who can help me

[Jiaxi]

who here can help me

 

[takethezincpill]

With what boss?

 

[Jiaxi]

With what boss?

18 years old and about to go to college. I'm so unequipped and to be honest I'm fucking scared.

what I've done to help:
guanfacine for focus
escitalopram for depression
GH to gain weight
Test because why not
Aromatase to not be a bitch
Dihexa for school
and I talked to my doctor about Beta Blockers so Im getting those as well

 

[takethezincpill]

18 years old and about to go to college. I'm so unequipped and to be honest I'm fucking scared

I’m not 18 nor am I going to college but why are you scared? Is it because of the fear that u might not succeed?

 

[Jiaxi]

I’m not 18 nor am I going to college but why are you scared? Is it because of the fear that u might not succeed?

its more the fear that without the corralling of a greater force (parents, school, etc,) I am a defective machine. I will never reach any success because of my wiring and because I was close but not enough to learn my environment. I have succeeded with women, made money, made friends, but I couldn't tell you why. God knows it's not my looks so I have tried to find all the problems and fix them. Without any idea of what drives the success or positivity.

 

[Orka]

its more the fear that without the corralling of a greater force (parents, school, etc,) I am a defective machine. I will never reach any success because of my wiring and because I was close but not enough to learn my environment. I have succeeded with women, made money, made friends, but I couldn't tell you why. God knows it's not my looks so I have tried to find all the problems and fix them. Without any idea of what drives the success or positivity.

you can either try and learn to work without a greater force which will take a while, or try and find a friend or someone you're close with to hold you responsible

 

[takethezincpill]

its more the fear that without the corralling of a greater force (parents, school, etc,) I am a defective machine. I will never reach any success because of my wiring and because I was close but not enough to learn my environment. I have succeeded with women, made money, made friends, but I couldn't tell you why. God knows it's not my looks so I have tried to find all the problems and fix them. Without any idea of what drives the success or positivity.

I’m being honest when I say I don’t know how to respond to this but
you don’t need to know the exact engine behind your past success to keep succeeding. You just need systems, habits, and a willingness to act while figuring it out.

 

[Jiaxi]

I’m being honest when I say I don’t know how to respond to this but
you don’t need to know the exact engine behind your past success to keep succeeding. You just need systems, habits, and a willingness to act while figuring it out.

thank you I agree with this. It’s hard to feel if i’m not driven by a motor, routine will be my weapon in college.

 

[Jiaxi]

you can either try and learn to work without a greater force which will take a while, or try and find a friend or someone you're close with to hold you responsible

i’ll have my roommates hold me accountable