When's the last time that you had an Oneitis?

[Andremln]

This question goes mostly to older users, after all you learned and if your mentality and thoughts about love changed after getting into the blackpill, are you still able to get a hard crush on a girl? like when you were a kid or during your early teen years?

Last time i had a crush on a girl was in 2023, right when i got really blackpilled about worldview, after that i am only able to find a girl attractive, but nothing extreme, even if she's really good looking, there isn't an almost magnetic pull towards needing to be with her, wanting to protect her, cuddle, etc. its just meh.

I mean i do want to protect and make love (not sex, love.) with a girl, but after everything i've been through regarding a neglected social, romantical and sexual life, it would feel fake, it is more of a fantasy now.

 

[Oriental]

just say crush bro i cant keep up with all these new terms

 

[Joeseminate]

This question goes mostly to older users, after all you learned and if your mentality and thoughts about love changed after getting into the blackpill, are you still able to get a hard crush on a girl? like when you were a kid or during your early teen years?

Last time i had a crush on a girl was in 2023, right when i got really blackpilled about worldview, after that i am only able to find a girl attractive, but nothing extreme, even if she's really good looking, there isn't an almost magnetic pull towards needing to be with her, wanting to protect her, cuddle, etc. its just meh.

I mean i do want to protect and make love (not sex, love.) with a girl, but after everything i've been through regarding a neglected social, romantical and sexual life, it would feel fake, it is more of a fantasy now.

I havent had a crush since end of secondary so at 16 but probaly 14-15 was the last time I actually cared

 

[Bryce]

Never had one.

 

[Lonely]

Right now

 

[Andremln]

Never had one.

Do you have any mental condition? aspd?

 

[Paul7]

I am not a homosexual

 

[tansel]

2021

 

[Andremln]

Right now

Mirin, are you planning on shooting your shot?

 

[Andremln]

I am not a homosexual

naturally being very attracted to a girl and wanting to own her and protect her isn't homo behavior

 

[fartsniffer1135]

Few months ago

 

[Bryce]

Do you have any mental condition? aspd?

Possibly, I've never been evaluated for anything like that though. All I know is that I've never had an obsessive desire for any single person. If I want something I'll try to get it but I don't daydream.

 

[hyperbeast]

year ago

 

[Lonely]

Mirin, are you planning on shooting your shot?

Fuck no lol

 

[Andremln]

Possibly, I've never been evaluated for anything like that though. All I know is that I've never had an obsessive desire for any single person. If I want something I'll try to get it but I don't daydream.

Could be aspd tbh, wouldn't hurt to get a diagnosis, not necessarily to make you harmless, it could help you exploit even more your pros compared to a neurotypical brain

I recently got my official diagnosis, I have lots traits of NPD and some of BPD but i don't fit either's textbook definition, i deal with extremely violent rage outbursts whenever i start feeling lonely, humilliated or inferior, and get an insane rush and feeling of grandiosity, kind of my brain's mechanism of defense because i am an abused dog i guess, this isn't a new thing for me though, even as young as 9yrs old i used to kill and torture little animals or insects, but i felt and can still feel immense regret right after it, i am highly capable of empathy both on a cognitive and emotional level, i am trying to find out how to use this for my benefit

 

[armemann]

Had one the last months

But another guy stole her

Fml

Most emotional pain ive been in

 

[Bryce]

Could be aspd tbh, wouldn't hurt to get a diagnosis, not necessarily to make you harmless, it could help you exploit even more your pros compared to a neurotypical brain

I recently got my official diagnosis, I have lots traits of NPD and some of BPD but i don't fit either's textbook definition, i deal with extremely violent rage outbursts whenever i start feeling lonely, humilliated or inferior, and get an insane rush and feeling of grandiosity, kind of my brain's mechanism of defense because i am an abused dog i guess, this isn't a new thing for me though, even as young as 9yrs old i used to kill and torture little animals or insects, but i felt and can still feel immense regret right after it, i am highly capable of empathy both on a cognitive and emotional level, i am trying to find out how to use this for my benefit

My understanding on ASPD is decent but the issue with all DSM-5 Cluster B disorders is the nuance. Not to mention the different factors like Factor 1 Psychopathy, Factor 2 Psychopathy (Sociopathy), etc. and the overlap which occurs in each disorder. I don't believe a lack of obsessive romantic interests is indicative of anything much really. I can't speak on how I experience or interpret emotions because I am the way I am and I've never experienced an alternative. I would say I check off a surprising amount of the listed ASPD traits however it's nothing more than mere speculation. I don't want to be a diagnosed with psychopathy or anything anyways. Would prefer to live a life free of a clinicians concerns and labels.

 

[Andremln]

Had one the last months

But another guy stole her

Fml

Most emotional pain ive been in

my last one was in 2023 right when i was integrating the blackpill into my worldview, she was very cute and innocent looking, virgin, pale skin brown hair very neotenous eyes.

She went with her friends to a club on a random friday and got drunk and fucked a random just cause supposedly her friends "pushed her" to lose her virginity, that is some infamous work ngl but i lost all my attraction towards her (i heard this from a friend of her, i didn't talk with her tbh)

 

[SlayerOfAllFoids]

Had one the last months

But another guy stole her

Fml

Most emotional pain ive been in

Sorry to hear that bro

 

[Andremln]

My understanding on ASPD is decent but the issue with all DSM-5 Cluster B disorders is the nuance. Not to mention the different factors like Factor 1 Psychopathy, Factor 2 Psychopathy (Sociopathy), etc. and the overlap which occurs in each disorder. I don't believe a lack of obsessive romantic interests is indicative of anything much really. I can't speak on how I experience or interpret emotions because I am the way I am and I've never experienced an alternative. I would say I check off a surprising amount of the listed ASPD traits however it's nothing more than mere speculation. I don't want to be a diagnosed with psychopathy or anything anyways. Would prefer to live a life free of a clinicians concerns and labels.

Fair enough, i probably wouldn't have went to the psychiatrist either if my problems weren't interfering as much as they were in my academic and personal life, but the episodes were increasing in frequency to the point of having at least twice per day. I am fully conscious while they occur (Not the drooling angry special education aspie type) and i could technically control myself but it feels cathartic letting that energy leave my body, i was getting too many bruises and injuring my hands because i would just punch whatever i could if i got too angry.

Hunting helps me regulate, though the doctor advised against involving myself in violent activities, i might start going to Wrestling classes as well see if it reduces the episodes even more.

 

[Bryce]

Fair enough, i probably wouldn't have went to the psychiatrist either if my problems weren't interfering as much as they were in my academic and personal life, but the episodes were increasing in frequency to the point of having at least twice per day. I am fully conscious while they occur (Not the drooling angry special education aspie type) and i could technically control myself but it feels cathartic letting that energy leave my body, i was getting too many bruises and injuring my hands because i would just punch whatever i could if i got too angry.

Hunting helps me regulate, though the doctor advised against involving myself in violent activities, i might start going to Wrestling classes as well see if it reduces the episodes even more.

Interesting. Funnily enough I've been reading a lot more psychological literature in the past few weeks, Dr. Todd Grande made a lot of informative videos on these types of disorders as well. I think my friend has a disorder similar to yours, he is admittedly bipolar and certainly unpredictable. I've never witnessed him become erratic or violent, but his mood swings are severe. He's been a lot of different psych meds throughout his life, but nothing seems to work very well. Perhaps I should schedule an appointment with my former psychiatrist just to shoot the shit and see what I can find.

 

[kxverse7]

In 2023 I had a huge crush on a girl but she chose some other GL guy and i became blackpilled
Now in my new school
I found a girl attractive and hv thought to date her I mog my all the classmates in looks and I don't see any mogger in my school too so maybe I'll get her but if she rejects I'll again comeback to this forum and Ldar

 

[Andremln]

Interesting. Funnily enough I've been reading a lot more psychological literature in the past few weeks, Dr. Todd Grande made a lot of informative videos on these types of disorders as well. I think my friend has a disorder similar to yours, he is admittedly bipolar and certainly unpredictable. I've never witnessed him become erratic or violent, but his mood swings are severe. He's been a lot of different psych meds throughout his life, but nothing seems to work very well. Perhaps I should schedule an appointment with my former psychiatrist just to shoot the shit and see what I can find.

If he's Bipolar, episodes could look similar on the surface to mine but the root cause is different, as far as i know, and the reason why i wasn't diagnosed with Bipolarity, is because in people with that disorder the outbursts are sudden, sporadic, random, or they're triggered by a wide range of emotions, while in my case they're limited or restricted to happen when i have feelings of inferiority or humilliation only.

Yeah i always found psychology very interesting, it is totally outside of the academic area i am dedicating to (Mathematical Engineering) but it is one of the few themes i naturally feel very drawn to studying and learning about