Woke up at midnight

[Deleted member 154744]

Lost my sense of time. I sleep in the daytime and wake up at night
Feels unreal, it’s the depersonalization again
Being a loser is all I have known my whole life
It’s not like I don’t wanna get out of it, but because it feels familiar. I don’t like to do new things. What a fucking retarded bum, I know
I feel sad now. I get sad easily when I see people unhappy. What a pathetic person I am, feeling sad for others but in reality, I’m a nobody. No one cares what’s going on in my life. I must have forgotten that I have no friends
I thought this was the cope I need. But no, at night I still wonder if I’m better off dead. It never really goes away
Keep scrolling, it’s the same stuff all again. Funny how this forum can make you cope a little longer and want to end it at the same time

 

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Lost my sense of time. I sleep in the daytime and wake up at night
Feels unreal, it’s the depersonalization again
Being a loser is all I have known my whole life
It’s not like I don’t wanna get out of it, but because it feels familiar. I don’t like to do new things. What a fucking retarded bum, I know
I feel sad now. I get sad easily when I see people unhappy. What a pathetic person I am, feeling sad for others but in reality, I’m a nobody. No one cares what’s going on in my life. I must have forgotten that I have no friends
I thought this was the cope I need. But no, at night I still wonder if I’m better off dead. It never really goes away
Keep scrolling, it’s the same stuff all again. Funny how this forum can make you cope a little longer and want to end it at the same time

dont trust your thoughts after 9pm, trust me its not the way. to me the only thing that helped after 7 years of depression is drugs, go to raves, meet new people and live your life. if you are gonna rope anyways why not have some fun before, just personal opinion but always with moderation.