ND to your core is harder than any other method on .org

My childhood was hell, my parents were fucked up, i was bullied and fat, i was made fun off, excluded, couldnt talk to people, had very high inhib

could that have any influence on how i turned out? im not even fully grow yet

 

[iblamemandible7]

My childhood was hell, my parents were fucked up, i was bullied and fat, i was made fun off, excluded, couldnt talk to people, had very high inhib

could that have any influence on how i turned out? im not even fully grow yet

Yes, youre abused dog

Its over bhai, its over

 

[Gs.]

Dnr but How ya doing today bro

bad

Yes, youre abused dog

Its over bhai, its over

Im not, not anymore, im tall, im big, i know how to fight, the people that did those things to me feel shame when they look at my face

but this never truly leaves the back of my mind

 

[Franco333]

Its 2am and i cant sleep thinking about that shit, i may aswell have mental problems

where are you from its 2 am here too

 

[Gs.]

where are you from its 2 am here too

Brazil

 

[Franco333]

Brazil

oh we're close im fron argentina
i kinda hate you're people they make me mad on csgo
btw i think you might be autistic and theres weird things in your personality and way of being that you probably havent realized but other do easily

 

[marshadow]

bad

whys that?

 

[Gs.]

oh we're close im fron argentina
i kinda hate you're people they make me mad on csgo

We should hate eachother but i dont hate you

btw i think you might be autistic and theres weird things in your personality and way of being that you probably havent realized but other do easily

I am not autistic, like, autistic, autistic, i just struggle with connecting with people, i guess

 

[Franco333]

We should hate eachother but i dont hate you

I am not autistic, like, autistic, autistic, i just struggle with connecting with people, i guess

could be another mental disorder tbh
or youre personality developed incorrectly during childhood

 

[Gs.]

whys that?

Thinking too much, remembering traumas from the past, realizing none of my friends care about me but im alright with it

 

[marshadow]

Thinking too much, remembering traumas from the past, realizing none of my friends care about me but im alright with it

I relate, but the thing about it is you can jst focus on yourself more. Become someone people want to hang out with. Do you lift or anything physical?

 

[Gs.]

I relate, but the thing about it is you can jst focus on yourself more. Become someone people want to hang out with. Do you lift or anything physical?

Yeah i do, im deep into that, lifting is the thing that gives me the most joy

When im in the gym i dont think about anything and just enjoy the moment, it helps alot

 

[marshadow]

Yeah i do, im deep into that, lifting is the thing that gives me the most joy

When im in the gym i dont think about anything and just enjoy the moment, it helps alot

BASED Gym is chadtivities. How long ya been going for?

 

[Gs.]

BASED Gym is chadtivities. How long ya been going for?

Year and a half somewhere around there

 

[marshadow]

Year and a half somewhere around there

nice man. Ever try getting some gym bros?

 

[Gs.]

nice man. Ever try getting some gym bros?

Not really, people in the gym arent my age nd tbh they dont look like they wanna talk to me lol

 

[marshadow]

Not really, people in the gym arent my age nd tbh they dont look like they wanna talk to me lol

fair enough.

 

[Gs.]

fair enough.

Gn man.