EstrelarMOGS
losercel
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my whole life girls have given me a hardtime whether its my own mother even they are so insufferable in the least mysoginistic way. i was bullied and called a pedo in 2023 by them by a rumour and the way i looked and ever since then i cant even sit in a room with another girl without getting very anxious and having slight panic attacks. even if right now in 2025 i try talk to them on text or in person i fucking stutter like crazy and theyre always so fucking rude to me. even some of my exes during the relationships treated like absolute shit and used me. minor inconveniences where even i am the victim im turned into the enemy for no valid fucking reasons. and there i am sat arguing with girls who'll never understand how i feel at all. im so sick of it all i have so much more i could say but i cant even get it all of my chest. every person i've ever hated are 90% girls who ruined my life and sent me into depression especially in 2023. i cant even speak to my own mother without her making me feel like shit listening to her rant and shout, i self harmed start of this year because i hated my looks so i used to cut my face with a razor blade and then after the months i got so sick and tired a few months later and also started cutting my arm to the point it was entirely covered in blood one day and there i was trying not to collapse from the sight of so much blood and although this wasnt cause by any girls really and mostly just because i know im not making it anywhere in life and i hate my looks but a GIRL i used to "talk to" was the final straw until i fucking gave in. I FUCKING HATE THEM why can't they treat me like a basic human and stop pinpointing their problems and boasting about their perfect life ON ME. october has been a really really tough month and november is usually always the worst months for me and im terrified im gonna relapse and i dont want to...
