You simply just can't be more abused dog that this...

[LocalDanger]

I remember few weeks back when I as retard thought I had a chance with my teen jbs onetisi. And thought that date was coming.

Walking down the street and actually for the first time thinking about my death and first time caring not to die. Actually deeply caring and being scared not wanting to die. Realizing that all this time I'm not even alive and that even I don't give a shit if I die.

I only then in pretty much forever cared deeply not to die.

Brutal.

 

[LocalDanger]

why exactly do you think you didnt have a chance with her? she too pretty?

Yeah it's actually over.

I just think it's interesting that I usually don't care a single bit about dying.

And that I felt what it's like to really not want to die

 

[Enfant terrible]

I fucked here instead

 

[LocalDanger]

are you really gonna rope over a girl

Not necessarily rope don't have balls for that.

But just saying that only time I cared and thought about how bad it is if car ran me over while walking down the street was when I thought I had a date with oneitis incoming.

Any other time I subconsciously don't care since there is nothing that important out there.

 

[LocalDanger]

Ah, that means you still got something to lose

Truly broken people don't give a damn about roping since they have nothing else to look forward to

Could be bro could also be fear of death

 

[LocalDanger]

People in anguish care more about ending their suffering in life than death.

True bro def.

But sometimes you just don't see solution or are so attached to something in life it has so much meaning to you that even if someone offered to reprogram you to go on but you forget that thing you wouldn't take it. Like you don't want life without it