why do i have depression and anxiety

[AronnMtn]

this shit is kicking my ass, and it will literally appear out of nowhere and wreck me. plud i have derealisation and visual snow, so it makes everything worse, i have clear reasons on why i initially became depressed, but now it literally does wtv it want whenever it wants, i can barely sleep at night from anxiety

 

[warmth]

what i usually do is get high until i black out hope it helps

 

[CorinthianLOX]

this shit is kicking my ass, and it will literally appear out of nowhere and wreck me. plud i have derealisation and visual snow, so it makes everything worse, i have clear reasons on why i initially became depressed, but now it literally does wtv it want whenever it wants, i can barely sleep at night from anxiety

Past trauma an bad experiences. Go to therapy and take medications.

 

[AronnMtn]

what i usually do is get high until i black out hope it helps

yea ive been meaning to buy some since it recently ran out, but nowadays since like a week ago, its gotten worse and i even dread going to sleep knowing i cant be high to help me

 

[warmth]

Past trauma an bad experiences. Go to therapy and take medications.

no trauma no bad experiences for me, only rawest purest sadness

 

[AronnMtn]

Past trauma an bad experiences. Go to therapy and take medications.

i have therapy today actually, and ive switched medications 2 times, it lowk just feels like placebo atp, doesn’t do jack shit for me

 

[CorinthianLOX]

i have therapy today actually, and ive switched medications 2 times, it lowk just feels like placebo atp, doesn’t do jack shit for me

How long have gone to therapy for?

 

[AronnMtn]

no trauma no bad experiences for me, only rawest purest sadness

yea i have pretty shit experiences, luckily my genetics decided to lock in somewhat in middle school, and my lifes been better especially in high school, im like a new person, but those past experiences haunt me

 

[mentally_ill_chad]

this shit is kicking my ass, and it will literally appear out of nowhere and wreck me. plud i have derealisation and visual snow, so it makes everything worse, i have clear reasons on why i initially became depressed, but now it literally does wtv it want whenever it wants, i can barely sleep at night from anxiety

Genetics

 

[AronnMtn]

Genetics

yea ig, my mom has depression but hers is from a thyroid disease, her other experiences never affected her enough to have depression, but my grandma has depression and my great grandma too and i think my dad does too

 

[AronnMtn]

How long have gone to therapy for?

since december

 

[CorinthianLOX]

yea ig, my mom has depression but hers is from a thyroid disease, her other experiences never affected her enough to have depression, but my grandma has depression and my great grandma too and i think my dad does too

Brutal I have depression in my family too.

since december

Is it costly?

 

[AronnMtn]

Brutal I have depression in my family too.

Is it costly?

insurance covers it since i was put in a hospital bc of depression

 

[mentally_ill_chad]

but my grandma has depression and my great grandma too and i think my dad does too

That's it. It runs in the family

 

[CorinthianLOX]

insurance covers it since i was put in a hospital bc of depression

Ok good. I think you should probably keep going to therapy since atleast for me it keeps me from roping.

 

[CorinthianLOX]

That's it. It runs in the family

True. Bipolar and schizophrenia also like in my case.

 

[Randomcell.]

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no trauma no bad experiences for me, only rawest purest sadness

happiest org user

 

[AronnMtn]

True. Bipolar and schizophrenia also like in my case.

damn u have schizophrenia? or just at risk? i want to get high to escape the sadness but im sure that schizophrenia MIGHT run in the family, plus ive been seeing so much shit in the corner of my eyes and even like straight up seeing stuff distorted sometimes, literally last night my vision kept going black when i would look at a area, and b4 i went to sleep i was afraid cs i kept seeing shit in the corner of my eye

 

[CorinthianLOX]

damn u have schizophrenia? or just at risk? i want to get high to escape the sadness but im sure that schizophrenia MIGHT run in the family, plus ive been seeing so much shit in the corner of my eyes and even like straight up seeing stuff distorted sometimes, literally last night my vision kept going black when i would look at a area, and b4 i went to sleep i was afraid cs i kept seeing shit in the corner of my eye

No but my grandmother had.

 

[AronnMtn]

That's it. It runs in the family

i used to be a happy kid, i hope i can ascend and maybe cope with depression with a better life socially

 

[AronnMtn]

No but my grandmother had.

same with me, but its my greatgrandma sister that has it, she literally burned down her house

 

[The Grinch]

Because you have repressed thoughts that you are trying to avoid

 

[CorinthianLOX]

same with me, but its my greatgrandma sister that has it, she literally burned down her house

Damn. Also my great uncle had bipolar and probably schizophrenia also.

 

[CorinthianLOX]

Because you have repressed thoughts that you are trying to avoid

 

[AronnMtn]

Because you have repressed thoughts that you are trying to avoid

i dont know if im delusional, but ever since i gained a consciousness, ive had a memory that my grandma would take me away and do things, i rmb i would cry at nights bc she would take me to her bed, but i can’t confidently say she ever did something to me, its just a thought that i feel did happen

 

[CorinthianLOX]

i dont know if im delusional, but ever since i gained a consciousness, ive had a memory that my grandma would take me away and do things, i rmb i would cry at nights bc she would take me to her bed, but i can’t confidently say she ever did something to me, its just a thought that i feel did happen

you should bring that up in your next therapy session

 

[AronnMtn]

i dont know why but ive always felt alone, i had friends even when i was younger and ngl i was pretty well known in elementary snd middle school, but i always had a itch in my head that said no one wants me or likes me

 

[AronnMtn]

they are gonna launch a investigation on that shit if i saw it, plus again i can’t confidently say its true, maybe my mind is making shit up, it would tear my family apart if i said anything

you should bring that up in your next therapy session

 

[faustianspirit]

i dont know why but ive always felt alone, i had friends even when i was younger and ngl i was pretty well known in elementary snd middle school, but i always had a itch in my head that said no one wants me or likes me

this always happens to me
i have lots of friends but in my head i always have the feeling that they just let me hang out with them because they pity me

 

[The Grinch]

i dont know why but ive always felt alone, i had friends even when i was younger and ngl i was pretty well known in elementary snd middle school, but i always had a itch in my head that said no one wants me or likes me

You need professional help. Seriously

 

[AronnMtn]

You need professional help. Seriously

i do have professional help, i have therapy today, but i feel as if we never get anywhere or open up parts of my mind that need to be relieved

 

[AronnMtn]

this always happens to me
i have lots of friends but in my head i always have the feeling that they just let me hang out with them because they pity me

quite literally, i feel as if i exist for the pity of others, and ppl only talk to me cs they feel so bad

 

[faustianspirit]

quite literally, i feel as if i exist for the pity of others, and ppl only talk to me cs they feel so bad

It is so sad because I know for a fact they do not pity me at all, but I just can not ignore that feeling. I guess it comes from past experiences and it is so ingrained in my personality that is part of me now

 

[AronnMtn]

It is so sad because I know for a fact they do not pity me at all, but I just can not ignore that feeling. I guess it comes from past experiences and it is so ingrained in my personality that is part of me now

are u secretly me? ur reading my mind

 

[faustianspirit]

are u secretly me? ur reading my mind

Lots of people here had similar experiences.
Probably the reason why some of us are here in the first place