kiwiicel
When a sub5 cries the angels weep with him
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Most people on this forum looksmaxx with a few goals in mind.These usually are to pull themselves into a better position to socially interact with others around them to find like-minded friends,to have a chance to be attractive enough to experience true love,to experience the halo effect and to have a better life career wise.All of these are valid and understandable positions that in my eyes make sense for the average looksmaxxer to pursue,but for me they are personally useless when it comes to motivating me to looksmaxxing.
Despite the fact that i have been into looksmaxxing and the org around 2022 i left in 2024 because i found a partner (you might be done with the bp,but the bp will never be done with you).I won't get into the details but a year later and i became a wreck for various reasons.We seperated,i had to deal with alot of issues and i started eating alot to deal with this.I gained around 40 kg in 4 months,dropped out of highschool and dropped contact with everyone.This happened in 2025.After becoming a useless obese neet i knew the best thing for me to do was to stay away from everyone,not because i wanted to at the time but because i knew what they would think of me.At first i coped,joined discords and embarrassed myself talking to normies never fitting in anywhere.I decided to cut off all communication online and all social media after a month or two with the exception of youtube and a year later the org obviously.In this time i felt jelous of the normies.When i went outside i would feel like a loser,which i was.After a while resentment grew,even if i decided to lock myself inside and not talk to anyone by the seventh month a feeling of resentment was felt.I had always felt different my whole life,like i never fit in.No manner where i went,who i was with or what i did.I always felt rejected and subhuman,like a different lower class person,ever as a child i would wonder to myself why i couldn't be "like other people".
Recently i have grown to hate and recent the goyim,the normies, or whatever you can call them.I feel no jelousy or want to be a part of them.The goyim dilude themselves and cope endlessly by talking about politics,sports,celebrities or whatever other useless topic they want to discuss.Instead of blaming human nature they blame the goverment,capitalism,consumerism,religion or any countless amount of things because they don't want to admit that what's wrong is humans themselves.They are all fake,all delusionals who think the world has fixing to it.They want you to subject to a social contract and morals you never agreed to,they will judge you and backstab you just to play the victims.The goyim are the source of the problems in the world and as such there is no solution,so there is no reason to even discuss things like politics,it's just cope.
For these reasons and more i no longer looksmaxx with the hope of ever having friends or a partner,i have and in part have always been a volcel.I looksmaxx because it's one of the last threads of meaning i have to hang unto.It's something to do and i would rather have the advantages it brings then not when i have to put up a friendly face when i'm inevitably forced to work a job i hate to live a life i don't want to live.Lookmaxxing will make it more bearable and easy.
Despite the fact that i have been into looksmaxxing and the org around 2022 i left in 2024 because i found a partner (you might be done with the bp,but the bp will never be done with you).I won't get into the details but a year later and i became a wreck for various reasons.We seperated,i had to deal with alot of issues and i started eating alot to deal with this.I gained around 40 kg in 4 months,dropped out of highschool and dropped contact with everyone.This happened in 2025.After becoming a useless obese neet i knew the best thing for me to do was to stay away from everyone,not because i wanted to at the time but because i knew what they would think of me.At first i coped,joined discords and embarrassed myself talking to normies never fitting in anywhere.I decided to cut off all communication online and all social media after a month or two with the exception of youtube and a year later the org obviously.In this time i felt jelous of the normies.When i went outside i would feel like a loser,which i was.After a while resentment grew,even if i decided to lock myself inside and not talk to anyone by the seventh month a feeling of resentment was felt.I had always felt different my whole life,like i never fit in.No manner where i went,who i was with or what i did.I always felt rejected and subhuman,like a different lower class person,ever as a child i would wonder to myself why i couldn't be "like other people".
Recently i have grown to hate and recent the goyim,the normies, or whatever you can call them.I feel no jelousy or want to be a part of them.The goyim dilude themselves and cope endlessly by talking about politics,sports,celebrities or whatever other useless topic they want to discuss.Instead of blaming human nature they blame the goverment,capitalism,consumerism,religion or any countless amount of things because they don't want to admit that what's wrong is humans themselves.They are all fake,all delusionals who think the world has fixing to it.They want you to subject to a social contract and morals you never agreed to,they will judge you and backstab you just to play the victims.The goyim are the source of the problems in the world and as such there is no solution,so there is no reason to even discuss things like politics,it's just cope.
For these reasons and more i no longer looksmaxx with the hope of ever having friends or a partner,i have and in part have always been a volcel.I looksmaxx because it's one of the last threads of meaning i have to hang unto.It's something to do and i would rather have the advantages it brings then not when i have to put up a friendly face when i'm inevitably forced to work a job i hate to live a life i don't want to live.Lookmaxxing will make it more bearable and easy.
