brian_2009
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Hey guys long time no see. Not that im truly apart of this community anyway as im too lazy do to basic shit but anyways
Lets get to the point: Ive been able to get a girlfriend. Yaaay right? Well ive broken up with her because I couldnt stand it after 3 months.
We met through a common friend and the first time we saw us she complemented my face. Blablabla we got together and from then on everything went downhill. She was always acting annoyed or even angry when we texted, was weird and not willing to do anything when we met up and always belittled me saying Im too much of an autist and that Im barely human. I swallowed it all thinking it would get better but no. She said things like "my guy bestfriend loves me more than you" or "i talked to that and that guy blablabla (imagine stupid foid yap)" and ALWAYS talked about her exes mostly about one gentically gifted 6'1 jacked guy (which she thinks is better than me even though he beat her up and almost killed her, proving yet again you can be as nice as you want itll never be enough if youre ugly or nd) and generally left me feeling humiliated and more depressed than before. She always just wanted to make out or do some horny stuff but never wanting to talk. I tried talking to her just holding hands but she either complained and didnt listen or intervened with a kiss. And when I didnt talk she complained about me being so silent.
She also just casually spilled secrets Ive mostly told her under the influence of alc, weed or maybe once lyrics (did it like three times and I think its the most bullshit NTmaxxing thing ever but whatever works for you guys ig), telling them loudly in a group while my mind was already at rock bottom.
Her slightly older brother is an autist too and I always enjoyed when he was at her house, he always made me genuinely laugh and we sometimes smoked cigs together. And this stupid cunt always sent him away telling me hes annoying and unfunny and telling me im as annoying and acting just like her brother
(Maybe I should JBG with him
)
Heyyyy but its all cool I still have some yummy chinese pharma stuff that my veins can feast upon.
But in all seriousness. I think its over. I genuinely dont want to live anymore. Not necessarily because of her no it has always been on my mind since like 11 or 12. Its just getting worse and worse. I wish in the next life im far away from this world. I dont want anything to do with these shitty people. I hate this world. But I can have appreciation for some people for example people in this community that helped others, even though I think this forum isnt really good for anything anymore (pls lmk when theres still one out here thats worth the effort
) and I can appreciate music and art in general even if its just in form of a video, I can appreciate the human mind behind that. But all the more I hate that I have never been able to do something like this. Im a waste of fucking space its digusting.
Ill let you guys know when Im deleting myself and post my ascension beforehand (however far it has gone until then). Maybe Ill even do a livestream where I show you funny tricks with my nerfgun and my head
But I still have cigarettes so everythings in control
Lets get to the point: Ive been able to get a girlfriend. Yaaay right? Well ive broken up with her because I couldnt stand it after 3 months.
We met through a common friend and the first time we saw us she complemented my face. Blablabla we got together and from then on everything went downhill. She was always acting annoyed or even angry when we texted, was weird and not willing to do anything when we met up and always belittled me saying Im too much of an autist and that Im barely human. I swallowed it all thinking it would get better but no. She said things like "my guy bestfriend loves me more than you" or "i talked to that and that guy blablabla (imagine stupid foid yap)" and ALWAYS talked about her exes mostly about one gentically gifted 6'1 jacked guy (which she thinks is better than me even though he beat her up and almost killed her, proving yet again you can be as nice as you want itll never be enough if youre ugly or nd) and generally left me feeling humiliated and more depressed than before. She always just wanted to make out or do some horny stuff but never wanting to talk. I tried talking to her just holding hands but she either complained and didnt listen or intervened with a kiss. And when I didnt talk she complained about me being so silent.
She also just casually spilled secrets Ive mostly told her under the influence of alc, weed or maybe once lyrics (did it like three times and I think its the most bullshit NTmaxxing thing ever but whatever works for you guys ig), telling them loudly in a group while my mind was already at rock bottom.
Her slightly older brother is an autist too and I always enjoyed when he was at her house, he always made me genuinely laugh and we sometimes smoked cigs together. And this stupid cunt always sent him away telling me hes annoying and unfunny and telling me im as annoying and acting just like her brother
(Maybe I should JBG with him
)Heyyyy but its all cool I still have some yummy chinese pharma stuff that my veins can feast upon.
But in all seriousness. I think its over. I genuinely dont want to live anymore. Not necessarily because of her no it has always been on my mind since like 11 or 12. Its just getting worse and worse. I wish in the next life im far away from this world. I dont want anything to do with these shitty people. I hate this world. But I can have appreciation for some people for example people in this community that helped others, even though I think this forum isnt really good for anything anymore (pls lmk when theres still one out here thats worth the effort
) and I can appreciate music and art in general even if its just in form of a video, I can appreciate the human mind behind that. But all the more I hate that I have never been able to do something like this. Im a waste of fucking space its digusting.Ill let you guys know when Im deleting myself and post my ascension beforehand (however far it has gone until then). Maybe Ill even do a livestream where I show you funny tricks with my nerfgun and my head
But I still have cigarettes so everythings in control
