why i know im attractive even though im undersocialized and have no feedback from other people to draw a bandwagon conclusion from (in-depth analysis)

[sørenyuko]

if i didn't have these stats, combined with my isolation, i would have surely ended it years ago, so knowing my volatile nature, im certain i am hmtn

The height is an objective metric ofc so i can always safely trust that one wholeheartedly

But facial attractiveness isn't
so i need to think a bit further into this:

my worldview varies entirely on how good i happen to look in the mirror that day

i have no stable values at all

if im bloated im gonna be having hopeless doomer thoughts

and if i look vibrant im positive again

im really this easily influenced and spineless

now if it wasn't only a temporary bloat
and i was actually unattractive
those doomer thoughts would've piled up so much over the years it would've led me to ending it.

all my suicidal thoughts come in those very moments my face looks weird

because i know i cant afford to be not gl in my position so the catastrophizing begins

I always scoure through my thoughts deliberately trying to find flaws in there

i checked if i was just coping to get this over with and stop the rumination but no
this is a real win
im undoubtedly gl

i double checked if i was lying to myself but im not, and its an awesome wave of sincere relief and honesty for me

My coping mechanisms have to go through this process every time

So based on all this i can know im attractive

 

[ICXCLuvr]

my worldview varies entirely on how good i happen to look in the mirror that day

Bros worldview is dependent on whether he gets social validation or not

 

[sørenyuko]

Bros worldview is dependent on whether he gets social validation or not

Yes because im in a volatile state of mind
and human beings prioritize immediate survival and comfort over abstract ideals

a human being in stress especially doesn't go about their thought process rationally, it grabs onto whatever is in front of them to stop the distress as conveniently as possible

Do you really expect me to hold a perfectly stable, fully fledged thought out ideology while in this state with no tools?

secondly: so is everyone else's, they just dont say it out loud, social standing ranks over abstract ideals in everyone's heads, unless you're some one in a billion hermit that also gets the perfect circumstances to pratice their sovereign lifestyle, thats what your main driver will be.

 

[ICXCLuvr]

Yes because im in a volatile state of mind
and human beings prioritize immediate survival and comfort over abstract ideals

a human being in stress especially doesn't go about their thought process rationally, it grabs onto whatever is in front of them to stop the distress as conveniently as possible

Do you really expect me to hold a perfectly stable, fully fledged thought out ideology while in this state with no tools?

secondly: so is everyone else's, they just dont say it out loud, social standing ranks over abstract ideals in everyone's heads, unless you're some one in a billion hermit that also gets the perfect circumstances to pratice their sovereign lifestyle, thats what your main driver will be.

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