You have to have an abnormal upbringing to hardcore believe in the blackpill

[5.5psl]

ideas like sub 8 theory , hypergamy etc for a man to fully accept this he cannot have a normal upbringing
either you were bullied or treated differently as a result of your looks maybe rejected to finally come and accept this

but no normal teen going through life will ever accept that personality doesnt matter and its all about looks.