Absolute solitude

[toji.]

This Christmas was awful. It makes me think that my family doesn't really act sensibly or seriously. What's more, I feel that they don't respect me and my feelings.

I gave my mother some Swarovski hoop earrings, which were particularly expensive, because it will probably be the last Christmas I spend with my family. I also gave my father a good gift.

However, my brother, who is older than me and has a harder time, gave him something simple. Which isn't inherently negative, on the contrary, it's understandable. We don't compete to see who's the best and stuff. Fortunately, I did well in school since I was a child, and I haven't had any trouble finding work. My brother has had a harder time than I have, but he has managed to get ahead. But my family tends to compare us, my mother looked at the earrings with disdain, and then told me that she couldn't say anything about them because it would offend my brother. My father also made a comment along those lines.

My cousin, who is 5'5“, started doing gymnastics and some wrestling, but he's very weak. I'm 6'0”, so obviously someone his size is no match for me, but he started putting me in headlocks throughout Christmas dinner. This guy is 16 years old. I wasn't going to hit him, we were at a Christmas dinner, I just stopped him from turning off the tap.

This Christmas, I felt ashamed of my family. They have no class and no capacity for self-reflection.

This 2026 year I'm leaving the country, and I'm seriously considering cutting off all contact with my family.

I feel ashamed of my family, I feel sorry for that alienation, for not feeling part of them.

I have slowly begun to erase my online footprint, my emails, my old Facebook accounts, my Instagram accounts.

I have created accounts on Protonme and used hidden emails on some services so that I cannot be traced.

This forum is the last thing I will leave. I hope to withdraw from this forum in mid-August. I will delete everything after I have made my physical change.

 

[TopTierIncel42]

Planning to do the same thing with my parents bhai. Always have felt like a prized pony they showed off instead of a kid. Hopefully you succeed

 

[XazaqazaX]

Keep head up mate, it tough out their I relate

 

[Elf]

This Christmas was awful. It makes me think that my family doesn't really act sensibly or seriously. What's more, I feel that they don't respect me and my feelings.

I gave my mother some Swarovski hoop earrings, which were particularly expensive, because it will probably be the last Christmas I spend with my family. I also gave my father a good gift.

However, my brother, who is older than me and has a harder time, gave him something simple. Which isn't inherently negative, on the contrary, it's understandable. We don't compete to see who's the best and stuff. Fortunately, I did well in school since I was a child, and I haven't had any trouble finding work. My brother has had a harder time than I have, but he has managed to get ahead. But my family tends to compare us, my mother looked at the earrings with disdain, and then told me that she couldn't say anything about them because it would offend my brother. My father also made a comment along those lines.

My cousin, who is 5'5“, started doing gymnastics and some wrestling, but he's very weak. I'm 6'0”, so obviously someone his size is no match for me, but he started putting me in headlocks throughout Christmas dinner. This guy is 16 years old. I wasn't going to hit him, we were at a Christmas dinner, I just stopped him from turning off the tap.

This Christmas, I felt ashamed of my family. They have no class and no capacity for self-reflection.

This 2026 year I'm leaving the country, and I'm seriously considering cutting off all contact with my family.

I feel ashamed of my family, I feel sorry for that alienation, for not feeling part of them.

I have slowly begun to erase my online footprint, my emails, my old Facebook accounts, my Instagram accounts.

I have created accounts on Protonme and used hidden emails on some services so that I cannot be traced.

This forum is the last thing I will leave. I hope to withdraw from this forum in mid-August. I will delete everything after I have made my physical change.

In a world of DNR, I read this.
Do not fully cut contact, leave a very small contact point.
I hope you’ll find the peace youre looking for bro

 

[toji.]

In a way, most of the people on this forum have the same goal: they want to improve. There are many people in the world who don't want that; they want to stay where they are and are comfortable with mediocrity. When you want to improve, these people may find you annoying, misunderstand you, or even see you as competition.

They forget that you are someone who feels, that what you have done is not for others but for yourself. Little by little, the alignment takes place, you become different, that is the achievement, but also loneliness.

 

[Elf]

In a way, most of the people on this forum have the same goal: they want to improve. There are many people in the world who don't want that; they want to stay where they are and are comfortable with mediocrity. When you want to improve, these people may find you annoying, misunderstand you, or even see you as competition.

They forget that you are someone who feels, that what you have done is not for others but for yourself. Little by little, the alignment takes place, you become different, that is the achievement, but also loneliness.

Hopefuly you’ll find a circle of friends that have an alignd way of thinking. Best of luck

 

[BigJimsWornOutTires]

It didn't feel like Christmas to 99.9% of America and Western nations. And that's because we have been violated.