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Iron
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Ive been in one relationship that lasted for around a year but throughout that then she kept hanging out one on one and being with her guy friends. even when I said that I was not comfortable with it then she always found excuses, one guy in particular started grape rumors about me but she brushed it off and even sided with him saying that it was not his fault and that he was going through things at home.
When I wasnt available to listen to her rants about friends and life she would go off and talk to other guys to get confirmation.
At around 8 months in then we took a break, in the 2 weeks then she had met a guy at a party and was already with him, I had talked to no females during that time. we got back together but she continued to talk to him and just before 1 year then we broke up and she instantly went back to him. Now every girl (and their boyfriends) at school hates me because apparently, I treated her wrong, to be fair I should have communicated better but I tried my hardest to be the best boyfriend I could. All I wanted was to feel loved but I guess that is too much to ask for.
I am now talking to someone else (not with them) but every time they mention another guy or go to a party etc then I immediately shut off. I dont know if I will ever be able to trust in a relationship and I cant bring it up without seeming needy. Maybe if I looked better and wasn't a boneless, recessed, half Asian then someone could be mine and mine only.
Not thinking too much about roping at the moment but I have been trying to ascend for over 2 years and botching myself more than anything.
Ive been in one relationship that lasted for around a year but throughout that then she kept hanging out one on one and being with her guy friends. even when I said that I was not comfortable with it then she always found excuses, one guy in particular started grape rumors about me but she brushed it off and even sided with him saying that it was not his fault and that he was going through things at home.
When I wasnt available to listen to her rants about friends and life she would go off and talk to other guys to get confirmation.
At around 8 months in then we took a break, in the 2 weeks then she had met a guy at a party and was already with him, I had talked to no females during that time. we got back together but she continued to talk to him and just before 1 year then we broke up and she instantly went back to him. Now every girl (and their boyfriends) at school hates me because apparently, I treated her wrong, to be fair I should have communicated better but I tried my hardest to be the best boyfriend I could. All I wanted was to feel loved but I guess that is too much to ask for.
I am now talking to someone else (not with them) but every time they mention another guy or go to a party etc then I immediately shut off. I dont know if I will ever be able to trust in a relationship and I cant bring it up without seeming needy. Maybe if I looked better and wasn't a boneless, recessed, half Asian then someone could be mine and mine only.
Not thinking too much about roping at the moment but I have been trying to ascend for over 2 years and botching myself more than anything.
