Why do I bring myself down intentionally?

[Deleted member 60975]

I would send a girl I talk to extremely bad looksminned bloated as hell with no sleep dark eyes with patchy beard growth pics and wait for her to ignore me just so I can make myself depressed what’s the reasoning for my brain to want me to be ignored and depressed? Btw me and this girl have no chance of ltr because she lives in another part of the world like I send her pics of myself that look like the badg rate me pics in the bathroom

 

[Vermilioncore]

Because I skull fucked you and gave you brain damage