Why can't I do anything for myself

[Deleted member 318558]

Everything I do has a purpose

volleyball is my cardio, keeps me active by parent's request
rock climbing builds my strength, and keeps me humble
studying is to keep my parents happy
self care routine is for others to admire me

when will I get to admire me?

why can't anything I do make me feel better

nothing I do benefits me at all


everyday at school I see people who look so happy, content with just being who they are

why can't I be happy?
I did what I'm supposed to do

I take every step that should make me happy, give me purpose, but none of them change anything.
lowk I'm jake gyllenhal in Demolition jfl

I hate my own life so much, I'd rather just have someone else's than a better version of my own.

fuck me

 

[nocturnevyre]

Take a hike and hop off ts loser

 

[Outlander]

Try to find some stuff you actually like doing for fun even if it doesn't involve anyone else. Plenty of stuff I do is for no purpose other than my own enjoyment