why am i such a pathetic fucking loser ND

[ascend.exe]

i cant do this anymore, why was i even born?

JFL at my entire existence haha. I hate being 18 i hate being a man i hate being white i hate being alive. FML

i never wanted any of this.

 

[shikimorilover69]

go read psychology books and become a politican and have fun with the world if u have no goals

 

[ascend.exe]

go read psychology books and become a politican and have fun with the world if u have no goals

do u have recommendations, i dont want looksmaxxing books r nun cuz my mental is my issue 100% i can barely leave my house atp

i know that sounds pathetic but its in the title lmao

 

[shikimorilover69]

Nah I cant read books cause I have too little attention span to do so lol
Do u go to uni at least

 

[Kroker]

do u have recommendations, i dont want looksmaxxing books r nun cuz my mental is my issue 100% i can barely leave my house atp

i know that sounds pathetic but its in the title lmao

The Denial of Death by Ernest Becker

It’s a blackpill mine

 

[Deleted member 198375]

i cant do this anymore, why was i even born?

JFL at my entire existence haha. I hate being 18 i hate being a man i hate being white i hate being alive. FML

i never wanted any of this.

U hate being white? Do u live in section 8 housing that ur treated so low as a white guy

 

[ascend.exe]

Nah I cant read books cause I have too little attention span to do so lol
Do u go to uni at least

no, im a bum who fried his brain with pot and mushrooms during HS.

so sad, haha. Always been ND and showed signs but like never this bad in my life till the past 2 years or so.

 

[shikimorilover69]

then can you go to community college and learn something

 

[ascend.exe]

U hate being white? Do u live in section 8 housing that ur treated so low as a white guy

the jewish media makes me hate myself, it makes me feel better to know that everyone is effected by this tho.

I've seen blacks wanna be white, whites wanna be black, asians wanna be white and indians wanna be white so its like kinda fucked for everyone right now. I hate being white because i look around and see what all these rich white dudes get while im stuck in poor neibourhood ashamed of who i am.

this society makes me hate myself, first my body, then my race, then my brain.

 

[Deleted member 198375]

the jewish media makes me hate myself, it makes me feel better to know that everyone is effected by this tho.

I've seen blacks wanna be white, whites wanna be black, asians wanna be white and indians wanna be white so its like kinda fucked for everyone right now. I hate being white because i look around and see what all these rich white dudes get while im stuck in poor neibourhood ashamed of who i am.

this society makes me hate myself, first my body, then my race, then my brain.

Rn it seems like a problem just where u live, do u live in the usa?

 

[nel9d]

i cant do this anymore, why was i even born?

JFL at my entire existence haha. I hate being 18 i hate being a man i hate being white i hate being alive. FML

i never wanted any of this.

How can you hate to be white, were literally superiorThe fact that jewish propaganda tries to make us less valuable only proves our superiority. Be prideful of who you are
Idk if that helps but that thiught aids me im coping a little more

 

[Arbuscular]

i hate being a man

just become trans.

 

[ascend.exe]

Rn it seems like a problem just where u live, do u live in the usa?

I live in candia, (canada/india now)

rural spot tho, so its just a lotta white people and jamaicans here rn. Its either i stay here and see a buncha trailer trash who got no respect or morals, practially worse than the immigrants, fucking race traitors all of em. Or go to the city and be met with hate by everyone.

idk i just dont enjoy life really anymore, i dont like to go outside. I dont wanna meet new people or friends, i dont want a girlfriend as ive already been hurt by every women ive ever met.

dont mean to sound to much like a bummer but thats just how i feel, i dont belong no where especially with my mental health issues and shit, which nobody seems to understand or care about not even my therapist!

i cant do this shit, i pay $150 once every 3 weeks to go talk to some fat white bitch about my stupid fucking issues.

 

[Arbuscular]

Also, cage at your post

I hate being 18 i hate being a man i hate being white i hate being alive.

??????????
>18, means you can get a job, do roids/surgeries
>man, means you are smarter, stronger, faster etc than 50% of the population
>white, means you are prob above avg iq

look at the good things in life instead of dwelling in your own misery, fellow inkwell.

 

[ascend.exe]

just become trans.

fuck you jew.

kys

 

[ascend.exe]

Also, cage at your post

??????????
>18, means you can get a job, do roids/surgeries
>man, means you are smarter, stronger, faster etc than 50% of the population
>white, means you are prob above avg iq

look at the good things in life instead of dwelling in your own misery, fellow inkwell.

none of that shit matters to me, im smart and shit so i see beyond all that wordly bs i dont care about it really.

How can you hate to be white, were literally superiorThe fact that jewish propaganda tries to make us less valuable only proves our superiority. Be prideful of who you are
Idk if that helps but that thiught aids me im coping a little more

that does help me, i think about that too. But im not some like radacalized person, it doesn't make me feel happy that whites are the best or wtv.

I just feel like scum, like trailer trash i live next door to. I hate drugs i hate weed and most of all i hate school for being a system where kids get bullied and traumatized while the teachers laugh and watch.

 

[Deleted member 198375]

I live in candia, (canada/india now)

rural spot tho, so its just a lotta white people and jamaicans here rn. Its either i stay here and see a buncha trailer trash who got no respect or morals, practially worse than the immigrants, fucking race traitors all of em. Or go to the city and be met with hate by everyone.

idk i just dont enjoy life really anymore, i dont like to go outside. I dont wanna meet new people or friends, i dont want a girlfriend as ive already been hurt by every women ive ever met.

dont mean to sound to much like a bummer but thats just how i feel, i dont belong no where especially with my mental health issues and shit, which nobody seems to understand or care about not even my therapist!

i cant do this shit, i pay $150 once every 3 weeks to go talk to some fat white bitch about my stupid fucking issues.

$150 is mad but yea, Ngl if i was you id visit nature more often especially canada. Seems like u hate people and need some peace and quiet

 

[nel9d]

none of that shit matters to me, im smart and shit so i see beyond all that wordly bs i dont care about it really.

that does help me, i think about that too. But im not some like radacalized person, it doesn't make me feel happy that whites are the best or wtv.

I just feel like scum, like trailer trash i live next door to. I hate drugs i hate weed and most of all i hate school for being a system where kids get bullied and traumatized while the teachers laugh and watch.

You can blame everything and everyone around you as much as you want, but that wont help you
I know its a cliche to say this but you really do sound like a person who is hiding from the problem - himself

 

[Arbuscular]

none of that shit matters to me, im smart and shit so i see beyond all that wordly bs i dont care about it really.

Bhai, instead of thinking abt the nihilistic point of view, which is: Ohh life is full of suffering and meaningless so I should just kms/ldar

Why don't you look through the absurdist point of view? I.e: The universe is meaningless, and trying to make sense of it will only drive you crazy. So why don't you try to enjoy things in this life you have got here? Its the only experience you have, what if you spend the rest of eternity in a black fucking abyss only with your conscience? Will you be glad you came here to ldar for 18 years and kys?

Try to get as much dopamine you can, low cortisol. Don't think about life too much;
Coming from a "high iq" autist, trying to make sense of your own existence, will only drive you to depression and misery

Don't go down that path bhai

Wish you well

 

[ascend.exe]

You can blame everything and everyone around you as much as you want, but that wont help you
I know its a cliche to say this but you really do sound like a person who is hiding from the problem - himself

haha no shit thats my issue fr

i hate everyone, but more than anyone. I hate myself for what this world has turned me into. I am a monster pretty much not even on no corny shit, just like a narcissist and egotistical person.

Bhai, instead of thinking abt the nihilistic point of view, which is: Ohh life is full of suffering and meaningless so I should just kms/ldar

Why don't you look through the absurdist point of view? I.e: The universe is meaningless, and trying to make sense of it will only drive you crazy. So why don't you try to enjoy things in this life you have got here? Its the only experience you have, what if you spend the rest of eternity in a black fucking abyss only with your conscience? Will you be glad you came here to ldar for 18 years and kys?

Try to get as much dopamine you can, low cortisol. Don't think about life too much;
Coming from a "high iq" autist, trying to make sense of your own existence, will only drive you to depression and misery

Don't go down that path bhai

Wish you well

thank you bro, sorry for calling u a jew but those memes are what really fk up a lotta peoples mental, like bp edits and sht for me.

I will try, that is def when my mental is best. I think many like terry Davis have gone down the rabbithole and never returned.

 

[nel9d]

haha no shit thats my issue fr

i hate everyone, but more than anyone. I hate myself for what this world has turned me into. I am a monster pretty much not even on no corny shit, just like a narcissist and egotistical person.

thank you bro, sorry for calling u a jew but those memes are what really fk up a lotta peoples mental, like bp edits and sht for me.

I will try, that is def when my mental is best. I think many like terry Davis have gone down the rabbithole and never returned.

If you were truly narcissistic and prideful you wouldnt have these thoughts

 

[Ur fav sub 5]

i cant do this anymore, why was i even born?

JFL at my entire existence haha. I hate being 18 i hate being a man i hate being white i hate being alive. FML

i never wanted any of this.

Why bro life has to much to it ur just brainwashed by media

 

[ascend.exe]

Why bro life has to much to it ur just brainwashed by media

yeah, i have this saved to my pc if u wanna know the typa shit i be consuming on the daily

 

[Ur fav sub 5]

yeah, i have this saved to my pc if u wanna know the typa shit i be consuming on the daily

I know 5'3 ltns with gf and niggas broke trust me just go out and take drugs to lower ur inhibition

 

[ascend.exe]

I know 5'3 ltns with gf and niggas broke trust me just go out and take drugs to lower ur inhibition

idk im scared to take anti depressants or wtv, cuz i heard they make u lower test and stuff.

but who gives a fuck about ur test and shit if ur fucking dead, rite?

i dont think ill ever take them tho, even tho the doctor recommends it. I'd prolly rather die than lower my test.

 

[Arbuscular]

yeah, i have this saved to my pc if u wanna know the typa shit i be consuming on the daily

Same bro, I am very misogynistic, not only because I base most of my viewpoints from studies/facts but also because of my personal experiences with foids.

You should just try to ascend, its in their biology to be bad towards subhumans.

When I was subhuman I was treated like trash by foids, now I can say im like a solid mtn-hmtn, and they actually treat me decently.

But females, like inherently in their nature are kinda evil beings, unfortunately.

Its like the thing of; the devil disguises himself as beautiful and angel as ugly ifykwim

 

[Arbuscular]

I know 5'3 ltns with gf and niggas broke trust me just go out and take drugs to lower ur inhibition

 

[Ur fav sub 5]

idk im scared to take anti depressants or wtv, cuz i heard they make u lower test and stuff.

but who gives a fuck about ur test and shit if ur fucking dead, rite?

i dont think ill ever take them tho, even tho the doctor recommends it. I'd prolly rather die than lower my test.

Pin test natural anti depressant plus more effects could abuse in gym

 

[russiopathic]

i cant do this anymore, why was i even born?

JFL at my entire existence haha. I hate being 18 i hate being a man i hate being white i hate being alive. FML

i never wanted any of this.

 

[ascend.exe]

Same bro, I am very misogynistic, not only because I base most of my viewpoints from studies/facts but also because of my personal experiences with foids.

You should just try to ascend, its in their biology to be bad towards subhumans.

When I was subhuman I was treated like trash by foids, now I can say im like a solid mtn-hmtn, and they actually treat me decently.

But females, like inherently in their nature are kinda evil beings, unfortunately.

Its like the thing of; the devil disguises himself as beautiful and angel as ugly ifykwim

i have ascended. I dont even need to post my face on here cuz it would just make me feel worse.

I get women, hot women, prolly one tier below model women. I want to die cuz im a genius and my brain is like a demon.

(ts sounds cringe but im just pissed off atp and being real)

bruhh im so delusional haha, but fr i am good looking and I dont need to ascend. Women treated me like shit when i was fat and short, now im above average height, lean with abs. They treat me like a prince now, i am worse personality now too. bruh, im about to go ER atp.

I cant stand the way they used to talk to me, talk to other bad looking men and treat everyone else. I really dispise women, most of them ive met. my sister and my mom are kind tho, so clearly they aint all bad.