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In late 2013, I stumbled upon the forum Misc and r/short for the first time. The not long after, followed by SlutHate and Lookism. I was living in a shithole in Malaysia back then, whenever I was at class, I just wanted to go back to my room so that I could be in those places.
But that was the point of realization. I already had issues with my height long before, but it's when things started to become more clear to me. Turned out that height is a lot more important than I originally thought.
Then I discovered PUA and looksmaxxing. I use these to cope with my height. I thought that if I could get laid, then my height neurosis would be instantly cured.
In the height department, there are 2 main things that I do to mitigate the damages caused by my height.
1. I regularly wear lifts. My main elevator shoes were advertised as 6cm/2.5" boost but when I measured it, the difference between my barefoot height and my height with those shoes are 4.1cm/1.5". So, I'm 171.1cm/5'7.5" with those shoes. We have to take into account that everyone else also has footwear, at least, giving them 1cm or more. And my slippers, they give me a good 1.25".
2. I modified all my clothes in a way that gives me taller impression by manipulating my proportions.
'Theatricality and deception are powerful agents'
I had a lot of tough nights, lots of humiliation, but it hadn't been for nothing. I've gotten laid a couple of times. And if it wasn't for my autistic incel behavior or those misguiding PUA videos, I could have scored a lot more and taken less insults. Because there were lots of interests, eye contacts. I've got girls approaching me when I just stood and did nothing.
There were 2 very heightist girls. They specifically pointed out how they dislike short men, but for some reasons, still gave me a pass. (Only slept with one of them, but the other one said something to confirm that she's interested enough)
There were an Indonesian girl and a white Canadian girl who literally preferred me over 6' white guys.
I shall repeat that this was mostly me on lifts at 5'7.5". At some points, I had to take them off, but luckily it no longer mattered by then.
Now 7 years have passed. Not only my height dysphoria is never cured, but I'm now more convinced than ever that the day won't come where I no longer need height.
Guys like these are my nightmares:
5'11"
5'11"
At 5'6", there are good 5" difference between me and them. (These guys aren't even the tallest.)
Let's say that 5'6" is the average height of white girls (Eventhough the average of young Dutch and Scandinavian girls are most likely higher). What's worse is that more than half of white female population are taller than me but shorter than these guys. We all know that this isn't a good thing being shorter than girls, and just because a girl is short, doesn't necessarily mean that she'd prefer guys my height.
I ask myself, what exactly do I have that these guys don't?
I have ripped my physique but so have they.
Let's be generous and say I have a better face (which is completely subjective and these guys aren't even ugly). Even then would that be enough to beat this lack of 5"? 5" within very crucial range where most girls are. We've established that it is a huge difference between girls looking up to you and girls having to tilt her head down 45 degree to look at you in the eyes.
If I have to talk to 10 girls to sleep with 1 girl while these guys just have to talk to 1 and sleep with 1. Then I'm inferior. That's it.
Maybe it's inevitable that the large majority of the girls in question would prefer to have sex with the guys above if I happen to be in the same place as them.
Prove me wrong if you can, but I don't see how I could compete with those guys because I have stunted my height in the past and can't fix it now.
I tried to figure something out, but it just didn't work.
Perhaps, for now, it's best to just wait for a cure to short stature to be invented. Not Limb Lengthening. But something safer, painless, non-crippling, non-barbaric.
And if that day ever comes, then I finally can be as great as I was supposed to be.
But that was the point of realization. I already had issues with my height long before, but it's when things started to become more clear to me. Turned out that height is a lot more important than I originally thought.
Then I discovered PUA and looksmaxxing. I use these to cope with my height. I thought that if I could get laid, then my height neurosis would be instantly cured.
In the height department, there are 2 main things that I do to mitigate the damages caused by my height.
1. I regularly wear lifts. My main elevator shoes were advertised as 6cm/2.5" boost but when I measured it, the difference between my barefoot height and my height with those shoes are 4.1cm/1.5". So, I'm 171.1cm/5'7.5" with those shoes. We have to take into account that everyone else also has footwear, at least, giving them 1cm or more. And my slippers, they give me a good 1.25".
2. I modified all my clothes in a way that gives me taller impression by manipulating my proportions.
'Theatricality and deception are powerful agents'
I had a lot of tough nights, lots of humiliation, but it hadn't been for nothing. I've gotten laid a couple of times. And if it wasn't for my autistic incel behavior or those misguiding PUA videos, I could have scored a lot more and taken less insults. Because there were lots of interests, eye contacts. I've got girls approaching me when I just stood and did nothing.
There were 2 very heightist girls. They specifically pointed out how they dislike short men, but for some reasons, still gave me a pass. (Only slept with one of them, but the other one said something to confirm that she's interested enough)
There were an Indonesian girl and a white Canadian girl who literally preferred me over 6' white guys.
I shall repeat that this was mostly me on lifts at 5'7.5". At some points, I had to take them off, but luckily it no longer mattered by then.
Now 7 years have passed. Not only my height dysphoria is never cured, but I'm now more convinced than ever that the day won't come where I no longer need height.
Guys like these are my nightmares:
5'11"

5'11"

At 5'6", there are good 5" difference between me and them. (These guys aren't even the tallest.)
Let's say that 5'6" is the average height of white girls (Eventhough the average of young Dutch and Scandinavian girls are most likely higher). What's worse is that more than half of white female population are taller than me but shorter than these guys. We all know that this isn't a good thing being shorter than girls, and just because a girl is short, doesn't necessarily mean that she'd prefer guys my height.
I ask myself, what exactly do I have that these guys don't?
I have ripped my physique but so have they.
Let's be generous and say I have a better face (which is completely subjective and these guys aren't even ugly). Even then would that be enough to beat this lack of 5"? 5" within very crucial range where most girls are. We've established that it is a huge difference between girls looking up to you and girls having to tilt her head down 45 degree to look at you in the eyes.
If I have to talk to 10 girls to sleep with 1 girl while these guys just have to talk to 1 and sleep with 1. Then I'm inferior. That's it.
Maybe it's inevitable that the large majority of the girls in question would prefer to have sex with the guys above if I happen to be in the same place as them.
Prove me wrong if you can, but I don't see how I could compete with those guys because I have stunted my height in the past and can't fix it now.
I tried to figure something out, but it just didn't work.
Perhaps, for now, it's best to just wait for a cure to short stature to be invented. Not Limb Lengthening. But something safer, painless, non-crippling, non-barbaric.
And if that day ever comes, then I finally can be as great as I was supposed to be.