Wow, my life has changed so much

[fazehamster]

I remember one time in primary school, I think like year 5 at the time, some girl helped me colour in this poster which was our assignment at the time. She even drew me clouds. I can’t remember what the poster was even on but I remember cloud part really well, I think it’s because that’s how I now draw clouds. At the time I don’t think I really thought much of this gesture. But fast forward to my life right now, I’m year 11 and if a girl was to help me draw and colour in something I would probably fall I love at first sight and pass out lol. I literally cannot look a girl in the eyes for more than 1 second and I spend my weekdays and weekends rotting away. I also now do everything for nostalgia. All the songs I listen to are old ones I used to and I’m always thinking about my old life events. I’m even nostalgic for my way of life just 2-3 months ago, when i was so much less self conscious.

When I get out of this chronically online state hopefully I will be normal again. I think I’m going to live without a phone and mirror when I’m older so I’ll never know anything except through just viewing it like we would as kids as even if we did have phone and we had mirrors we would never think anything about it. I just need to wait 130 weeks until I finish school completely and I’m 18. I will geomaxx straight away and never worry about a thing.

I think we all need a girl which will draw and colour with us. It will fix everything.

 

[Wuzzdio]

 

[Deleted member 104089]

I also now do everything for nostalgia. All the songs I listen to are old ones I used to and I’m always thinking about my old life events. I’m even nostalgic for my way of life just 2-3 months ago, when i was so much less self conscious.

How do you feel when you do it, sad? Or does it not affect you

When I get out of this chronically online state hopefully I will be normal again

wishing for you

I think we all need a girl which will draw and colour with us. It will fix everything.

I think your right

 

[fazehamster]

How do you feel when you do it, sad? Or does it not affect you

wishing for you

I think your right

It’s better than no nostalgia ibr

 

[fazehamster]

wishing for you

Thanks for your love and support

 

[DoctorPMA]

this is what loneliness does to people

 

[fazehamster]

this is what loneliness does to people

i very much so agree