Would trade my current situation to be tall HTN

[tenmacel]

I am from a wealthy family (<.5% of US earners), good house(s), go to a good program in a good uni (not the best because I fucked up my grades due to mental illness in HS), intelligent (no official IQ score but I perform very well on g-loaded exams, e.g 1580 SAT w/o studying or retakes) except I'm a 5'9 LTN giga-autist, and I'm half-ethnic (half churka half scandinavian, although I am white passing the churka in me made me even more of a manlet).

I have a mid 6-figures job lined up right after undergrad, but I would throw all this shit away to be 6'2+, HTN, NT, and fully white. I don't care if I was piss poor and 90IQ, I have never experienced teenage love, I have never experienced a girl looking at me with adoration, I have never experienced a girl talking to me beyond asking for answers, when I tried to talk to women they used to look at me in disgust when I smile and say hi, my first ever party was when I started college, and I have never been invited anywhere since.

To cope with my genetic undesirability I will have to take my IQcelling to the max; I'll probably get a PhD, the stims I'm soon to get will accelerate my working ability so I can slave even further.

If I was a 6'2+ HTN, I wouldn't have to worry about being a studycel, I wouldn't have to go to the gym and roid, I wouldn't have to learn an instrument, I wouldn't have spent my teenage years rotting on RW forums and consoooming animanga, reading books like a faggot with no meaningful real life friendships. I could just walk out and my life would come to me on a silver platter: friends, chicks, even work--you cannot get any job in management, sales, M&A, any people-oriented field really if you're a fucking manlet anyways.

Even if I get the status of a well-paying job, a PhD, whatever, I will never fill the void in my soul, and no amount of "love" will be real and I will only be wanted for my status and outwardly-percieved normgroided form of "intelligence" that conceptually normalfaggots cannot even comprehend--hot smart women go for dumb Chads, or at least dumb tall guys, mostly. Even when I can afford surgery, I will still look grossly out of proportion with LL (I have very long tibias, long legs overall, long arms help my case a bit but I have a short torso), and my life will still be fucking over.

Because of my Faustian drive--the drive that took my family out of their socialist shitholes--I cannot accept my current situation, so I must find purpose in something else. Everything else, however, as we all know, is a massive load of cope, and I will be left with an immense void in my life that will never truly be filled. Thoughts?

 

[tenmacel]

Opsec level: I don't give a shit anymore man

 

[egyptianslayr]

1580 sat without studying is fucking insane, nicely done

 

[minty]

I'm similar to what you're describing and I still gotta study too. Life doesn't just pause for people who look good you still gotta do shit. In life u gotta take your advantages and use them wisely, if you're wealthy with a job lined up that's something you should be grateful for

 

[tenmacel]

I'm similar to what you're describing and I still gotta study too. Life doesn't just pause for people who look good you still gotta do shit. In life u gotta take your advantages and use them wisely, if you're wealthy with a job lined up that's something you should be grateful for

Life pauses for Chad and lets him think even if he can't do much thinking, see: Meeks

 

[minty]

Life pauses for Chad and lets him think even if he can't do much thinking, see: Meeks

That's cope. Meeks is a one in a couple million face. The issue with the internet is it allows yourself to compare to ppl like this, 100 years ago you'd probably live your whole life without seeing anyone above an 8 ever.

I understand the people who feel despair when they have nothing going for them, but if you have self-described advantages in life already and you gloss over them for the sake of wishing of another life to take its place, you're not utilising your situation in a way that will benefit you. If you are grateful for your opportunities instead of mournful about the negatives, you'll grow into a better and happier person.

 

[tenmacel]

1580 sat without studying is fucking insane, nicely done

Thx, doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things tho and the sat isn't that g-loaded it's why jeets/chinx do so well on it

 

[greyloot123]

I am from a wealthy family (<.5% of US earners), good house(s), go to a good program in a good uni (not the best because I fucked up my grades due to mental illness in HS), intelligent (no official IQ score but I perform very well on g-loaded exams, e.g 1580 SAT w/o studying or retakes) except I'm a 5'9 LTN giga-autist, and I'm half-ethnic (half churka half scandinavian, although I am white passing the churka in me made me even more of a manlet).

I have a mid 6-figures job lined up right after undergrad, but I would throw all this shit away to be 6'2+, HTN, NT, and fully white. I don't care if I was piss poor and 90IQ, I have never experienced teenage love, I have never experienced a girl looking at me with adoration, I have never experienced a girl talking to me beyond asking for answers, when I tried to talk to women they used to look at me in disgust when I smile and say hi, my first ever party was when I started college, and I have never been invited anywhere since.

To cope with my genetic undesirability I will have to take my IQcelling to the max; I'll probably get a PhD, the stims I'm soon to get will accelerate my working ability so I can slave even further.

If I was a 6'2+ HTN, I wouldn't have to worry about being a studycel, I wouldn't have to go to the gym and roid, I wouldn't have to learn an instrument, I wouldn't have spent my teenage years rotting on RW forums and consoooming animanga, reading books like a faggot with no meaningful real life friendships. I could just walk out and my life would come to me on a silver platter: friends, chicks, even work--you cannot get any job in management, sales, M&A, any people-oriented field really if you're a fucking manlet anyways.

Even if I get the status of a well-paying job, a PhD, whatever, I will never fill the void in my soul, and no amount of "love" will be real and I will only be wanted for my status and outwardly-percieved normgroided form of "intelligence" that conceptually normalfaggots cannot even comprehend--hot smart women go for dumb Chads, or at least dumb tall guys, mostly. Even when I can afford surgery, I will still look grossly out of proportion with LL (I have very long tibias, long legs overall, long arms help my case a bit but I have a short torso), and my life will still be fucking over.

Because of my Faustian drive--the drive that took my family out of their socialist shitholes--I cannot accept my current situation, so I must find purpose in something else. Everything else, however, as we all know, is a massive load of cope, and I will be left with an immense void in my life that will never truly be filled. Thoughts?

buy your way to htn bro you got robux to skip the obby

 

[tenmacel]

That's cope. Meeks is a one in a couple million face. The issue with the internet is it allows yourself to compare to ppl like this, 100 years ago you'd probably live your whole life without seeing anyone above an 8 ever.

I understand the people who feel despair when they have nothing going for them, but if you have self-described advantages in life already and you gloss over them for the sake of wishing of another life to take its place, you're not utilising your situation in a way that will benefit you. If you are grateful for your opportunities instead of mournful about the negatives, you'll grow into a better and happier person.

Yeah yeah play the hand you've been dealt sure, but I will never truly be happy without being at the top of the totem pole, it is trite and corny to call it my Faustian spirit, but it is--maybe you can call it neuroticism-- manifested through chasing things that may not ever be attained risking everything for them, it is a fundamental part of looksmaxxing really and drove me for most of my life

 

[tenmacel]

buy your way to htn bro you got robux to skip the obby

I'll still be 5'9 and have to undergo excruciating pain to not be invisible to women

 

[greyloot123]

I'll still be 5'9 and have to undergo excruciating pain to not be invisible to women

that's a fucking lie lol, even the best looking have a lower smv than the lower tier of women the best looking just have a better chance. even though looks is a big part of life it's not everything, you still eat you still shit and youre still gonna do other stuff besides looking good. we're all humans and once you look as good as you possibly can, you need to turn back and see how far you've come not how far the finish line is, that's how I cope anyway.

 

[greyloot123]

that's a fucking lie lol, even the best looking have a lower smv than the lower tier of women the best looking just have a better chance. even though looks is a big part of life it's not everything, you still eat you still shit and youre still gonna do other stuff besides looking good. we're all humans and once you look as good as you possibly can, you need to turn back and see how far you've come not how far the finish line is, that's how I cope anyway.

Sorry i meant to reply to the message above mine wrong reply lol (FIXED)

 

[dxrek]

u can buy ur way to htn id easily take your current situation

 

[tenmacel]

that's a fucking lie lol, even the best looking have a lower smv than the lower tier of women the best looking just have a better chance. even though looks is a big part of life it's not everything, you still eat you still shit and youre still gonna do other stuff besides looking good. we're all humans and once you look as good as you possibly can, you need to turn back and see how far you've come not how far the finish line is, that's how I cope anyway.

Nah it's about the finish line haha, coming from a malformed chimp to an LMTN means nothing in the grand scheme of things, the premise of looks as an indicator of SMV is that you compare yourself to others (ratings and whatnot are relative no matter how hard it takes to standardize), your joy will always be stolen if you aren't at the top

 

[tenmacel]

u can buy ur way to htn id easily take your current situation

I'll still be 5'9 and have to undergo excruciating pain to not be invisible to women

 

[minty]

Yeah yeah play the hand you've been dealt sure, but I will never truly be happy without being at the top of the totem pole, it is trite and corny to call it my Faustian spirit, but it is--maybe you can call it neuroticism-- manifested through chasing things that may not ever be attained risking everything for them, it is a fundamental part of looksmaxxing really and drove me for most of my life

That's a fair argument and I don't think I can critique that, especially not on a forum of this nature. Just make sure you remember to realise every once in a while that you're fortunate in other ways, so you don't get too negative minded. The quality of ur thoughts is basically what determines your success in life, so if I were you I'd just be happy you're not poor. There's always a smaller fish.

And congrats on your 100th post containing literally zero text lmfao

 

[Joeseminate]

water, anyone in your situation would

 

[tenmacel]

water, anyone in your situation would

Miring Roman von Sternberg

 

[tenmacel]

That's a fair argument and I don't think I can critique that, especially not on a forum of this nature. Just make sure you remember to realise every once in a while that you're fortunate in other ways, so you don't get too negative minded. The quality of ur thoughts is basically what determines your success in life, so if I were you I'd just be happy you're not poor. There's always a smaller fish.

And congrats on your 100th post containing literally zero text lmfao

I am happy I'm not poor, I am not happy that I'm not a 6'2+ HTN and will never truly be one, whatever nigga

 

[Joestar$]

1580 sat without studying is fucking insane, nicely done

Insane only in a 3rd world country

 

[AtrophicPyra]

I am from a wealthy family (<.5% of US earners), good house(s), go to a good program in a good uni (not the best because I fucked up my grades due to mental illness in HS), intelligent (no official IQ score but I perform very well on g-loaded exams, e.g 1580 SAT w/o studying or retakes) except I'm a 5'9 LTN giga-autist, and I'm half-ethnic (half churka half scandinavian, although I am white passing the churka in me made me even more of a manlet).

I have a mid 6-figures job lined up right after undergrad, but I would throw all this shit away to be 6'2+, HTN, NT, and fully white. I don't care if I was piss poor and 90IQ, I have never experienced teenage love, I have never experienced a girl looking at me with adoration, I have never experienced a girl talking to me beyond asking for answers, when I tried to talk to women they used to look at me in disgust when I smile and say hi, my first ever party was when I started college, and I have never been invited anywhere since.

To cope with my genetic undesirability I will have to take my IQcelling to the max; I'll probably get a PhD, the stims I'm soon to get will accelerate my working ability so I can slave even further.

If I was a 6'2+ HTN, I wouldn't have to worry about being a studycel, I wouldn't have to go to the gym and roid, I wouldn't have to learn an instrument, I wouldn't have spent my teenage years rotting on RW forums and consoooming animanga, reading books like a faggot with no meaningful real life friendships. I could just walk out and my life would come to me on a silver platter: friends, chicks, even work--you cannot get any job in management, sales, M&A, any people-oriented field really if you're a fucking manlet anyways.

Even if I get the status of a well-paying job, a PhD, whatever, I will never fill the void in my soul, and no amount of "love" will be real and I will only be wanted for my status and outwardly-percieved normgroided form of "intelligence" that conceptually normalfaggots cannot even comprehend--hot smart women go for dumb Chads, or at least dumb tall guys, mostly. Even when I can afford surgery, I will still look grossly out of proportion with LL (I have very long tibias, long legs overall, long arms help my case a bit but I have a short torso), and my life will still be fucking over.

Because of my Faustian drive--the drive that took my family out of their socialist shitholes--I cannot accept my current situation, so I must find purpose in something else. Everything else, however, as we all know, is a massive load of cope, and I will be left with an immense void in my life that will never truly be filled. Thoughts?

bro are we deadass?

if u were rlly intelligent you would realize u can js get ll surgery and get to 6’2, then live ur dream life through roids surgery and pharma..

 

[tenmacel]

bro are we deadass?

if u were rlly intelligent you would realize u can js get ll surgery and get to 6’2, then live ur dream life through roids surgery and pharma..

Read the full post

 

[greyloot123]

Nah it's about the finish line haha, coming from a malformed chimp to an LMTN means nothing in the grand scheme of things, the premise of looks as an indicator of SMV is that you compare yourself to others (ratings and whatnot are relative no matter how hard it takes to standardize), your joy will always be stolen if you aren't at the top

If we're talking in the grand scheme of things nothing matters at all lol. wallowing in self pity isn't a way to live. whining because you aren't the best looking person of all time is a waste when you have tools to push forward. you aren't a 6'2 htn? tough shit bro but if u arent gonna try anyway then it's ur fault you look bad

 

[tenmacel]

Insane only in a 3rd world country

Ur right... If I studied probably 1600, I'm ESL so I took the 20 pt hit off the grammar section

 

[greyloot123]

Ur right... If I studied probably 1600, I'm ESL so I took the 20 pt hit off the grammar section

yo if you really think that i dont know how u actually got a 1580 have some pride bro ffs

 

[minty]

I am happy I'm not poor, I am not happy that I'm not a 6'2+ HTN and will never truly be one, whatever nigga

Did you misinterpret what I said as some kind of insult towards you? My bad for tryna give advice dude just stay as you are, continue feeling sorry for yourself

 

[tenmacel]

Did you misinterpret what I said as some kind of insult towards you? My bad for tryna give advice dude just stay as you are, continue feeling sorry for yourself

I said whatever nigga to ur last bit

 

[tenmacel]

yo if you really think that i dont know how u actually got a 1580 have some pride bro ffs

I got it because I'm intelligent but I had 0 work ethic, vyvanse will solve this

 

[AtrophicPyra]

Read the full post

not much know abt this but u can get metal implants i think or filler inbetween ur spinal discs if ur interested in that

but if ur making 6 figures u can deadass js get bmp2 and cartilllage scaffolds and reopen ur plates

 

[Bipolar2Cel]

I am physically what you want to be and my life kind of sucks @tenmacel though I am bipolar and ND, also high not low IQ. Women kind of suck and the extreme attention never fixed me or made me happy, it is like background noise for me at this point. I don't think women especially modern women can make you happy, unless you are super lucky and have kids etc. If you make lots of money you can still have tons of fun and find a decent woman OP.

Also if you don't believe me just look at all rich celebrity Chads that had money and infinite access to women that roped or died from drug overdose lol???!!!! Yet more proof women and female attention don't default to happiness.

 

[Bipolar2Cel]

I am physically what you want to be and my life kind of sucks @tenmacel though I am bipolar and ND, also high not low IQ. Women kind of suck and the extreme attention never fixed me or made me happy, it is like background noise for me at this point. I don't think women especially modern women can make you happy, unless you are super lucky and have kids etc. If you make lots of money you can still have tons of fun and find a decent woman OP.

Also if you don't believe me just look at all rich celebrity Chads that had money and infinite access to women that roped or died from drug overdose lol???!!!! Yet more proof women and female attention don't default to happiness.

Of course my POV is that of a person that suffers from extreme depression a lot maybe if I was NT my life would have been awesome with all female attention I get @tenmacel so you can't 100% trust my POV either

 

[tenmacel]

not much know abt this but u can get metal implants i think or filler inbetween ur spinal discs if ur interested in that

but if ur making 6 figures u can deadass js get bmp2 and cartilllage scaffolds and reopen ur plates

Didn't know that actually only knew LL, seems very experimental, thanks will look in2it

 

[tenmacel]

I am physically what you want to be and my life kind of sucks @tenmacel though I am bipolar and ND, also high not low IQ. Women kind of suck and the extreme attention never fixed me or made me happy, it is like background noise for me at this point. I don't think women especially modern women can make you happy, unless you are super lucky and have kids etc. If you make lots of money you can still have tons of fun and find a decent woman OP.

Also if you don't believe me just look at all rich celebrity Chads that had money and infinite access to women that roped or died from drug overdose lol???!!!! Yet more proof women and female attention don't default to happiness.

I just want some, I don't feel any emotional connection with women atp, I also specifically said NT but wtv, it would be nice just to slay crazy etc

 

[Joestar$]

Ur right... If I studied probably 1600, I'm ESL so I took the 20 pt hit off the grammar section

I would rather drop out then be in ESL I know 5 languages

 

[cyrillic]

I am from a wealthy family (<.5% of US earners), good house(s), go to a good program in a good uni (not the best because I fucked up my grades due to mental illness in HS), intelligent (no official IQ score but I perform very well on g-loaded exams, e.g 1580 SAT w/o studying or retakes) except I'm a 5'9 LTN giga-autist, and I'm half-ethnic (half churka half scandinavian, although I am white passing the churka in me made me even more of a manlet).

I have a mid 6-figures job lined up right after undergrad, but I would throw all this shit away to be 6'2+, HTN, NT, and fully white. I don't care if I was piss poor and 90IQ, I have never experienced teenage love, I have never experienced a girl looking at me with adoration, I have never experienced a girl talking to me beyond asking for answers, when I tried to talk to women they used to look at me in disgust when I smile and say hi, my first ever party was when I started college, and I have never been invited anywhere since.

To cope with my genetic undesirability I will have to take my IQcelling to the max; I'll probably get a PhD, the stims I'm soon to get will accelerate my working ability so I can slave even further.

If I was a 6'2+ HTN, I wouldn't have to worry about being a studycel, I wouldn't have to go to the gym and roid, I wouldn't have to learn an instrument, I wouldn't have spent my teenage years rotting on RW forums and consoooming animanga, reading books like a faggot with no meaningful real life friendships. I could just walk out and my life would come to me on a silver platter: friends, chicks, even work--you cannot get any job in management, sales, M&A, any people-oriented field really if you're a fucking manlet anyways.

Even if I get the status of a well-paying job, a PhD, whatever, I will never fill the void in my soul, and no amount of "love" will be real and I will only be wanted for my status and outwardly-percieved normgroided form of "intelligence" that conceptually normalfaggots cannot even comprehend--hot smart women go for dumb Chads, or at least dumb tall guys, mostly. Even when I can afford surgery, I will still look grossly out of proportion with LL (I have very long tibias, long legs overall, long arms help my case a bit but I have a short torso), and my life will still be fucking over.

Because of my Faustian drive--the drive that took my family out of their socialist shitholes--I cannot accept my current situation, so I must find purpose in something else. Everything else, however, as we all know, is a massive load of cope, and I will be left with an immense void in my life that will never truly be filled. Thoughts?

Bro icl ur retarded ts whole jawn like pissed me off hella so much so imma go down this line by line:

First the sat isn’t very g loaded in its modern form you would’ve been right were you to have taken it in like 1980 but certainly not now

Second you say ur churka whatever like it matters have you MET a Churka or been to Russia or had any association with the people whom the term is ascribed to outside of your ancestry? It’s like well known in Russia that churkas(Armenians, north caucasians, Georgians, etc) are womanizers and very appealing and all the rest it’s not a negative trait by any mean(relate it to the space black people occupy in America if it makes it any easier to understand)

Third ur 5 9 not even Manlet certainly not in a way that precludes you from any and all forms of attraction from the opposite sex; I know this because I’m around the same height 5-10 5 11 and truly there is very little difference in my perceived desirability in lifts or without them.


Fourth nt pill not looks pill it’s genuinely about being nt which to an extent is helped in materializing by being good looking in ur formative years; this doesn’t mean you have no agency of ur own to change this quality of yours through personal desire and will.

Fifth if you were a 6 2 retarded white htn ur life would be easier in that which you do not have now but much more difficult everywhere else; being smart and knowing how to talk to people and convince them of ur truth is like 80 percent of all human interaction being gl is only the initial it is not the continuous

Sixth hot smart women don’t go for dumb chads, on the micro level ie not famous normal people it’s dead js mostly guys they have known for very long or (in the case of immigrant women from the eastern bloc think Caucasus Russia balkans etc) it’s a masculine assertive dude who is like mtn at best; it is very rare that they go for very good looking men solely most of the time the man coasts on his good looks and cannot meaningfully do anything right in the actual relationship(he is retarded); on the macro level you will see the best looking men in the world dating mid shitty women because the men save for their looks are not interesting. I am discounting financial reasoning cause atp anybody can get anybody with enough financial eminence but that is not “love”.

Seventh shut the fuck up faustian drive you speak of it as though it’s unique to you n ur family it dead isn’t it’s an omnipresent thing amongst most any human obviously it manifests itself differently with no uniform manner of settling but that’s unrelated to your family’s previous surroundings and material conditions; if you had actual Faustian drive with relation to ur life you’d get bitches by any means necessary you wouldn’t succumb to ur fate and accept that ur biggest regret is one you will have to live with that’s the opposite of Faustian

Sorry if it’s all run on sentences and hard to understand I’m on the train rn this js got me hella tight