When my mind is distracted my pain hides

[Vermilioncore]

My mind is constantly going. Hyperawareness. I hate being aware. I hate thinking. I hate having a brain.

I need to constantly distract myself from my painful, fucked up reality. My pain rapes me every chance it gets. And I can never recover. I have a feeling soon I won’t be able to take this sorrow and regret and I’ll end up blowing my brains out.

This is just a horrible life…how can someone not be drunk 24/7?

 

[Sphinx]

Some mornings after I wake up it takes me 1/2 min to realize I'm back to reality with all the shit that I have to live with and I go like ''Fuck, this is actually my reality''