D02
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I feel like blowing my fucking brains out. I can’t do this shit. If you’re under 16 you shouldn’t be on any miserable forum such as .org. I’m currently 15–16 and I’ve been on steroids and lookmaxxing forums since I was 12-13 . And yes, I do have to say I got smarter — I optimized my puberty/health better, softmaxxed quite a bit — but in the end it was just to go from subhuman to hltn? All those years of rotting and gaining knowledge just to end up not being able to do shit because I was unlucky enough to be born into a strict, cult-following ethnic household.
The only way I can cope is telling myself that when I’m done with high school I can softmax to my peak potential and use roids and hardmax. But what’s the point in the end? I’ll still be a mentally ill mhtn+. The only reason I haven’t offed myself is this hope, plus crypto/finances as a whole.
Even today I remember going for a walk during my spare and my classmates asked me if I had ever had a girlfriend, and I just went quiet. Keep in mind these people are chinks who are subhuman — the only thing they have going for them is being NT with low inhib and playing sports, while having multiple relationships. Keep in mind too that I go to the best school in my state.
As of right now I’ll probably just trade crypto and try to stack as much money as I can. I can see myself making it in 5–6 years. Focus on school, train my neck, use my massage gun, and do any minuscule softmax I can until I can do something that will yield greater ROI — and that won’t happen for 1.5–2 years.
It’s over.
The only way I can cope is telling myself that when I’m done with high school I can softmax to my peak potential and use roids and hardmax. But what’s the point in the end? I’ll still be a mentally ill mhtn+. The only reason I haven’t offed myself is this hope, plus crypto/finances as a whole.
Even today I remember going for a walk during my spare and my classmates asked me if I had ever had a girlfriend, and I just went quiet. Keep in mind these people are chinks who are subhuman — the only thing they have going for them is being NT with low inhib and playing sports, while having multiple relationships. Keep in mind too that I go to the best school in my state.
As of right now I’ll probably just trade crypto and try to stack as much money as I can. I can see myself making it in 5–6 years. Focus on school, train my neck, use my massage gun, and do any minuscule softmax I can until I can do something that will yield greater ROI — and that won’t happen for 1.5–2 years.
It’s over.
