5/56

[Amuzant]

Song Of The Day



Wasted the entire day today.

Got raped by @tuberculosisinmybal last night

Got my nigga @RedDragonSlayer unbanned!

Spoiler

(i didnt but like to think my words of wisdom helped)

Scent of the day!​

I did not sleep the night prior. Work early morning set me into a place of fear of ignoring my alarm and sleeping through my shift. No sleep and only caffiene keeping me awake. ​

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I love being tired, it makes everything funny and makes work go by faster.
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My nicotine cravings are still non-existent, last night when I could not sleep, I did want too as it kind of gives me a high then extreme low dopamine effect making me feel more tired.

I hope anyone who wants to quit can realize how easy it is after the first few days!​

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Cravings for Doritos as if I were hung over where so prevalent i had to fulfil this desire immediately and ate a bag of Doritos and some chocolate on my break​

The WORST decision I could have possibly made.

These 2 foids I was meant to get with during the afternoon where now out of the spectrum with the pains I was experiencing internally, i believe this sick i was experiencing was from my body not having to deal with giga processed foods for a while.

So i cancelled my plans and re arranged them for my next day off which is Wednesday, but now this new girl wants me to come over Wednesday to "watch a movie" and i don't know who to cancel on

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I went so far over my calories today, i felt so slumpt and craved food after being sick. Calories where irrelevant to how i felt but i still tracked them as i am heavily autistic. Was double my daily limit, but it is worth it.​

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Today was just a horrid day, but I am slowly improving.

I am beginning to feel more alive, more real. I feel free.



If you wish to be tagged in the future, ask!!!​

Wednesday (7/56) should be more entertaining

Spoiler: Tag

@sasha108
@yyk117
@Nocturnal

5/56 Amuzant

 

[Amuzant]

Oh and i am currently on Episode 14 of Death Note it's getting better

Forgot to mention*

 

[RedDragonSlayer]

Oh and i am currently on Episode 14 of Death Note it's getting better

Forgot to mention*

I love death note

 

[Amuzant]

I love death note

i didnt like it for a while ngl, around ep 9-11 i got so fricken bored. But i wanna finish it, its getting better and better.

 

[Nocturnal]

i want doritos now

i would go watch the movie with the girl

 

[Amuzant]

i want doritos now

i dont think ill ever eat them again, my stomach is still aching

i would go watch the movie with the girl

she's very tempting ngl but i have re arranged dates with the 2girls.

 

[Nocturnal]

i dont think ill ever eat them again, my stomach is still aching


she's very tempting ngl but i have re arranged dates with the 2girls.

re arrange again say ur very very busy wednesday and u js go tmr or thursday



I also stopped eating processed food

whenever i did i had stomache pain for atleast a day and got to shit badly

 

[yyk117]

howd you get unbanned so quickly

 

[Amuzant]

howd you get unbanned so quickly

i told @tuberculosisinmybal he would pay for it if he didnt. and then he shit himself and immediately unbanned me, sadly i cant leak pms but yea he was scared shitless.

 

[buccalfatremoval]

Great song and perfume
Cut down on cals for the next few days to compensate for the binge

 

[Amuzant]

Great song and perfume
Cut down on cals for the next few days to compensate for the binge

i plan to go do some cardio pretty soon ngl

 

[Amuzant]

Great song and perfume
Cut down on cals for the next few days to compensate for the binge

i think the calorie binge was from shitting my guts out, i felt empty or something. who knows.

 

[sasha108]

I don't know how you can enjoy being tired.

I understand what you mean when you say that everything becomes funny, but it's just too exhausting for me

 

[Amuzant]

I don't know how you can enjoy being tired.

I understand what you mean when you say that everything becomes funny, but it's just too exhausting for me

I hate being tired when im not moving. For instance in a classroom Seated for an hour. Then it becomes awful. But when you go for a early morning sunset walk feeling free minded light headed and absent from reality it is so beautiful. The cold, the wind, everything. I love it.

 

[sasha108]

I hate being tired when im not moving. For instance in a classroom Seated for an hour. Then it becomes awful. But when you go for a early morning sunset walk feeling free minded light headed and absent from reality it is so beautiful. The cold, the wind, everything. I love it.

Yeah, but its nice to go for a walk, and then go to sleep. Everything else feels like hell