Why can't I die an NPC death

[chudcell999]

Why can't I just get hit by a car or caught in the crossfire of a shootout and die everyday in my news for my city I see people dying and random NPC ways like motorcycle accidents car accidents crossfire shooting falling off the stairs why can't I just have one of these stupid 30-second news segment NPC deaths every aspect of my life is difficult I got no relief I hate making these types of posts because I just sound like a whiny bitch which I kind of am but it seems like nothing can just be easy. To the people who say I overthink might sound like a liberal fagot when I say this but I have to overthink I've never had the ability to just spend money without thinking every single cent I have to calculate perfectly because I know my mother depends on me for financial support so would be reckless to spend my money on things I actual want when it comes to talking to Foid I don't like myself and I'm smart enough to realize if you hate yourself getting a girlfriend won't fix that you just have to look in the mirror and like what you see but I hate what I see and what I am I'm a poor 5'11 average looking skinny fat socially awkward loser All of those things can be fixed but it's not likely it's likely my dreams are just dreams I'll grow older working the same job I hate while my business ambitions of being motorcycle a content creator or seller never take off due to my lack of budget and time just working till one day I'm 30 fatter bald maybe lost my virginity but still single got a old car to drive to the job I hate never seeing over 45k a year and I finally accepted that I lost at life and I take the "home defender" revolver I bought as a gift to my self knowing i was prob going to kill myself with it eventually and take one shot collapse in the tiny bathroom of the studio apartment I over pay for just to be found 2 weeks later decaded because the neighbors smell a foul odor really feel like I'm just a waste of space. Niggas will DNR due to low status and the same old "meh hate me life and want to rope" "meh ugly incel" and it's cringe and impossible to care about a no status .org user but I don't think I will ever have the confidence it takes to make it in business without success in entrepreneurship I don't have anything to live for. I don't want to die I just don't want to live my life

 

[Nicki]

Why can't I just get hit by a car or caught in the crossfire of a shootout and die everyday in my news for my city I see people dying and random NPC ways like motorcycle accidents car accidents crossfire shooting falling off the stairs why can't I just have one of these stupid 30-second news segment NPC deaths every aspect of my life is difficult I got no relief I hate making these types of posts because I just sound like a whiny bitch which I kind of am but it seems like nothing can just be easy. To the people who say I overthink might sound like a liberal fagot when I say this but I have to overthink I've never had the ability to just spend money without thinking every single cent I have to calculate perfectly because I know my mother depends on me for financial support so would be reckless to spend my money on things I actual want when it comes to talking to Foid I don't like myself and I'm smart enough to realize if you hate yourself getting a girlfriend won't fix that you just have to look in the mirror and like what you see but I hate what I see and what I am I'm a poor 5'11 average looking skinny fat socially awkward loser All of those things can be fixed but it's not likely it's likely my dreams are just dreams I'll grow older working the same job I hate while my business ambitions of being motorcycle a content creator or seller never take off due to my lack of budget and time just working till one day I'm 30 fatter bald maybe lost my virginity but still single got a old car to drive to the job I hate never seeing over 45k a year and I finally accepted that I lost at life and I take the "home defender" revolver I bought as a gift to my self knowing i was prob going to kill myself with it eventually and take one shot collapse in the tiny bathroom of the studio apartment I over pay for just to be found 2 weeks later decaded because the neighbors smell a foul odor really feel like I'm just a waste of space. Niggas will DNR due to low status and the same old "meh hate me life and want to rope" "meh ugly incel" and it's cringe and impossible to care about a no status .org user but I don't think I will ever have the confidence it takes to make it in business without success in entrepreneurship I don't have anything to live for. I don't want to die I just don't want to live my life

Not reading allat

 

[psltristan1]

Too much words bro

 

[LowTierBateman]

DNR

 

[chudcell999]

Not reading allat

Ik low status+ same boring shit just me basically coming to terms with the fact I'll never live the life I want

 

[chudcell999]

Too much words bro

Don't read it it's just retarded unimportant yap from a low status chud

 

[kisslessvirgin]

life is fragile

make the most of it

 

[chudcell999]

life is fragile

make the most of it

I understand this The very few times I am happy are when I'm on a motorcycle that might mean nothing to you but imagine the very few times when you're genuinely utterly happy without second thought and now imagine if you know exactly how you want your life to turn out but it's just not turning out how you want despite your efforts and you're slowly coming to terms with the fact that it's never going to. I don't want to die I just don't want to live this life.

 

[kisslessvirgin]

I understand this The very few times I am happy are when I'm on a motorcycle that might mean nothing to you but imagine the very few times when you're genuinely utterly happy without second thought and now imagine if you know exactly how you want your life to turn out but it's just not turning out how you want despite your efforts and you're slowly coming to terms with the fact that it's never going to. I don't want to die I just don't want to live this life.

don't be silly on the motorcycle its a bad way to go out

either accept your shitty life or try changing it

you can do a little but mostly genetics at the end of the day

 

[chudcell999]

don't be silly on the motorcycle its a bad way to go out

either accept your shitty life or try changing it

you can do a little but mostly genetics at the end of the day

I wouldn't say exactly genetics they say money can't buy happiness but I don't believe that every time I look at what's wrong with my life it's because I don't have enough money people will say making money is easy but I don't just want to make money online by scamming old retards I want a genuinely start something revolutionary in my own niche but it's just unlikely to ever happen I'm starting to come to that realization My name will never go down in history for my niche