Who were you before looksmax?

[lurkingserpent]

I had philosophies about the world which mapped on pretty close to the culture on here, except they didn't involve looks. They regarded seeking status, and advancing myself socially. People here call it low inhib. I watched a lot of Jordan Peterson growing up, which is cringe, but from him I got the idea of play. I think it's more accurate than low inhib. You assume a state of play, or mode of play. Your parasympathetic nervous system is activated. Thoughts, and ideas flow freely. Your exaggerate, emphasize. Your tone of voice alternates. Your provocative. Your enthusiastic. Your not conflicted by yourself. Your attention is focused outward. Your in complete comfort. Your curious. Low inhibition might be the most important requisite for play, but it's not the play itself. Clavicular is low inhib, but absolutely insufferable. He's constantly emotional, and aggressive probably cause of his roid use. He's constantly conflicted with his ego, and prejudices. He's manipulative, and dishonest. I think play fundamentally comes from honesty. If your honest youll expose your vulnerabilities and this will resolve the emotionality associated with them, and if you do that enough you can assume the mode of play. It's actually really hard to do this, you have to be extremely conscious of how your reacting emotionally to yourself moment to moment. I would tell people how scared I was of them rejecting me, or if I caught myself seeking validation from them I would directly acknowledge what I just perceived about myself to them, which was jarring. Then Id try to reassure myself how inconsequential this emotionality is because reacting to my own emotionality would make me emotional, and conflicted. Then I'd tell them something embarrassing like my preferences in pornography. Id feel confined to the rational, which is another mode, so I'd try more humour, or singing or dancing, or saying weird things. Anyway, for whatever reason using drugs never even hit my mind. I spent months exposing myself to people. Allowing myself to face rejections, but despite all my effort, progress was really slow. So now I'm going to try to create a balance between a more psychological approach, and using drugs.

 

[juju06]

I was a bluepilled normie worrying about haircuts and style and shit.
Wish I was blackpilled early so I could just ldar and not stress about whores waste of fucking time

 

[pslgod15]

dnr

 

[manhattanbound]

was a normal guy worrying about my skin, now i constantly compare my face and my height to others

 

[lurkingserpent]

dnr

People always write this, did not read, but why do you even need to tell people. Is it like a joke? Or what do you get from saying it? Does it suggest the thread is boring or something. Actually confused why dnr is proliferated as a response.

 

[lurkingserpent]

was a normal guy worrying about my skin, now i constantly compare my face and my height to others

So it's been a detriment? My superficial conflicts were unconscious and confusing. Now they are conscious and that makes me more confident. I also evaluated status using character more than looks. Looks is mainly for sex I think. It's a weaker marker for social status than something like low inhib or play. IQ is pretty important as well. I was worried about being verbally dominated by others.