why do i feel left out

[Deleted member 32930]

i have tried everything i have a skincare routine i go to the gym i look mediocre why does it feel like I'm bieng pushed away by society why does it feel like no one wants me here i go outside i look at the trees even those dont make me feel belonged in this world its like i was made not to fit and i always feel like i owe something to my friends and i try to make them laugh by doing the most randomist shit only to be called an autistic idiot why do i purpose damage my self reputation to amuse people who could care less about me what was incoded in my dna to the point where im designed to be a for other peoples entertainment were my ancestors jesters for kings was my grandpa a clown at the circus i dont know if i could live past 30 if i keep living like this i really dont think i matter and the significance i did to everyone was little to nothing if i generally dont know if i need help because i dont trust doctors or therapist im afraid they might put me on anti deppresants and say i have a "chemical imbalance in my brain" i could really need someone's advice right now because at this point in this moment i dont know what to do.

 

[TaxEvasionmaxxer]

Do you have any life goals bro?

 

[Deleted member 32930]

Do you have any life goals bro?

well i would consider bieng loved a goal as in getting a girlfriend but i dont think right now is a good time i also cant decide if what im having is a existential crisis or something

 

[Donkeyballs]

Then stop it, you don’t owe them anything. Is the problem that you can’t stop? Are you a very docile/submissive person? Do you uncontrollably smile when you are confronted with an awkward situation with people or when they degrade you?

 

[Deleted member 32930]

Then stop it, you don’t owe them anything. Is the problem that you can’t stop? Are you a very docile/submissive person? Do you uncontrollably smile when you are confronted with an awkward situation with people or when they degrade you?

im just a people pleaser i always thought i would be able to stop myself from bieng one but i find myself Time and Time again always wanted people to think that i matter to them

 

[Donkeyballs]

im just a people pleaser i always thought i would be able to stop myself from bieng one but i find myself Time and Time again always wanted people to think that i matter to them

How old are you, have you always been like this?

 

[Yuno_howitez]

you need to become famous like iShowSpeed

 

[Deleted member 32930]

How old are you, have you always been like this?

i am 16 and yes ever since i was little i could vaguely remember that i was always trying to be funny for my friends because i wanted them to like me more

 

[Deleted member 32930]

you need to become famous like iShowSpeed

ill try blackmaxxing

 

[halfbloodaryanmaxxe]

take the manpill neurodivergentcel

 

[Vermilioncore]

Because you are

 

[Gengar]

You matter, bhai.

 

[WanderingBurro]

i look at the trees even those dont make me feel belonged in this world

 

[IBlamePhaggots]

i have tried everything i have a skincare routine i go to the gym i look mediocre why does it feel like I'm bieng pushed away by society why does it feel like no one wants me here i go outside i look at the trees even those dont make me feel belonged in this world its like i was made not to fit and i always feel like i owe something to my friends and i try to make them laugh by doing the most randomist shit only to be called an autistic idiot why do i purpose damage my self reputation to amuse people who could care less about me what was incoded in my dna to the point where im designed to be a for other peoples entertainment were my ancestors jesters for kings was my grandpa a clown at the circus i dont know if i could live past 30 if i keep living like this i really dont think i matter and the significance i did to everyone was little to nothing if i generally dont know if i need help because i dont trust doctors or therapist im afraid they might put me on anti deppresants and say i have a "chemical imbalance in my brain" i could really need someone's advice right now because at this point in this moment i dont know what to do.

Are you non NT/ high inhib?

I find that when i go a prolonged period of time without socialising i get very awkward and more insecure in public aswell as higher inhib, maybe try to socialise more

Depends how long youve been doing stuff really

 

[IBlamePhaggots]

i have tried everything i have a skincare routine i go to the gym i look mediocre why does it feel like I'm bieng pushed away by society why does it feel like no one wants me here i go outside i look at the trees even those dont make me feel belonged in this world its like i was made not to fit and i always feel like i owe something to my friends and i try to make them laugh by doing the most randomist shit only to be called an autistic idiot why do i purpose damage my self reputation to amuse people who could care less about me what was incoded in my dna to the point where im designed to be a for other peoples entertainment were my ancestors jesters for kings was my grandpa a clown at the circus i dont know if i could live past 30 if i keep living like this i really dont think i matter and the significance i did to everyone was little to nothing if i generally dont know if i need help because i dont trust doctors or therapist im afraid they might put me on anti deppresants and say i have a "chemical imbalance in my brain" i could really need someone's advice right now because at this point in this moment i dont know what to do.

Keep going gym and skin care its just general self improvement

What you have to do is change personality, thats about 80% of status in a male friend group if women aren’t involved

 

[gigaslayer]

You sound like a fucking crying pussy. Shut up nigger. Grow thicker skin, grow up, do something. Writing essays like this on an incel forum will only make you more of a pussy. Just shut the fuck up.

 

[LooksThinker]

You matter, bhai.

NO

 

[LooksThinker]

You are a fucking faggot if you think writing depressed post here will do anything for you.

 

[IlDux]

Are you non NT/ high inhib?

I find that when i go a prolonged period of time without socialising i get very awkward and more insecure in public aswell as higher inhib, maybe try to socialise more

Depends how long youve been doing stuff really

true we’re all delulu

 

[Deleted member 27836]

Bc you don’t fit RIGHT IN

GET IT? RIGHT IN

 

[Dr. Bludy]

Cuz ure subhuman