when i was 11 i used to sh and fantasise about suicide

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gigaover from the get go

i don’t do those things now

but i look back

and realise that this pain

has been rooted in me throughout my entire life

i was only 11 already doing these crazy things

yeah man

over before it began

@Prøphet @Mansur
 
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i did this at 4 years old
 
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gigaover from the get go

i don’t do those things now

but i look back

and realise that this pain

has been rooted in me throughout my entire life

i was only 11 already doing these crazy things

yeah man

over before it began

@Prøphet @Mansur
3000 post is poetic
 
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when i was 14

i remember i was set on my windowsill

planned to jump off

and wanted to jump off so bad

simply was too pussy to do it

ive always been this way inclined

even when i was such a young kid

hard to see how i can change
 
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Same

11 years old was the age where my life fell apart
 
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Its never over
I attempted suicide at 10 when I found out my mom had cancer
Started to sh at 14 stopped at 15
It can get better man
Its a slippery slope but its never over
 
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Same

11 years old was the age where my life fell apart
yeah man

just something dark about it settling in so early

I think the most demotivating thing isn’t even the fact that it started at 11

but the chains of events that caused it to begin were set in stone way earlier

ie. my parent’s abuse prevailed way before i was 11

it just took until 11 for me to fully realise how vile everything was
 
Its never over
I attempted suicide at 10 when I found out my mom had cancer
Started to sh at 14 stopped at 15
It can get better man
Its a slippery slope but its never over
sorrry to hear that man

childhood trauma really sucks the worst
 

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