BlueScree
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im so insecure about everytbing, my looks, relationships, everything.
Ever since i was small all i wanted was to feel loved by someone other than my parents who are forced to love me practically
every source of love straight up rejected me and bullied me, friends or girls.
it's getting to a point. Today i was sort of sick so lied and made myself look worse than i was to skip because i'm so insecure that i would rather skip school than have to endure it and get made fun of by my friends.
Literally right now i had to stop myself from having a panic attack because i am going crazy dude i hear my thoughts saying the worst things ever and i can't help it unless i have music on and it just drives me insane like every second of the day if i dont look good i'll go crazy. I'll be asking my friends how i look in class and i'll waste my education and ask teachers to go to the bathroom so i can see what i look like and hide for a few minutes without having to be judged.
i just wanna feel affection by someone thats not a friend or that has to love me
matter of fact i think my friends just clown on me because they hate me but idk
i don't even look bad, i don't understand why can't i just talk to people and be regular. If i could sacrifice my looks just so i could be mentally normal and forget about all the things plaguing my mind i would.
rants about my past and stuff ive posted before if ur interested im starting to lose it
Ever since i was small all i wanted was to feel loved by someone other than my parents who are forced to love me practically
every source of love straight up rejected me and bullied me, friends or girls.
it's getting to a point. Today i was sort of sick so lied and made myself look worse than i was to skip because i'm so insecure that i would rather skip school than have to endure it and get made fun of by my friends.
Literally right now i had to stop myself from having a panic attack because i am going crazy dude i hear my thoughts saying the worst things ever and i can't help it unless i have music on and it just drives me insane like every second of the day if i dont look good i'll go crazy. I'll be asking my friends how i look in class and i'll waste my education and ask teachers to go to the bathroom so i can see what i look like and hide for a few minutes without having to be judged.
i just wanna feel affection by someone thats not a friend or that has to love me
matter of fact i think my friends just clown on me because they hate me but idk
i don't even look bad, i don't understand why can't i just talk to people and be regular. If i could sacrifice my looks just so i could be mentally normal and forget about all the things plaguing my mind i would.
rants about my past and stuff ive posted before if ur interested im starting to lose it
