wtf do i do man

[seeker]

heavily controlling parents so no independence, no proper way of earning (im coding but it's hard as shit to find a job), no way of even getting money from the clients even if i find one (parents wont let me get my own bank account (and im 17, 16 in legal documents because pakistanis love fraud), and even if i use bitcoin it'll be hard to get someone to transfer it to cash and harder yet to hide the cash even IF i can get it). if i go down the 'hey bro be patient' route, it'll take 3 years before i can move out. i cant fucking bear 3 years ive already had 2 barely survived suicide attempts

plus i cant study from all this mental anguish

i've tried therapy and im on anti-depressants (but my parents refuse to increase my lexapro dose to 10mg despite doctors telling them). doesnt fucking help man nothing fucking helps

 

[Neucher]

Order from darknet market vendor and pickup the package yourself

 

[seeker]

Order from darknet market vendor and pickup the package yourself

No money bro. And Ik people I could easily order locally but if I get caught... let's just say last time I got caught I still have scars on my arms and it was my 2nd suicide attempt

 

[seeker]

beep

 

[Alias!]

heavily controlling parents so no independence, no proper way of earning (im coding but it's hard as shit to find a job), no way of even getting money from the clients even if i find one (parents wont let me get my own bank account (and im 17, 16 in legal documents because pakistanis love fraud), and even if i use bitcoin it'll be hard to get someone to transfer it to cash and harder yet to hide the cash even IF i can get it). if i go down the 'hey bro be patient' route, it'll take 3 years before i can move out. i cant fucking bear 3 years ive already had 2 barely survived suicide attempts

plus i cant study from all this mental anguish

i've tried therapy and im on anti-depressants (but my parents refuse to increase my lexapro dose to 10mg despite doctors telling them). doesnt fucking help man nothing fucking helps

Try to stay out the house as much as possible.

 

[seeker]

Try to stay out the house as much as possible.

They don't let me go outside since 6 months (I relapsed on just some clonazepam ;/)

 

[Alias!]

They don't let me go outside since 6 months (I relapsed on just some clonazepam ;/)

Just try to get headphones to ignore them .

 

[seeker]

Just try to get headphones to ignore them .

True bro but I'm scared if I'm too disrespectful they'll make my life worse. I'm in fking Pakistan so it's not like I can run away without getting molested and then sold to some gay old millionaire

 

[Alias!]

True bro but I'm scared if I'm too disrespectful they'll make my life worse. I'm in fking Pakistan so it's not like I can run away without getting molested and then sold to some gay old millionaire

Yeah just try to do what you can and not blame yourself, good luck.